TGuyJustin

FTM in Australia

[tguyjustin]

21/1/16 day 36 on T just over a month

So haven't posted much lately since I've honestly not felt much of a difference. My voice has definitely changed, it's not so much that it's deeper but it is definitely more natural and hollow in the throat. Sensitivity down there had increased quite a bit before but isn't as noticeable now. Don't feel extra sex drive as I already had a pretty high one before T. I have been more confident and happier lately but that could also just be from hanging some different friends. Having noticed anything else so far.

[tguyjustin]

7/1/16 Day 22 on T

So the first shot I had was in the butt and it didn't hurt at all on the day of the shot but hurt a lot on the next 3 days. This time I did the shot myself in the thigh. It hurt on the night I got the shot and slightly today. Comparatively I think thigh does hurt more than the butt. It just still seems easily to self inject in thigh so I will hopefully get used to it and it won't hurt as much.

[tguyjustin]

Day 21 6/1/16 second shot on T

So 3 weeks have passed. So far not much noticeable changes. People have mentioned my voice slightly going more hollow. I have felt more confidence lately but I beleive that is more to do with hanging around new frds. Another change I have noticed a little of is the sensitivity down there. My sex drive hasn’t gone up but the sensitivity definitely has. Other than those small changes no other changes noticed.

So today I went to get my second shot and did it myself supervised by the Endo. It seemed basic enough so from now on I will be doing my own shots. The Endo gave me some needles and antiseptic wipes to start off with so all I need to buy is a needle waste bin. Won’t need to see him again till 3 months so hopefully will feel more changes soon.

[tguyjustin]

Attempting to come out to God mum

Coming out to my god mum is really hard to me since the only reason she became my god mum was because she has two sons and she really really really wanted a daughter. So my mum offered me up to her. which I was ok with at the time considering I didn't see too much into that.

Considering that situation, you can understand why its hard to tell her I’m not her god daughter but instead her godson. I personally wouldn't mind if she became someone else’s god mum as I personally cant fulfill the needs that she personally wanted.

When I finally had everything planned out on what to say and plucked up the courage to talk to her I went to her house and gave her a cake and wished her happy birthday, since today is her birthday. She thanked me but when i asked if we could talk she said she was really busy and was getting ready to go out.

I tried to explain it was important but she seems really set on needing to get ready to go out so I just left. I just feel really disappointed as I’m not sure when ill get the chance to tell her. We don’t see very often!

This also makes it harder for me to come out to other family frds as I feel i owe her the respect to tell her before them. I just don’t know if i should just send her a text message or just wait till next year. At this rate though I will most likely just wait till next year. Sighz.

[tguyjustin]

Practice date experience

So since I have never dated anyone before my mate tried to set me up on a practice date with his friends. Embarrassingly she knew it was a practice date but my mate told me she was interested in me and it was a casual meeting. So when I met her I was my awkward shy self who thought  it was something different than her.

Eventually after chatting with her and a mate of theirs while waiting for my mate to arrive she eventually told me it was a practice date. I didnt mind so much that it was a practice date but it was just embarrassing as even though i may have guessed that it was a trap I didnt know for sure until she told me. 

None the less we chatted and hung out with their friends at their house. I actually liked her and she was giving me mixed up signals as she was touching my legs and hands. Dont get me wrong I liked it but I didnt know how to take it as I felt she was just doing it for the practice date.

Eventually all the other guys fell asleep and me and her where alone. We got to chatting and I find her pretty cute and I love her straight forward attitude. She ended up telling me that not all of the night was practice so we continued chatting. Im really shy so I definitely was not smooth with chatting her. She made it pretty clear she wasn't looking for a relationship and I can respect that so even though I was interested in her I tried not to think too much into it.

Another thing happened that I regretted my reactions on. She was really funny in that she knew I was being very awkward and i was thinking too much into what I said. So she she knew if she kissed me id be really shy and embarassed so she said that If i dont think of things to day or keep repeating myself she would kiss me. So i desperately tried to think of things to say. It was going pretty well when suddenly she came in for a kiss. I was caught off guard and stupidly backed away. It wasnt that I didnt wanna kiss her, I was honestly just surprised and inexperienced in these tings. I could tell she felt bad about it and what made it worse was that I did want to kiss her but I didnt have the guts to go for it after that happened. I dont think she meant anything from it as she has made it clear that shes not looking for a relashionship so If we had kissed I would have taken it seriously while she wasnt serious about it. What was worse is that she felt bad about what she did in which I really didn't mind because if i wasnt so stupid I would have definitely wanted to kiss her back.

