I'm not even maintaining anymore
I take every dinner with prevacid and pepto, I shit four times a day every day, I drink several peanut butter shakes a workshift and have all sweets with whole milk and buy big bulk bags of Krave to finish in one to two days, and I can't even maintain 335
I'm getting fed up. I can't keep doing this while I'm running around doing the work of 3 clerks. Every time I have to bend over after lunch I taste stomach acid rising up. Every day off is spent trying to recuperate with extra bedrest. All I want is to be huge, it's important to me, it's one of the only reasons I still have to keep myself alive.
I'm going back to bed, fuck food and fuck my useless guts.














