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"I just needed somebody to know that I've loved this life.

Or at least parts of it.

I've loved parts of this life.

But I'm just not willing to survive this."

#greys anatomy #depressed #sad #depression #lost

All along, it was my fault. Where I thought I helped, I only damaged. I pushed people too far. I controlled them too much. I became the negative, critical voice in their head. I fucked up.

Since I was a little girl, I tried so hard to take care of everyone around me I didn't get to learn how to take care of myself. I just thought that we were a team. I thought they would take care of me in return. I thought they would put in as much effort as I was.

I thought we were a team.

I thought they loved me too.

#depressive #depressed

Tonight feels like the perfect night to put an end to it at last. I'm in between everything.

I'm a depressed person, not worse enough to be put away. I'm in war with food, starving myself for weeks then having months of binging, so I'm not skinny enough to be concerned about. I'm ugly so no one cares. I'm feeling so intensely alone, but have quite a lot of people around me. No one takes the effort to fully understand me. I'm a void in the shape of a human, a failing human nonetheless, no one seems concerned about. No on sees me. There's nothing to be seen.

Tonight would've been the perfect night. But this empty coward is so easy to fill up with fear. I won't push through. I never do

#depressed #depression

"I can not imagine how we forgive ourselves for all of the things we didn't say until it was too late.

How do we forgive ourselves for all the things we did not become?"

#doc luben #button poetry

"Take me to the rooftop

I wanna see the world while I stop breathing

Turnin' blue

Tell me love is endless, don't be so pretentious

Leave me like you do

If you need me, wanna see me,

Better hurry 'cause I'm leaving soon"

Billie Eilish - Listen before I go

#depressed

I'm never good enough and that's just the truth

#Depression #sad

Oh nights like these I just don't want to go on with my life. It's too hard, too tough and I'm not up for it. I just want to sleep and dream and please never wake up

#depressed

violettfae

Brianna Ghey was a 16 year old trans girl who was murdered on Saturday 11 February 2023 in the UK.

and as you can imagine, there are some dickheads who are dismissing this tragedy, cheering on this crime, and celebrating at this loss of life BECAUSE Brianna was trans.

this is what transphobia leads to. this is what happens when irrational hate for trans people, because these bigots seem to forget that we are PEOPLE, remains prevalent in wider society. this is what happens when the basic human right to live as happily and healthily as possible is discarded and overstepped for the sake of remaining in the repressive and oppressive status quo that benefits no one but the privileged.

you lose the ability to see other people as people. you lose your humanity, all for a moment of feeling superior over someone whose life is different to your own.

you can donate to a verified gofundme for Brianna's family here

but to every bastard who doesn't see an issue with her murder because she was trans, i hope you choke on a chainsaw.