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Occasionally I don't mess people up when I try to mentor them. Also, this student winning a scholarship had nothing to do with me.
A bridge
A bridge. To most people bridges are just an object to help you over something. Bridges, for me, have always been fascinating structures. They can often be symbolic in some way as well. Which, is totally cheesy. But then again, I have become completely sensitive with the way I look at some things in my life now. Yup…I’ve become “that guy.” The guy I used to make fun of. If I had a ponytail I’d probably be called “Mr. Sensitive Ponytail Man.”
Last December I was on the west-side of the state for a cyclocross race and I found myself crossing the Deception Pass Bridge. As bridges go the Deception Pass Bridge is nothing too fancy. Just a steel bridge that has two spans (the smaller span goes over Canoe Pass and the larger span goes over Deception Pass itself…I know a lot more about this bridge because I’m the type of guy who will gather information about random places/things). That being said…I just really like the bridge.
Short story time: In the winter of 2014 I did the Deception Pass 25K trail running race as a build race for the 2015 Boston Marathon. I knew I was not in the greatest shape going into the race but it was deceptively harder than I thought it should be (ha! did you see what I just did?). I faded very hard during the race and I knew something was not right. I woke up with a nasty cold the next day and was sick for weeks. I thought that explained my poor performance. Alas, another deception…it’s amazing how we can easily deceive ourselves.
Back to my bridge crossing last December. I started to get a bit introspective about it on my drive over the bridge. I even got out to take a few pictures and run the stairs I had run during that 2014 race. I thought more about that race in 2014, and I knew, at that time, something was not right but I could not admit it to myself. That bridge in a way almost took me to my cancer diagnosis. One of my goals in 2016 was to be able to race the WSBA Cyclocross championship (note: I really did not achieve the goal of “racing”, I was merely a participant) and use that as a building block for 2017. The Deception Pass Bridge crossing of 2016 acted as the bridge to the next chapter. I’m hoping that next chapter is continued health and a return to normalcy.
So yeah, I like that bridge. A lot. Enough to write a post on it.
Of course, with cancer, there are always check-ups. And as soon as the holiday season ended I had another one on the horizon. I can recognize the anxiety I have as I get closer to those appointments. I know there is nothing I can really do about my situation but that does not help the anxiety. It’s still there. Looming. All the time. My oncologist said I look great but we needed to wait another day or two for my CEA* levels to come back. That day or two? Awful. It was like being 22 years old again and waiting for a girl to call you back after you initiated contact with her. I finally called my doctor’s office one day to get the news on my CEA. Yeah…all that anguish? Totally unnecessary. My CEA dropped a tad. Oh, and the 22 year old me? He probably would not have called her back.
I’m still NED (no evidence of disease) which means I can keep living a full life. Which is something most people take for granted. I don’t. I cherish every moment. You should too.
*Holy crap, I love Wikipedia. As of right now, and I’m pasting a screen capture since it will be gone soon, the first line in the Wikipedia entry says “its creates after love when two male or female inlove then its creates more chance in body affected by cancer.”
That, my readers, is pure Wikipedia gold right there.
Thursday’s Musical Education - Good to Sea - Pinback
Remember Pinback? Of course you do! Or at least you better. “Penelope” was their first song that really tugged at my ear.
I was just about to write another introspective post on the year that was for me and then “Good to Sea” came on and I thought to myself... “I need to resurrect the Thursday’s Musical Education” posts. So hear it is. This particular song was probably the most accessible, in my opinion, on Autumn of the Seraphs which was released in 2007. Oh wow...it was released nearly ten years ago. Anyhoo...It’s pretty obvious to me what the song is about. My cat licking the dish brush (okay, not true, just a narrative of what is happening right now). It’s fairly obvious, if you want it to be, what’s happening in the song.
Oh, it turns out Pinback is hitting the road in early 2017 to celebrate the ten year anniversary of Autumn of the Seraphs. A road trip to Portland or Seattle may be coming up for me...
An update on me
I still wake up around 4:30 a.m. every day. This unfortunate phenomenon has been persisting for nearly 18 months. Ever since I was told I have cancer. Even though I am no longer going through treatment it still happens almost every day. It’s kind of frustrating. Actually, it’s more than frustrating but I am much better at dealing with it now than I was a year ago.