Either way I stuffed up and lost my chance. The next day she definitely wasn't as touchy as she was before. So either it was because her promise to my mate to make it a practice date was over or she was just trying to hold back so I dont get the wrong idea. I have to say though if it was the second reason I definitely stuffed up on that because I liked it but had a terrible way of showing it.

Anyway on the bright side I met a lot of awesome chill people these last two days and I will probably try and continue hanging out with them as much as I’m welcome. Ill be spending xmas with them so hopefully things go well. 

But yes one thing i should definitely learn form them is “Dont think too much” in which I have always thought too much about my actions. Ok enough ranting for today. Hopefully one day ill look back at this and remember how stupid I was.

[tguyjustin]

Day 2 of T

So day 2 on T 17/12/15. Woke up today and the injection section in the butt hurt pretty bad. It felt like it was bruised but it seems like other Trans guys has that same issue. Day 2 of T hurt way more than day 1. 

I had work today as normal so had to go to work and since I was stealth at work I couldn't explain what the reason was for me taking sick leave yesterday I just explained i had an appointment with doctor.

Everytime I sat down and stood up the injection hurt pretty bad but it wasnt a bad thing for me. Me finally being able to start T felt like a dream to me, it didnt feel real but this pain in my butt (haha literally) was what reassured me that it was real and it was finally happening.

Not much changes on T in this one day except for the pain from the injection. So yeh time to sleep as I have work tomorrow and will post more possibly when more happens.

[tguyjustin]

Day 1 of T

So got first shot of T on 16/12/15, not sure if its psychological along with the overjoy of finally starting T but I swear after 1 hour of starting T i already felt a huge surge of energy flowing through me. It wasn't so much power or strength it was just more of a flow of energy. 

I originally had a very deep voice pre-t but I have already felt a small scratch in the throat. Other than those small changed nothing much on Day 1.

[tguyjustin]

So haven’t been on in a while so some quick updates:

1. Finally found work, I am stealth at work so everything is pretty good at work

2. Went to gender centre ftm connect monthly and met a bunch of other transguys and have made some awesome friends.

3. Through a great frd of mine, Sam he introduced me to th western sydney group down in penrith and have also going to those meet ups monthly

4. Went to see Dr. Burke down in Blacktown and he was amazing. He ran me through the process of starting T and he got me a referral to see a Psch to get my Psych letter.

5. Went to see Dr. Toohey and after one session he write me his Psych letter.

6. Dr. Burke told me to see Dr. Hays to start T but as my work hours didn’t match his business hours other guys at the Gender centre told me I could go see Dr Cathy Pell @ Taylor Square clinic.

7. Went to see her and when seh looked at my blood test she advised me I may also have a thyroid condition so I will need to see Dr. Hayes.

8. After months and months of all that going on I finally manged to book in Dr Hayes for 16/12/15

9. Went to see Dr Hayes with my blod tests, dr referalls and Psych letter.

10. Finally some really good news is that I am finally able to strat T and I managed to get my First shot on the day so yeh I am now 2 days on T, Happy days :)

11. On a side note i also came out to my dad and brother who are cool with it and my cousins who seem very supportive of it too.

12. Mum is hopefully slowly coming around she has started using my name, Justin.

Haha yeh so overall a lot has happened so now thought id finally come back on tumblr and start posting some updates on T.

[tguyjustin]

Are you planning to do top surgery in Australia?

Ive done a little research online but I haven’t officially consulted with a doctor yet so I am not completely sure where I will be doing top surgery but It will most likely be within Australia

[tguyjustin]

Work update

OK, so far it is Saturday here and since I started work on Thursday I have only worked for two days. I have been lucky when i applied for a bank account they registered me as MR. and when I called my tax file about my name change and requesting removing of my title they told me they could change it to Mr. for me, which was amazing. So when I filled out my forms for work I could just simply fill in all my details as Mr. so I didn't need to explain my situation. So everyone there just knows me as male. 

Work so far has been interesting, as an entry level position there wasn't much for me to do so I wasn't very busy. So far I like the workplace and the co-workers. 

