*seems like i’m not busy working .
nothing to say, i’m writing this because here i am missing my boyfriend like crazy even though we’re just met last night (where he went drunk because of the carbimin , hahhahhaha . so cute). (recently hot topic) - we were just realised that we’re friends since we’re little kids . oh my Goodness. how beautiful life is ! kids - schoolmate - friends - bestfriends - lovers - soon, future (AMEN! GOD BLESS).
what i learned from the things i have now is that we cannot understand how GOD write about our life, what HE’s doing but if we start to appreciate what we have now while thinking about how’s our life goes on and on from the beginning till now, i can proudly say i’m in love with my GOD. HE is the best . HE makes us learn so many things while we grow till we have what we prayed for. joy, happiness, struggles, obstacles, wounds, scars, lies, burden. pain etc. maybe once i asked my GOD, why does HE let such things happened to me, happened to all people around me, HE should help me, HE is awesome, HE is powerful, HE can turn anything bad into something better, but why does HE let me bury in my tears & pain conquers my chest? i’ve been betrayed. what have i done to receive that kind of things in return? (i don’t want to say much about this) - but because all of this, i’m back to learn that i should get up again, i should trust my GOD, keep my faith stronger and leave everything in HIS hands. i leave my heart to HIM where i just live everyday with nothing in my mind and keeping trusting HIM.
and after months passed by, i want to change, i want to change my life, i want to remove the person from my life. i realised i need a real love . i want love from a man who knows how to love a woman the way it should be. i’m craving for cares, touch, respect, responsibility, trust, no secrets, peace, calm, comfort and love. then one day, all of my thoughts become my prayer. do you know what is in my thoughts ? (but i remembered i never mentioned this man’s name in my thoughts/prayers. i never thought it could be him) i just said it my heart that i want a man whom praises the same God as me, whom is good to his parents, family, friends & community, a man who is ideal to be a leader of a family, a man who knows what LOVE & RESPECT means really is. (am is selfish to ask for things like that while i’m out here also not perfect in every inch as a daughter of GOD should be?)
out of my notice, i fell in love with my bestfriend. really i do not know what was going on in my head & heart but i just keep it as usual. we played, we talked, we walked, in short, we do everything together. then October 2017 came - SCYA Alpha Fellowship - Borneo Paradise --- i started to feel something new, i felt peace & calm, nothing else can ever disturb my mind on that time - all i just care about was the whole fellowship. while on the other side of my head, my eyes cannot stop looking and watching for this man; my bestfriend, i’m searching for his voice, i’m craving to be near him, to feel his warm body, that comfort feeling i always have when i’m with him. something that tieing us from long ago, slowly giving me chills. - then days after daysss, i remembered i said to myself “oh my God, i think i’m falling for him” - this was happened after a rosary at our friend’s house, where i hold his fingers naturally like giving a sign “you are mine”. then everyday after that i realised all the butterflies in my stomach alive again.. until 03rd November 2017, still i don’t realised i’m flirting with him & try to get his attention so he could notice me that i like him. i like him? no, i cannot assure that i like him.. actually I WANT HIM ! i want him as my lover as my partner as my boyfriend.. i want him. - 05th November 2017 - we confessed . i’m overwhelmed with joy & happiness because it is mutual , our feeling towards each other are mutual.. so i’m not wrong all those times where i think he likes me . hehehe .
i could write a novel if i want to talk about this. how my life changed in a blink, how our life change in a miracle way. i just want to give all my praises and thanks to my GOD, HE knows what the best, HE knows what HE is doing, HE knows what should HE gives to HIS children. GOD, thank you for giving me this chance to live again, to living my dreams & thoughts, thank you for sending me my love whom YOU always give to me in just in front of me. thank You for giving me REGGIE REYES to change me for good, to love me and to care for me.
Darling, @reggier96 you are my wondrous gift ever. you are my miracles. you are my sunshine. you are my new breath. you are my medicine. you are my comforter . YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING. you are the only one i’m in love now & forever. i’m so in love with you that i couldn’t think about anyone else. i want you as my partner till death do us apart. i want to live my life with you. from now on, any chances any times that i get, i won’t waste it. i want to fill every moment every second with you, i want to always be with you, to be near with you. i will LOVE YOU ALWAYS Byy.. i promise you i will stay by your side. i won’t leave you ever & i’m giving you my all from now on. please don’t ever leave me, and love me always as you do from long ago.. we will keep loving until we can get married, till we have our own family and for sure we will make beautiful babies, i know Byy, i can see it .So, again to answer your repeatedly question, YES, I DO WANT YOU FOREVER AND I’M SURE OF IT.
Thank you for everything love. i couldn’t say more, i’m cryinggggggggg .
your Sweetheart . I LOVE YOU @reggier96