A year ago I was staring at my second surgery. I had lost about 30 pounds and was in excruciating pain all day and night. It’s amazing to think I made it through that time. Whenever I feel crappy I just think back to that time period…because it can always be worse. And I lived through worse.
Things are good now. Are they great? It’s all relative. There are permanent side effects from all my treatments. But I am alive. And functioning. I’m embracing the “new normal” because to lament the loss of who I once was is not worth the time.
Once again, I’m alive and relatively healthy and that’s what matters.
Am I “cured” of my cancer? No, I’m not. I have no detectable cancer. My scans are “stable.” It’s not really an exciting word to hear, “stable.” But the reality is…that’s exactly what I want to hear. “Cancer free” and “complete remission” can’t be uttered for years down the road. And I’m okay with that. I’m also okay with constant scans, blood draws, and other types of surveillance.
Other good news, I am no longer taking blood thinners. The clot that formed because of my port is gone. No more worrying about a DVT or a pulmonary embolism. To be honest, I was never concerned about the clot that much. A minor thing compared to…I don’t know…CANCER! I’m just glad to be off the Pradaxa so I can get back to my life. So I can possibly race my bike again, maybe going skiing this winter, or not worry about falling down on a trail run. In addition, there were side effects from the Pardaxa as well. My last dose was this past Tuesday night which means there only remains a nadir of it left in my body.
My chemo brain still exists but it is so much better than it was even a month ago. I can now hold a conversation without stumbling over words all of the time. I taught a bit in September and October and did not, to the best of my knowledge, make a complete ass of myself. My memory is finally getting better. And I can actually synthesize scientific thoughts again.
Physically I am doing so much better. The fatigue is still there and still achy and sore a lot and there are many reasons for that. The chemo and the radiation really took their toll on my body but I’m improving every day. For the first time in years I am no longer anemic. I have not noticed a huge difference with that, yet. I have yet to really “train” for anything. I’m just enjoying getting outside and ride or run. Funny thing, I was all set to potentially train for a spring time marathon. Then my back flared up so I could not run for almost a month. I was slightly disappointed, but I chose to look at it another way. I am now healthy enough to actually get injured. That’s fucking great!!!
Longer and boring post. Not too much else to say. Felt like I should update the old Tumblr for posterity's sake. Actually, I just wanted to write “for posterity's sake” since I don’t think I’ve ever used that phrase in my leaf. (“leaf!” WTF? Lingering chemo brain. Leaving that typo there on purpose.)
Oh, and here’s a picture of me writing this post. Once again, for posterity’s sake.
Thursday’s Musical Education - Country Death Song - Violent Femmes
I saw the Violent Femmes a couple weeks ago and this is the song that has been in my mind ever since. It’s not one of their more popular songs but it should be. They did a great rendition of it. And this dude’s video? Perfect. Crazy to think that this song is from “Hallowed Ground” which was released in 1984! A great song that has stood the test of time.
Diagnosis: Lynch Syndrome
The good news. I’m able to have chemo #8 today. Only four more to go after this one. I was not sure if I’d be “healthy” enough to receive my poison today. My platelets keep dropping but they were good enough to go today and that’s all that matters.
I got out this weekend and did my longest ride since last June. It was only 40 miles but coming where I was last fall/winter I’m very happy with it. I was not sure if I’d ever ride or run again (and no, that’s not a hyperbolic statement…I was that bad off). I even ran this morning and actually felt pretty good. Things are slowly progressing. I’m so tired of feeling like crap and having chemo brain but this is all part of the process. The process sucks and the “new normal” sucks. But what am I going to do? Sit around and wait? Nope…I’m going to live my life.
And I am enjoying it…
Now the bad news. I have Lynch Syndrome. I received the genetic testing results a few weeks ago and it’s confirmed. I’m not surprised about this at all. I pretty much knew I had Lynch syndrome once I was diagnosed. Once upon a time I actually taught medical students (and I will again) and I used Lynch Syndrome as a case study to illustrate why DNA repair is so important to the cell. I could go on for hours about this. It’s a subject I’ve always loved to talk about. DNA repair is what got me into science when I was an undergraduate so many years ago. I’ll keep the basic science out of this post but I will say I think it’s a really cool thing to know and talk about it. I can literally talk about DNA repair for hours and be damn excited to do so.
