Okay so it's been a long time, and I'll cut straight to the chase, I've had to write these "I'm back and I'll start posting more and write fanfictions again" messages so many times now, but this time I've come to the realisation that I can no longer continue this blog anymore.
My life has changed somewhat drastically since I was last here, circumstances have changed. I finished my A levels a year ago and I went to university in September, my mental health took a downwards turn shortly after starting, even with intention to come back on here, I wasn't in the right mindset to do so, I also realised that would be impossible with the amount of work I had and living by myself too. After Christmas, I got so much better, some months went by, I got into a relationship in March with someone of whom I have loved for a very long time, he helped me through my struggles throughout my first few months at uni, he was my best friend in sixth form and at the end of my secondary school year, he has changed my life for the better, and I realised that I was struggling for a lot longer than I thought.
I am better now and now I'm in a very good mindset which is why I am now back here, but after a long think, I have realised that I don't have the motivation or time to continue running this account. There is no specific reason, I still LOVE Richard Hammond to pieces so it's not that, I guess it's just, growing up, moving on and focusing on other points in my life that need more attention. I kept coming and going from this platform in the last year and I realise it's because I don't have the time and I just don't have the drive I used to have, back when I used to be obsessed with this platform and posted every day, including posting many fanfictions on AO3. The fanfictions will forever be there for all of you and for me to go back and reminisce, I never forget how writing those fanfictions helped me in getting an A in my English Literature, so they will forever stay in my heart, and they remain for as long at AO3 exists.
As for the wonderful people I have met on here, I love you all so much. The many distances between us from living all across the world was never an issue, your online presence was always enough to keep the cheers high, to discuss, to laugh. We sent postcards and letters which I adored, I had never sent things to people across the world like that, for me it was a lovely experience, especially recieving things from you as well as giving. I remember our first group chat, and we still have a whatsapp group to this day. I vow to myself that I will keep in touch with all of you, because you are all amazing people and I'm so happy I've met you, I'm happy we established our own little community, to make us all feel a part of something and to openly discuss freely expressing our thoughts without prejudice or judgement. One day I will travel across the world and meet all of you.
Thank you for an amazing time on this platform, and I confirm that I will no longer return to this blog, but do feel free to repost, like, or even have a scroll through this page for some Richard Hammond goodness. I might not come back here but this page will always be here.
Thank you, I love you all and I hope you understand.