The great part is that it is Public holiday (Queen’s Birthday) on Monday so from the start of work I have long weekend already. I have plans nearly everyday this long weekends so it’s gonna be fun but at the same time I look forward to starting work again Tuesday. So for work it seems all is going great and I am very satisfied with how that is progressing. 

Cant wait for my first pay, my plans are to start seeing a GP after I get my first pay in case Medicare does not cover the appointments. 

[tguyjustin]

Regrets!

So yesterday i visited the FTM meet up at sydney’s gender centre for the first time. It was very interesting and i got to hear a lot of interesting topics and examples of what others are going through. 

Originally I planned to visit the meet up so I could meet other FTMs but when i was there I was too nervous and shy to say anything at the discussion. After the meet up everyone seemed to group up and started chatting but to my own regret I was way too shy to do anything, so I just left.

I have been regretting it ever since, I really wanted to chat with some of them but was too shy to start a convo with them. So now I guess all I can hope for is at next month’s meet up I'll be confident enough to speak out and talk to them.

[findlgbtqfriends]

Hey my names Justin, 24 year old asian transguy (FTM), I am pre-T and have not undergone any surgery yet (I guess that’s pre-everything). I don’t really do selfies so I just randomly cropped a picture out of another photo taken on a holiday with friends at disneyland Japan. I am from Australia, NSW, Sydney. I’m looking to make some friends, meet fellow FTMs and if possible maybe also find a girlfriend. 

hmmm guess I should say a little about me. Well ……… I like eating as you can probably tell from looking at me hahaha and i also enjoy cooking. I am kind of a big child at heart a lot of the time. I enjoy watching tv shows and playing games. I also enjoy playing sports such as tennis, badminton and basketball. I like animals especially dogs. 

Heres my tumblr URL: http://tguyjustin.tumblr.com/

I would love to chat feel free to skype me: tguyjustin

Message me if your interested in chatting, I would love to chat with people within Australia and mostly people in Sydney but would still like to chat with anyone outside Australia.

[tguyjustin]

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Skype

I would love to make some friends so would love to skype some people, so feel free to skype me.

You can find me on skype with username: tguyjustin

[tguyjustin]

hey I'm trying to save up for top surgery and I was wondering if you'd mind reblogging my fundraiser to post to help it gain some support! thanks so much in advance

Not sure how much help I can be but would gladly help you by reblogging it.

Good luck with the surgery!

[tonynicholasink]

I’m having top surgery on July 22nd. I’m raising money via a T-Shirt Fundraiser and I only have 12 days left to sell shirts. I’ve sold eleven shirts and I need to sell just four more in order for the shirts to print and for me to receive money from this fundraiser. Please buy a shirt, and share this with your friends, family, and followers! Thanks so much!

https://www.booster.com/tonysurgeryfund

[tguyjustin]

Good luck with the fundraising 

[tguyjustin]

Found work!

Good news, I finally found work and will be starting this Thursday. I'll be working as an accounting assistant for a construction company.

Success! I can tick off first thing on my plan to reach my goal.

Can’t wait to start work and earn money so I'm not restricted by money any more. Once I get my first pay check I will start seeing a doctor about my possibilities of going on T and chest surgery.

I am extremely excited about being one step closer to reaching my goal.

[singleandtrans]

Hey my names Justin, 24 year old asian transguy (FTM), I am pre-T and have not undergone any surgery yet (I guess that’s pre-everything). I don’t really do selfies so I just randomly cropped a picture out of another photo taken on a holiday with friends at disneyland Japan. I am from Australia, NSW, Sydney. I’m looking to make some friends, meet fellow FTMs and if possible maybe also find a girlfriend. 

hmmm guess I should say a little about me. Well ……… I like eating as you can probably tell from looking at me hahaha. I am kind of a big child at heart a lot of the time. I enjoy watching tv shows and playing games. I also enjoy playing sports such as tennis, badminton and basketball. I like animals especially dogs. 

Heres my tumblr URL: http://tguyjustin.tumblr.com/

Message me if your interested in chatting, I would love to chat with people within Australia and mostly people in Sydney but would still like to chat with anyone outside Australia.

[tguyjustin]

I submitted this to singleandtrans, so yeh some more info about me

and a picture hahaha so embarassing :P

Updating some info, feel free to skype me: tguyjustin