I’ve always said “data is not the enemy” and I still believe that. So, what does this data mean? I’ll be tested a lot for a few different cancers over the course of my lifetime. I’m fine with that. This is good data to have. I really believe the future of medicine lies in genetic testing and being proactive when it comes to treatment. The reactive way of medicine is so archaic. If I was tested for this disease years ago I would not be sitting in this chemo chair right now.
So what is Lynch Syndrome? It’s an inherited condition that predisposes people to all types of cancers. Which types? A lot, including risk of developing colorectal cancer, endometrial cancer, gastric cancer, ovarian cancer, small bowel cancer, pancreatic cancer, urinary tract cancer, kidney cancer, bile duct cancer, certain skin tumors, and brain tumors. Lynch used to be called hereditary nonpolyposis colorectal cancer (HNPCC) and that name came about since you can have a few or no polyps forming and still get colorectal cancer.
What genes are in play with Lynch syndrome? I’m glad you asked that question (actually, none of you asked that question but I know the answer so I’ll share it). There are four genes that are important for Lynch syndrome and they all have to do with the mismatch DNA repair mechanism. They are MLH1, MSH2, MSH6, and PMS2. In addition, they also test EPCAM which is not directly related to the DNA repair process however, mutations in EPCAM can lead to MSH2 not being properly expressed. (Why all the italics you may ask? Gene names are always in italics. If we were talking about the gene product (the protein) I would not be using italics. It’s a nomenclature thing and IT MATTERS!). A mutation in any of these genes means you have Lynch Syndrome. However, it’s worse to have mutations in MLH1 or MSH2 than say…MSH6. In fact, if you have a non-functional MSH6 your increased chance for cancer is only 16% or so versus a normal person. And this is where I won the genetic lottery. I’m MSH6- and I’m one of those 16%. I have cancer and Lynch Syndrome. This is also why it really has not showed up in my family history. My mother’s mom had gall bladder cancer when she was older. If I had to guess I think my mother’s side of the family is where I inherited this from. It’s not good, but not horrible either. If you are a female with this mutation it’s much worse. Your chance for ovarian and uterine cancer skyrocket.
So what is next? I’ll meet with a genetic counselor and figure it all out so my family and extended family have the information. Like I said…data is not the enemy.
What does it mean for me? By having Lynch Syndrome and cancer it means there’s a 30% chance I’ll have another cancer in the next ten years and a 50% chance of another cancer in the next 15 years. However, those stats are for people that fall in the “Lynch Syndrome” category. It does not break out the increased chances of cancer based upon specific genes. I’ve tried, in vain, to find that data. Still working on that. It’ll be the first question I ask my genetic counselor.
None of this surprised me or scared me. Does it suck? Yeah, it does. However, I’m on the right path to beating cancer and I will succeed in living my life. A healthy life.
Thursday’s Musical Education - Cinco de Mayo - Liz Phair
It’s back! Thursday’s Musical Education! I doubt it will be back next week but with today being May 5th I have been singing this song to myself all day. Let me tell you...my voice is terrible! I could care less about Cinco de Mayo, unless, of course, you’re speaking of this song. This song was released on “Whip-smart” which is not a terrible Liz Phair album. In fact, it’s probably her second best, but after “Exile in Guyville” it would be hard to top anything. This album was released in the fall of 1994 and I still lived in the Chicago area and Liz Phair was a big deal back then. Hell...I still think she is a big deal.
Instead of inundating all my Facebook acquaintances with more of my drivel I decided to write a blog post. Not that people blog anymore nor will they read this. I guess this just may be for my benefit.
Six years ago yesterday I was wheeled out of a hospital after being hit by a car. Hard to believe that was six years ago. So much has changed with my life since then. Most of it good…but of course the “cancer” thing is one of the largest changes. Oh my look at me…so young…and so in need of a shave!
