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Joan/27/NY-VA "If your dreams don't scare you, they aren't big enough.".

[just-shower-thoughts]

Hot girl summer just became riot girl summer

[clooosedd-deactivated20240804]

just be honest, it saves everyone's time.

[amortizing]

[hopeless-and-lesbian-deactivate]

I’ve never wanted to have thick skin. You know, it implies our skin’s had something roughed up against it for so long it built a defense mechanism so it wouldn’t hurt as much the next time. I never wanted that. I never wanted my skin to be strong, I wanted it to be thin and soft and detect the slightest changes in the weather. I never wanted to laugh in the face of tragedy and make jokes about it, it was never my intention to be like “that’s just how it goes” when something bad happens or to think that it’s just a matter of time until a good thing gets ripped to shreds. But here I am. And here we are. So does thick skin protects us in the long run or does it alienate us from the people around us? Can we care for that skin, make it soft and full of life again, and if so, how? But what bothers me the most about being told I have thick skin as a compliment means people glorify all the suffering, pain and bad times that came before it.

[saying]

[timeaway]

I hope someday the timing is right

[thoughtkick]

“I’m always soft for you, that’s the problem. You could come knocking on my door five years from now and I would open my arms wider and say ‘come here, it’s been too long, it felt like home with you.”

— Azra T

[qvotext]

[qvotable]

“There are a few things in life so beautiful they hurt; swimming in the ocean while it rains, reading alone in empty libraries, the sea of stars that appear when you’re miles away from the neon lights of the city, bars after 2am, walking in the wilderness, all the phases of the moon, the things we do not know about the universe.. and you.”

— Beau Taplin

[take-a-piece]

Miss you

Do you? Maybe we could change that if I knew who are you.

[la-luna-de-sangre-deactivated20]

[poisoned-words]

““Just friends” but you’re still the most beautiful human I’ve ever seen “Just friends” but I find myself reminiscing our first kiss way more often that I should “Just friends” but even as I’m writing this I’m sitting on a bench we once hugged on and that’s all I can see “Just friends” but today you touched my hand 3 times and I swear I felt something, you must have felt it too? “Just friends” but I always look forward to saying goodbye because it’s the only time it’s okay to hug you “Just friends” but today you were sitting so close and it just didn’t feel right without you arm around me. You never did move to put it there though “Just friends” but it’s hurts when you talk about her “Just friends” but I’m crying on a bus stop bench because it’s hurts so fucking much being “just friends” “Just friends” but I’m still madly fucking in love with you”

— “Just friends”

[fuks]

[femaleintimacy-deactivated20210]

[inspiration-and-motivation]

[mothurs]

[heavensghost]

From my 2015 journal x