i’m still learning how to trust people. how to trust myself.
i’ve had so many people tell me they love me just to leave. tell me they’re fine when they are annoyed.
and i never learned to trust myself. always told i shouldn’t feel the way i feel, that im wrong and my desires are wrong.
i feel like that’s what strengthens my depression. it’s given it so much fuel. so the only antidote is some form of radical forgiveness and acceptance. but fuck. it’s so hard.