Where was I? Oh yeah…I went for a run this morning and it was appalling. Absolutely appalling. The side effects of my chemo and some new side effects from my Neupogen shots really ruined it. Even being around all the blooming balsam root and lupine plants did not help. I almost threw the towel in less than a half mile into the run but then I realized I did not have a towel around. So I pushed on. It was a super slow run but I got out there and did something which people constantly remind me is “something.”
And that’s where I got all introspective and shit. Did getting hit by a car that was going 50 mph six years ago prepare me for my battle with cancer? Maybe. Being hit and seeing my life flash before me was beyond awful. I was in so much pain for so long and things, like my body, still don’t work the same. However, with what I have gone through as a cancer patient (ugh, I hate saying that), this situation has been far worse. That “experience” taught me a lot about myself, pain, attitude, and people (good and the *bad*). All of those lessons have helped me get through journey (another stupid word I hate hearing).
Today I recalled how my surgeon who put my ankle back together said I’d never run a marathon. I’ve run five since then and three of those qualified me for the Boston Marathon. Not too bad for a guy who was not supposed to run a marathon ever. It’s pretty hard to take bad situation and turn them into positives but I did before and I’ll do it again. I’ll beat this thing down and come back and do something else that “they” say I can’t do…because that’s how I roll. I’ll be a survivor and a thrivor.
Stone Roses - Fools Gold
It was late 1989 that this song was released. Honestly, it was one of those songs that changed everything for me (musically). The Stone Roses made rock cool again. They introduced me to the whole “Madchester” scene that would be a very influential part of my life for the next few years.
Turn the lights down low…and enjoy…
Maddie! Lean with it. #velodrome
The 4th annual Wawawai Landing TT & Wawawai Grade Hill Climb
Sunday March 3, 2013
A few changes this year:
1) All profits and proceeds from this event will be donated to the Davis Phinney Foundation for Parkinson's. 2) Cash and prizes will be given out for the overall combined times of the TT and HC. I want to reward the riders who are true gluttons for punishment. 3) Juniors under the age of 17 who hold an annual USAC road license will race for free.
4) An Individual TT will start at 1:45 for the hill climb. This will allow people who only have bikes equipped with aerobars to do the race. It is highly encouraged that the juniors also do this event rather than the mass start hill climb.
5) I've added a 40+ Masters category
Location: Wawawai Landing - Near Pullman, WA (See Directions Below).
Courses: 20K flat TT, and a hill climb up the Wawawai grade - approximately 11K with 1950+ feet of climbing
Costs: $20 per race. USAC license required to race. One-day license for category 5 men and 4 women is $10 and available at the race. To race in all other categories you must have a USAC annual license ($60), which can be purchased at www.usacycling.org. Online registration will be available as well as on the day of the race.
WSBA (http://www.wsbaracing.com) numbers will be used and sold on site as well. Rental numbers will be available at the race for a $10 rental fee (of which $5 is refundable).
Prizes: Cash and merchandise plus the possibility of bonuses for new records.
REGISTER ON-LINE HERE
Race Day: Registration will open at 9:30 a.m. Registration for the TT will close at 10:30. Registration for the Hill climb will reopen from 12:30-1:30. Online registration will be available at usacycling.com and is preferred. Registration/Parking will be located at Wawawai Landing . Parking will also be at Wawawai Landing. There is NO WATER at the staging area and there is NO Cell phone reception at the staging areas.
Race Details
Roads are chip-sealed and in fair to good condition.
The 20K TT is flat and it will be an out-and-back. First rider starts at 11:00 a.m.
The ITT hill climb (11K) will start at 1:45. Juniors are highly encouraged to do this event.
The hill climb (11K) will be a mass start race and start at 2:00 p.m.
Awards will be given out to all categories based on the combined times of the two events. You can do only one event, but you will not be eligible for awards. A racer can do only one event and still be eligible for the bonus.
A $50 bonus will be given to the male or female that sets a new course record on the hill climb and/or the TT.
