#zhingweii speaks

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revolutionary girl utena having an explicit scene where utena grapples with and reconciles her desire to be (trans)masc amidst a patriarchal society which establishes manliness = power over women.... revolutionary girl utena ending with utena NOT rescuing anthy (the prince does not save the princess (there is no prince at all)) but instead having the latter CHOOSE to step away from akio, to step away from ohtori and it all - as a metaphor for how people can love you and push open your fourteen-year-old coffin and reach out for you and take a million swords for you, but how you as the victim must fundamentally pack your bags, say goodbye to your abuser, book the train ticket, and behold the stars once more. or whatever dante said

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this is a long shot, but does anyone know what happened to the fic "The Enemy of My Enemy" by ChillsofFire? It's been a few years since I thought about it, and I'm so sad to see that it doesn't seem to be on AO3 anymore :(

It was a TFP fic where Airachnid and Silas teamed up to activate some sort of mind control code (?), forcing the Autobots and Decepticons to work together. Maybe around 200k-300k words, multi-chapter. Had MegOP, Bulkhead/Wheeljack, and Soundwave/Starscream (and probably some more that I've forgotten).

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just watched hoppers. 10/10 i don’t think i’ve ever laughed that hard at a movie before. it’s like the lorax if the onceler was intentionally a sexyman and also californian governor gavin newsom

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oh florence and the machine i really am getting tired of crawling all the way

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random media recommendation: in a world where background music becomes more and more popular and spotify responds to this by investing into ai musicians, i suggest you find jazz/r&b/soul/funk/<insert afro/asian genre> 70s to 90s DJ mixes on YouTube. there's a whole community of incredibly talented DJs creating groovy hour-long sets that also expose you to a wonderful array of genres that you might not otherwise bother to seek out. and they have very funny titles

some lovely channels are: ackerlady, Lucas Washburn, WhereisJah, Humano Studios, RE: ANALOG, and INCredible COFFEE

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urgh the stupidest source of dysphoria/dysmorphia i get is from buying clothes. wherein i have estimated myself to be like size M minimum so many times in the past that every time i wear a hoodie and shorts it looks like i'm not wearing any pants (like half the reason why i wear my carabiner always). conversely, i don't actually hate the look of an e-girl but it is also super frustrating sometimes.

furthermore and more severely i've now begun measuring myself (b/c i'm buying more expensive clothes from small businesses), and when i do i inevitably end up being size S or even XS. which is like. man.

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wahhh why do i have so much work < guy who put off work for three days straight

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well of course life blooms like a flower. far away or by the road.