Tatiana

A visual archive and online journal 23, she/her

[drizzledrawings]

Watching the walking dead again yes I have obvious favourites

[emptyjunior]

Not to repeat history and make the hunger games all about what boy katniss Loves again😭 But I am still continually haunted by Finnick finding out that Peeta and Katniss love each other for real.

Like Finnick has been in this industry a longgg time. He knows what it is to construct a story for the games, and I think he really does respect the two of them creating this lovestory narrative, it provides them a lot of protection, it makes them a lot harder to pair up with others especially if they're BOTH in the public eye, it literally saved their lives in the arena.

That scene when he approaches Katniss with the sugar cubes, she thinks he's flirting with her but those winks and little in jokes, that is a co conspirator and fellow trickster trying to tell her hey I get it, hey I'm in on the joke.

But Finnick can only withstand all of this, withstand the suffering he endured because his real love is secret. He has something to protect, something real to go back to that's hidden and out of the public's eye.

So his dawning realization that Peeta and Katniss's story is REAL, is TRUE is horror for him. It's pity and horror. He's a boy who's experienced basically slavery and abuse since he was a child, and he's looking at Katniss with pity. Because he sold something cheap. He gets to sell the fake story of a playboy and capital harlot to the world, something that he could not care less about losing pieces of.

Katniss and Peeta are selling their love. The very real, awkward tween crush stage of their life, the companionship of two people who look out for each other, they had to flip that outwards and show it to the world. Let vultures take off pieces and push and shove them around. The entire world present for a young girl's first kiss, which should have allowed to be private for an incredibly private person, should have allowed to be messy and weird, they had to make it movie star worthy. And Katniss had to declare she loved Peeta forever after one kiss, even though her in the real life needed much more time to open up. Peeta had to have his feelings pulled out of him and played with, when he knows Katniss doesn't feel the same yet. He's an incredibly smart person, he knows when someone is faking and he had to watch the girl he loved pretend to love him back or she would Die it's horrifying.

So yeah, Finnick's shock at discovering that under their fake story is a Real story that has been harvested for parts makes me dizzy to think about

[devinellekurtz]

When we first met

[inthedarktrees]

Zoë Lund in Ms .45 (1981) dir. Abel Ferrara

[delusions-of-glamour]

Bestdressed wearing Sandy Liang ౨ৎ

[girlmadegrave]

All About Lily Chou-Chou (2001)

[tartwrld]

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd

— Eloisa to Abelard, Alexander Pope

[tartwrld]

No, I want someone to tell me what to wear every morning. I want someone to tell me what to eat. What to like, what to hate, what to rage about. What to listen to, what band to like. What to buy tickets for. What to joke about, what not to joke about. I want someone to tell me what to believe in. Who to vote for and who to love and how to... tell them.

How to live my life, Father, because so far I think I've been getting it wrong. But I know that's why people want people like you in their lives, because you just tell them how to do it. You just tell them what to do, and what they'll get out of the end of it, even though I don't believe your bullshit. And I know that scientifically nothing that I do makes any difference in the end. Anyway I'm still scared.

Why am I still scared?

— Fleabag, Season 2 Episode 4

[expressions-of-nature]

El Nido, Philippines by Jared Rice

[rozrozhollander]

multifandom meme > [15/15] ships - fleabag x hot priest (fleabag)

I love you. It'll pass.

[wetgeliscasualinterval]

Manila in the Claws of Light (1975) by Lino Brocka

[cinematicjourney]

Normal People: Episode 8 (2020) | dir. Hettie Macdonald

[tartwrld]

Stand firm for what you believe until and unless logic and experience prove you wrong. Remember, when the emperor looks naked, the emperor is naked. The truth and a lie are not sort of the same thing. And there is no aspect, no facet, no moment of life that can't be improved with pizza

— Daria, Is it College Yet?

[kindwhispers]

Manila in the Claws of Light (1975) dir. Lino Brocka

[thisyoungmonster]

Harmony Korine, Act Da Fool (2010)

[mikimeiko]

Sing Street (John Carney, 2016)

[chronophotographic-gun]

SLC Punk (1998)