Categories offered:
Men: Cat 1/2, Cat 3, Cat 4/5, Masters 40+ (Cat 1-5), Masters 50+ (Cat 1-5)
Women: Cat 1/2/3, Cat 4
Course records:
Female – TT – Allison Beall – (2010) – 29:45
Male – TT – Michael Emde – (2011) – 27:30
Female – Hill Climb – Jodie Bolt (2012) – 32:20
Male – Hill Climb – Jake MacArthur (2012) – 27:34
DIRECTIONS
From Pullman or Spokane: 195 South. Turn West on WA-194 (west) which will turn into Wawawai-Pullman Road. Turn right on Wawawai Grade road and follow it to Wawawai Landing.
ALL USAC RULES WILL BE ENFORCED!! ALL RIDERS MUST SIGN A WAIVER!! ALL RIDERS MUST WEAR A USAC APPROVED HELMET. USAC PERMIT #pending
Sponsoring clubs: Kryki Sports and G.S. Gap (River City Red). Promoter is Ted Chauvin ([email protected])
Time trial Profile
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0K turn-around 20K
Hill climb profile
A few notes:
1) We are using WSBA numbers for the race. Rental numbers will be available for the race at a cost of $10 to Washington residents ($5 of which is refunded upon return of the number). There will be multiple races in Eastern WA this year that will be using WSBA numbers. If you have questions about the WSBA and the numbers please e-mail me.
2) Weather. People are often concerned that this race is too early in the season and it’s too cold. The Snake River Canyon is usually 10 degrees warmer than the Spokane and Pullman areas. Last year almost all competitors were in shorts for both races
3) Finally, please try and use the on-line registration for the race. Pictures from the 2010 TT can be found here at Cecil Williams site
Results for the 2010 TT and Hill climb.
Results for the 2011 TT and Hill climb
Results for the 2012 TT and Hill climb
Running thoughts
Running. Running is a four letter word to a true cyclist, and for good reason. You see, running is just plain stupid. It really is; trust me, since I have empirically determined this over the last couple months. Of course, these thoughts are coming from a cyclist. So what do I really know about running? Not much.
Well, that’s not really true. I actually know a little bit. I knew a lot more when I was younger, but not because I thought running was the greatest thing ever and I competed in cross country during my high school years. It just turns out I knew a lot more about EVERYTHING when I was younger. If I would have listened to my younger self I’d be rich now. Maybe even famous. Not that I’d want to be famous, since that sounds like a royal pain in the ass. Ya know...the kind of pain you can get from running.
In the winter of 2009/2010 I started to run a bit. It had been years since I ran, but I was wanting to try something new in the winter to stay fit. And, riding at night is not something I thoroughly enjoy (nor do I have the proper gear for it), and the idea of riding the trainer inside was no longer an option (because riding a trainer is, in my expert opinion, just plain stupid). So I started to run. I ran a few times a week and decided I liked it. Oh, wait, I actually have a post on this topic. Read it here. It was in February of 2010 that I did a 5K and rocked a modest 19:21. Certainly not fast, but not too slow either. Especially for a cyclist. Earlier that winter my brother and I, after a few drinks, talked about doing the Chicago Marathon. I was in if he was…so I set my sights on the 2010 Snake River Half marathon. I ran a little, still concentrating on cycling, but still toed the line with nearly seven hundred idiots…err…runners that morning to run my first half-marathon. I told myself that if I could break 1:30 I’d stop racing bikes at the end of June and train for either the Chicago or Portland Marathon. The Portland Marathon was an option only if my brother bailed on the Chicago marathon idea (he did bail on it, but that does not matter…because he’s discovered cycling!). So what happened? I ran a 1:29:58 which was cool…except that meant I had to run marathon. Dammit.
Those of you who know me know what happened next. Those who need to be educated about the accident, feel free to read this, this, this and this. You can also look at these two pictures.
Fast forward to a year or so ago. Allison and I headed down to Portland to watch her brother do his first marathon. I was excited for him and really did not think too much of it. Until race morning. I wanted to be out there but I had given up any hope on running again. We watched Rusty race and he did great for his first marathon. He had minimal training and a banged up knee, so he only did a 3:17:XX (side note: Rusty, like Allison, has something called "talent." He raced road bikes professionally for a couple years, and when I say “minimal” training I mean “minimal.”). I wanted to run again, but I thought I could not. I thought there was no way I could. My foot just didn’t work right. Allison told me, implored me, not to give up. With her encouragement, I finally went to a doctor and wore a torture device on my ankle for a few months. Finally, on December 13, 2011 I ran again. Allison and I went down to the park and we ran. For twelve whole minutes. She on her surgically-repaired back and me on my bum ankle. But we ran together and enjoyed it. My ankle swelled a bit after that short of a run, but I did not stop. We kept increasing our run times very gradually to the point where we could both do 45 minutes without much of a problem. Not fast running, but at least we were getting out there. At the end of January, we did a 5K. I was slower than two years ago and only ran a 19:24. Age had obviously caught up with me.
