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sanders sides season finale crack theories in order from most to least likely

1. orange!logan vs roman. theyve both had their big insecurities this season. i don't feel like roman's issues have been properly addressed. roman representing romance vs. logan representing order and gettting your shit together. the end card of WTIT where roman dismisses logan's feelings on the matter. roman wants love so desperately, even though i get the feeling that c!thomas may not be ready for a relationship in his current mental state. roman & logan fight all the time, and then make up, and then fight some more, and this is the loop

2. roman & logan antagonist duo. maybe they both snap at the same time & form an alliance. that'd be cool. honestly this is me coping because i think logan villain arc is quite likely but i think roman could be even more dramatic as an antagonist than janus and tbh i wrote a fanfic about a roman villain arc after "putting others first" came out so that'd be validation

3. roman & logan fuse and that's who orange is. i just think that'd be cool. they both have the temper, so it compounds into one much angrier side with the power of repression². i think thomas could pull this off, and he likes steven universe so there's a very very tiny chance this is possible

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I was rewatching ADWM in my quest to rewatch all the Markiplier lore before ISWM2 comes out next week, and I noticed something.

Send a Distress Signal (the non-noir one) from ISWM is referencing the Don't Pay choice from ADWM:

From a few lines of dialogue to the choices themselves, it's very similar. I thought that was cool, and I haven't seen anyone else point this out yet :]

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is it so wrong to want to be wanted? not in a sexual or romantic way, even. to be wanted, to feel like somebody here cares you exist. to feel like you are loved, to feel it deeply in your bones, to let it become so ingrained in your being that you become love itself. to know that you are somebody's top priority, that they would come running if you were suffering, to know that somebody would take care of you, to know that somebody wants to help. if i had someone like that, the person, people, who would come to my aid in an instant, if somebody were here with me who could tell me that you have value, you are important, you matter so much to me, the world would sorely miss your light, and most important of all, you don't have to keep treading water. i will bring you to shore, i will keep your head above the waves. you have struggled for so very long, but you don't have to carry this burden alone anymore. i love you, and you are safe with me. i will carry you to safety and i will defend you when you cannot defend yourself. it's your turn to rest. i will take care of you.

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everybody shut up and look at my cat Luna

(she's watching bird videos<3)

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ive returned to my roots and i love undertale again in the year of our lord 2022. yes i cried at the musical twice today and yes this game basically shaped who i am, i learned about being nonbinary from frisk existing and undertale and deltarune mean so much to me, when i first started drawing and couldn't draw much, i drew flowey making various faces. i have pages of flowey doodles from when i was first starting out. i was 13 in 2017 when i first became aware of this game, and I've grown in the last seven years, but on a deeper level, im exactly the same as i was back then but a little more mature. anyway im rambling, but this game means so much to me

MY OLDEST POST ON THIS BLOG FROM DECEMBER 2017 IS AN OLD DOODLE OF MUFFET AND IT HAS 1 NOTE STILL EXISTS TODAY

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a poem to my younger self

you don't deserve any of this pain. you don't deserve the things they did to you, despite how much they told you that you did, despite the little voice whispering in your head that tells you it's your fault. it isn't your fault, and it never was. you were not born to be broken like this, you do not exist to suffer. even when getting up in the morning feels hard, when continuing to live is the most difficult thing you've ever done, remember this, if you take nothing else away. you do not deserve to hurt, and i'm sorry the universe convinced you that you did. the sun will shine again, my friend, no matter how much of a cliche i know that is. i know sometimes you want to give up, but you have so much time ahead of you, infinite seconds to become who you were meant to be, and if you can do that, it will be the ultimate revenge scheme against those who hurt you. living out of spite is just as valid as any other reason, live to prove them wrong. you are not weak, you're one of the strongest people i know. you've got this, kid. keep going, and i promise you'll be okay.