One Year From Now
A LETTER TO MYSELF
The date is 17th of December 2016, I write this at 1:20 am and I have just recently received my overall position. In a nutshell to describe what an overall position or ‘OP’ is in Queensland, Australia is what informs universities how a year 12 student did on the QCS exam ( Queensland core skills exam - SAT equivalent to Americans, GCSEs to those of the UK), where the lower the number, the better the position (1 being the best and 25 the worst). Social media plays a gigantic role in my life, specifically Facebook. And on Facebook I am a member of a discussion page dedicated to year 12 exit students and as the lead up of this daunting day ( the day when OP’s are released) this page is filled with memes relative to the QCS exams and the ridiculous questions within it or simply the hardships of senior year. Tonight the discussion page was filled with mixed posts; jokes about what jobs they’ll have to embark on for getting a 25, not going to uni or simply expressing their worried nature. Never myself have I posted in this discussion page but it really gave me comfort reading it just before I pressed refresh on the web page to get my result. I received my OP and didn't express any forms of pride or sadness to myself but instead I instantly began to think of how to move forward from this result as this number doesn’t define what I can amount to. Unfortunately, a majority of year 12 students will be informed what university they have been accepted into mid January and yet I am still hopeful that I am accepted into of my top 3 preferences. Presently, I find myself conflicted I want to travel however I do not currently have the funds nor will I get them anytime soon but on the other hand I would also like to go straight into university and study for my career. A year from now I will be 18 years 8 months and 27 days old. In one hand I want to be a wild party girl who drinks and doesn’t tie herself down to one guy (but also is responsible enough to protect herself in all aspects) but I want to be diligent, hard working and good with saving money. Overall, a year from now I want big things, I want a better job from where I am now, I want to have better body positivity or ever working for it, I want to have amazing time management, I want to have a great grade point average, I want to have a solid group of friends that have my back no matter what and i also want to have an impressive savings account. Present Zia wants a lot, but I expect that these wants become wills and haves.
A year from now I want more and will have more of myself to believe in. I’ll see you next year when 2017 is my bitch,
Zia.