The love I spent on you, I’ll unfortunately never get back. I don’t regret showing you love. But you never wanted it in the first place you were too busy lookin for loveless love to avoid your issues while I take on my issues head on looking for real deep love to love me unconditionally. I would beg you to drop the friends that you kept around over sexual desire and you refused but you’ll drop me and the 7 year relationship we have for someone else you hardly know in a blink of an eye. Who calls that real love. When you can’t even face a breakup with me and try to act like we never exist.
I will never understand why I gave so much of myself to someone who didn’t even want me in the first place. Who constantly made me look so foolish while he hid from other girls he was clearly flirting with and talking to while with me. I so badly wanted to be your muse I sacrificed so much and I still didn’t make the cut, nothing I would have done probably would have been enough for you. When you’re always looking for more you’ll never get enough. But when you texted me “I just think she'll really do all the things I want and I don't wanna mess it up” I knew you were chasing after something to feel control only not even a real relationship with someone all over again. You don’t think about what the other person needs, wants or feels . It’s all about you. Not love. But I do hope you learn to love yourself enough one day to find real love, like how I gave you but you weren’t ready or thought you were to good for. I’ll never forget how shitty I feel right now. Thank you for that.