We took a much needed trip to Maui in February with only running shoes, and no bikes. We did some great trail runs... and then it happened. Rusty contacted us while we were there. “You guys in for the 2012 Portland Marathon?”
“Why not?” we said. We signed up. When we got home I did a few duathlons, but mostly concentrated on bike racing, while Allison, after scoring a huge victory at the Tour of Walla Walla, dove into the triathlon world. My goal for the summer was the Crusher in the Tushar (I really should have written a blog post about that) bike race and after that I’d start training again for the marathon.
Starting on July 24 of this year, I began official training for the 2012 Portland Marathon. Now, anyone who knows anything about marathons will tell you that you need more time to train for a marathon than 10 weeks. Instead of agreeing with these thoughts, I just channeled my inner Sid Vicious and did it my way. So, I’ll take my 346.45 miles of training with me to the line on Sunday and hopefully achieve my first goal. To have fun.
Unfortunately, along the way, I lost Allison due to a stress fracture, so she will only be in Portland to support me. I am really bummed by that, but thankful for all the support she has given me during this “training” process.
I've shunned my poor bike (during cyclocross season!!!) and have only ridden it four times since I started marathon training. I’ve run a fair amount, but not enough. I’m okay with it. I’m ready. It’s go time. Bring on Portland.
Thursday's Musical Education - Yo La Tengo - Autumn Sweater
Yup, it's another Yo La Tengo song on TME. Nothing really to say about it...except I slipped on a sweater on this crisp fall morn. That's all. Nothing else. Enjoy.
Thursday's Musical Education - The Darling Buds It Makes No Difference
In the late 1980s and early 1990s there were a lot of good bands that were fronted by female vocalists such as the Blake Babies, Belly, the Throwing Muses, and of course Transvision Vamp (okay, I'm totally kidding with the Transvision Vamp reference, but I will admit to having one of their cassettes). Another band from the UK that could fit into this group was the Darling Buds which is the feature of this TME.
Step back to 1990 with me and give it a listen. I think it still holds up as a good song 22 years later.
Thursday's Muscial Education - Desaparecidos - MariKKKopa
Well, it appears that I've hit the Conor Oberst trifecta on the TME. I'm not sure if that is a good thing. He's back on here with his post-harcore band the Desaparecidos singing about that racist sherriff down in Arizona.
Yay for making a statement with a song. Yay for punk rock songs. Yay for the Desaparecidos. And yay for the blue sky out my window (totally does not relate to the song...but I like blue skies, what can I say?)
Thursday's Musical Education - Buffalo Tom - Taillights Fade
Has it really been 20 years since this song was released? Wow. I heard it the other day in the car. The other morning I also heard Birdbrain...so I decided that Buffalo Tom would be this week's TME. But which song? Well, Taillights Fade won because it may just be their best song ever. Of course, that is debatable. I could argue almost every Buffalo Tom song is their best song ever. For example, Frozen Lake is a great song (did ya see what I did there?).
I saw these guys a couple times in concert and they were awesome. I even sat and talked to Bill Janovitz for a bit before a show. Very nice, and not a bit pretentious.
Click the links and enjoy all three songs. I know I do.
Thursday's Musical Education - The Mighty Mighty Bosstones - Someday I Suppose
This song came up during my run this morning. It's been a long time since I heard it. Love it! Of course, most of you will recoginze it from Clueless which I'll give you a pass on.
So many good lines in this song, such as:
There was a verse that I was gonna write
I haven't yet
But there's still a chance I might
I have a huge soft-spot in my heart for Third-wave ska. Yeah, I'm that kind of guy.