20221211 张昕 Zhang Xin's Birthday Message to 许杨玉琢 XYYZ
ZX: Alright, I’ll start. [Audience makes noise] No, no no, it’s just-
XYYZ: Don’t have expectations. [ZX: right] She’s not good at writing letters, don’t expect too much. You’re putting a lot of pressure on her
TO Yangjie: I don’t need to think about it to know that your birthday stage definitely is amazing today. Although I kept falling sick during this period of time, I watched you constantly run around, planning for your stage from March to July, all the way until December when you finally managed to have this birthday stage.
As I write this letter, it is night time and I’m listening to music. There’s a lot I want to say but I don’t know where to start, there’s too much to say. Even though I’m still that me who doesn’t say a lot, spending the past eight years with you, we’ve been through too much. In the face of rumors and gossip, we have bravely been ourselves. Every time we’re exhausted from doing so, we hug each other and cry together, talking from night time until the sun rises. I don’t know when I slowly began to understand you better [T/N1] (ZX: I’m a bit nervous, a bit nervous). At times, without even speaking, our eyes meet and I know everything that you’re thinking. For many things, you pretend to be strong. You don’t talk about it, even if you’re actually affected by it. If you’re misunderstood, you’ll keep thinking about what you should do. So, knowing what you care about, I think that you are careless and a little stubborn at times, but you still care in your heart. (XYYZ: Stubborn? You are the more stubborn one! ZX: No, Libras are all quite stubborn, just that you… I may be more stubborn but you are more stubborn on the surface. It’s that- [Audience laughs] [T/N2] You’re thinking too much! I just meant that she is from the first half of Libra while I’m from the second half. So, I am relatively- Don’t laugh! I’m more of a Libra while she’s more like the earlier one. Therefore- Don’t laugh! XYYZ: The earlier what? Speak clearly. The earlier zodiac? ZX: Yes, the earlier zodiac. Let’s not talk about this anymore. The more I say, the stranger it gets.)
But you still care in your heart [T/N3]. It’s like how I rarely see you cry. Once, when you were running a high fever, I went out and wandered around outside. Only when I returned did I realize how high your fever was. At that time, you were lying in bed and crying. I felt horrible that I hadn’t been by your side. You are really someone who constantly needs friends to accompany them. You can’t go out alone or stay at home alone. Ever since that incident, I told myself: If you are ever alone, I will do anything to be by your side. (XYYZ: Alright then, you won’t go out to play sports? ZX: Ah, wait a minute, wait a minute. DM: Don’t worry, we’ll accompany her when ZX exercises. ZX: Just like Ah Meng said that she keeps wanting to come over, she actually can. Then, if I go out to exercise, Ah Meng can accompany her, just like how Ah Meng is wearing my clothes now. XYYZ: She said- GS: Which fanfic is this? ZX: No it’s, Ah Meng, Ah Meng- What did you say? DM: What fanfic are you talking about? GS: Wan Wan Lei Qing [T/N4] XYYZ: Do you think I don’t have eyes? Do you think I couldn’t see? ZX: It’s not that, it’s like that picture of us hanging over our bed. NYP: Hanging over whose bed? ZX: Just, our bed… bed bed… NYP: Your shared bed? ZX: Yes, yes yes yes yes yes.)
This year, we (ZX: Wait a minute, let me read this first. Didn’t you say you were going to cry? Why do I feel that you keep laughing? It’s all your fault! [T/N5] XYYZ: To be honest, I’m already not in the mood because of you. Thank you. ZX: Am I that funny? XYYZ: Thank you, one-eyed. [T/N6] ZX: Ah, save me. When I was writing this letter, I actually thought that I was being quite emotional. I may have deluded myself. XYYZ: Don’t laugh when you speak, be a little more serious. ZX: Okay) This year, we experienced a lot of mixed feelings. After Chinese New Year, we went into lockdown and felt anxious everyday. (XYYZ: Actually, only you were anxious. You would stand by the desk like this. Then, when you listened to music, you would suddenly cry. Then, I said: ZX look at this. [T/N7] ZX: Why am I being laughed at again? I want to say, I felt that you were actually quite happy at that time because you were playing games everyday. While I was crying everyday, I would hear her saying: charge, charge! Hit him, hit him! Maybe I was too self-absorbed at that time.)
Later on was Best Partners. Initially, we just wanted more opportunities to perform but then things didn’t go so smoothly. Just like that song we wrote, we wanted a perfect beginning but suddenly it did not go as planned. At that time, we were both more emo but our personalities make it such that both of us like to communicate in our own way. In a blink of an eye, it’s already the end of the year. This year, we have really experienced a lot, we’ve seen a lot but I’m still me and you’re still you. No matter how our relationship may change in the future, you will still be the person who knows me the best, the only person who is able to find me when I am most upset, when I am unhappy, when I disappear. You are somebody that I cannot lack in my life, Xu-Yang Yuzhuo.
T/N1: ZX mispronounces a word
T/N2: The word she's using for "stubborn" literally means "mouth is hard" and the audience keeps reacting to ZX talking about XYYZ's mouth
T/N3: ZX repeats herself, same line as what she said before the above section in brackets
T/N4: Reference to a drama
T/N5: Said to the audience
T/N6: ZX is wearing an eyepatch during this
T/N7: XYYZ proceeds to mimic ZX
