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Sometimes I forgot how to design an Oc due to the things I've learnt in char design class I have to take (Using methods like Manga Matrix and others and the character sillouettes, something I have to do if I ever take a job related to it). It feels like sucking the fun and enjoyment I used to have creating them, now it feel so much stricting. Not sure how to get out of it while still maintaining the knowledge

Sometimes I get fixated on a fandom and try to make my Ocs canon looking as possible because I'm that crazy

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Thinking if being unconfident of their art is an every artist canon event cuz I've been thinking a lot of things or it's just me having an art block. I used to draw and make a lot of Ocs but then I somehow just get less and less flexible with the things I'd like to draw ever since I've read too much or learnt about do's and don't when making something and I constantly change my style because I don't know which style makes me comfortable but then I think about is this art style could be for commission or a job? And then it loops back to back, never ending. It's like I don't know how to enjoy things suddenly.

I feel like theres something wrong with me but I'm not sure. My style changes when I have someone I admire of but now I try to go on independent of my own liking but oh God why does it feel painful.

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My wrist still hurts but I wanna draw (It pops everytime i rotate it augh)

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Need to return to campus stuff around early August (God I don't wanna) I might be busy or not, nobody nose... I might enter a national animation competition as my friend said last semester but not sure yet

I've been dealing with personal stuff so I can't create slops yet... also my fruit girls mini figures are coming soon... teehee

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Been thinking what to draw, I'm finishing my last assignment first so I can draw other stuff in peace. Something had happened where I live, please bare with me

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My brain has spoken

Idk, it was funnier in my head lol

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I've been watching Deltarune stuff on yt and I'm having goosebumps from fear (Ik I'm lame 💔)

I can't draw stuff as for now, my right hand wrist suddenly hurts and crackles alot. Unfortunate moments... I WANNA DRAW NO NO NO NOOOOO

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Just finished Deltarune chapter 5 today and I've seen the impact of the weird route cuz I don't wanna do that route haha... too scary

Maybe I wanna draw something when I wake up

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Finishing chapter 5 of Deltarune and fixing my sleep scejuuls. Maybe no art fo the day (I still gotta finish my one art for college stuff haha I don't wanna do this)

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Thinking about Nelnal...

I've been admiring her arts ever since I found out about her DeviantArt VERY OLD account back in 2015 or something, I don't remember

It's so cool to see her being a huge illustrator and character designer today. I wish I could be like that too someday

Still cool that her characters made it to episodes in Keroro Gunsou. Dude, I LOVE Putata, I used to ship him a lot with Mekeke

EDIT: My art style around 2018-early 2020 was literally inspired heavily from her. Agh I wish the old Keroro videos are reuploaded, I miss them so much

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Might post my ocs more or more likely my character designs if anyone car ☝️☝️☝️☝️

But eitherway I'd still post them, I personally think making characters are fun. But, college has been making it not fun, I hate it when my classmates uses bossy words and it sounds very rude to me and the concepts. Like, not properly criticized (Sometimes). I wish I could be friends with my lecturers tho and talk with them, they are so nice

I do am still exploring brushes and coloring styles maybe (?) even if I love pencil or messy artstyles but I need to try more things so it doesnt look so flat

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Need to find time to play AA stuff... but my Deltarune... but my SKY... BUT MY STARDEW VALLEY. Iont even have any AA games on my steam cuz the country I'm living currency sucks so much. Maybe I should pirate it, I don't know any of the lores and I may be stupid for encountering a few spoilers but I can't understand anything lalalalalala

I went interested after encountering the Apollo then I found out the wonderful and awesome existence of Klapollo

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I had a thought.

I actually learnt German back in senior highschool and I remember Klavier literally translates to piano

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Did you guys know I LOVE Kaiba (2008)

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It was supposed to be doodles of Noelles but the big Noelle ate the little Noelle :(

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Feeling hyper and jolly... I need to draw things...

So jolly I am unable to sleep properly because I wanna draw and I am tireless

I should draw more of Biscotti and Žemlovka, and perhaphs maybe their son Apple Strudel ough... but my other interest are calling me... they are freed from Cookie Run fandom so they're basically dessert people now LOL

I need to redo my Carrd and make an intro... and maybe Neocities but I suck at layouting and coding dude im screwed haha

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Was gonna animate it but then I remember I suck at animation