Alright⦠some truth not poetic bullshit
Wearing my heart on my sleeve literally in both sensations, and senses.. hiding my true face, lost in false bliss since a real sense lost itself to music, yet the wrong taste, wrong time, had a sick time is the best way to spell it out, slowly finding myself.. something about death attracts a mind intent on truth, died farther and deeper by strict definition.. before death.
Slumber on my side of the grave⦠i still could argue I have an ace up my sleeve.. but scars fade.. and who knows if love is truth, in a world of mysterious appearance that just is.
Questioning my own existence within my own existence, riddled my own sins sincerely and dug my grave in multiple ways⦠how far does this void go⦠chaos and order are known⦠is it the dance the trance or the higher thoughts i know⦠its all chaos in my mind. Gazing at the sun, still only is my mind blind⦠feeling..
I left this heaven long ago, why i returned i do not know.. the flow of time has a rhythm unbalanced equation wise, i wasted love and time⦠for a glimpse of peace.
Chase the dragon has a new proof⦠yet itās only air. Invisible light. At one with itself.
Mystical nonsense aside, bored to death entranced to escape while facing a mirror of mind scattered. Doing science and true reflection, do we ever die. Itās killing me. Nazi Germany feels here. Although I didnāt fall from grace, I cannon-balled š
Dead inside, maybe upstairs im in the grave laughing from above seeing my life flash before my eyes in a dimension im blind to.
Ahh⦠sorrow goes deep, i donāt want to be a bitter person. Yet i self ignite feeding the fireā¦
In English, less need be said than true insanity riddled out of speech and no one deciphers truths it seems. How could they. When no one knows your higher thoughts like oneselfā¦.
Then again what is memory loss? Ticking of the clock⦠for what.. im going to post this public incase someone can see into the nature of that koan natured question..