Squash anxieties
I started a hugelkultur mound and planted zucchini on the sides and watermelon in the top, succession plantings, and nearly lost the first one entirely to deer, then a would-be fruit was never fertilized and withered, but now a picture perfect little zucchini is growing and every day I waffle over whether to pick it or let it grow more and I decided to pick it tomorrow for lunch and am already bracing myself to discover it nibbled by squirrels or something, and I spent a very hot afternoon scraping squash bug eggs off the bottom and I spotted but did not! Manage! To! Kill! An adult, and all I know about squash bugs is that they are the devil, so in conclusion I thiiiiink I am having fun gardening? Despite the fact that mostly I seem to be vibrating in terror over the fate of a single small squash?