#zitha blabs

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Do you all have an f/o who you love but would not hesitate to fight on sight? Like if you met them on the street you would immediately throw hands?

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...kinf of feel like changing my name again

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If one of my presents under the tree this year isn’t my f/o then I don’t want it.

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My coping mechanism is finding new fictional characters to love me unconditionally without ever having to worry about getting hurt and I think that’s pretty neat of me

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I dreamt about marrying Eisuke and I'm

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Since I’ve been sick I’ve been in the mood to write so I might write some things and see how I like them...I might post them if I like them enough

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Among Us but selfship edition where we all play as our f/os and descend into madness

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I have a long story in my head for me and Seb that perfectly explains our relationship and dynamic and yet, I can't seem to write it down. It's always been very personal and intimate for me, a way to vent my thoughts and feelings without care. I'm starting to realize that might be the reason why I don't share a lot of my thoughts and feelings on our relationship. It's complicated, full of a lot of angst and negativity that you don't see a lot of within the community, because most everything is very positive and bright (nothing wrong with that at all! It's wonderful) that makes me hesitant to become personal because I don't want to offend anyone or seem like I'm promoting something unhealthy. I try to keep my f/os mostly in canon and for Sebastian, it's more difficult because why I try to be as realistic as I can be... I also like to self indulge.

I'd like to share what I think but I don't want to upset anyone, so I just keep it to myself and there's really no one to blame for that but myself. As much as I want to share the ups of our relationship I also want to share the downs.