Characters : Jared x Reader x Jensen
Song : You Are A Memory by Message to Bears
Tags : @sammysdimples67 @teamfreewillstuff @blushingsamgirl @adammaybeonfire
Read Part One - Part Two - Part Three - Part Four -Part Five - Part Six - Part Seven - Part Eight
Looking out your window, you saw Jared storm to his car, and peel out down the road.
You paced back and forth in your living room. Going over every little detail in your head. From the way Jensen kissed you, to the way Jared kissed you. You thought about Jensen’s confession, then Jared’s. It was beginning to overwhelm you.
How could the two guys that meant the world to you, be the reason you were completely broken?
There was a knock at the door, and in the moment you felt your stomach churn. Making your way over, you opened the door and met a pair of familiar eyes. And just like that, you broke down.
“Hey.” He muttered, wrapping his arms around your waist and pulled you in. “Whats wrong?”
“I don’t know what to do anymore. I-I-” You squeezed on to him, pressing against his chest as you wept.
He held you in his arms, making small circles on your back. Seeing you this way, was something he has never seen before. He could see the pain you felt just by looking at you. “Im here. It’s okay.” He whispered.
You both stood in silence, just holding one another.
After what seemed like forever, you took in a deep breath and tore from his embrace. Wiping your tears, you walked over to the couch and plopped down.
He stared intently at you, furrowing his brows, and took a seat next to you.
Everything was a mess. And you weren’t sure where to begin.
“Is it possible to love two people at the same time?” You exhaled, staring endlessly at the wall in front of you. gazing at the creases, trying to form shapes.
“I believe there are different kinds of love out there in the world. And sometimes, it confuses people to believe that they are in love with someone when really they just love them.” He stated. “There should be only one love out their for you. For all of us.”
Your eyes met his and shrugged. “How do you know the difference?” Your voice shook. “How do you know that the person you love is the right one?”
He took in a deep breath, and flashed a soft smile. “I believe theres only one kind of love that consumes you. That challenges you every day, and leaves you breathless. Someone who knows you, inside and out. Someone who will choose you over and over and over again. Because in life, feelings change. People change. But the person who chooses to stay in your life, is the one you are meant to be with.”
The memories flashed like a movie. Playing in your head.
“You need to choose.” He muttered.
“Misha, it’s not that simple! I cant just choose. How can I-I cant do this to them.” You yelped.
“Y/N, Love isn’t simple. Its complicated, painful, annoying but thats the beauty of it.” He exclaimed. “You need to realize that no matter what you decide, you are going to hurt someone. So choose. Who do you see yourself with for the rest of your life? Who do you want to wake up to every morning? Who is the person you can’t live without?”
A tear shed from your eye, and you glanced down at your hands.
How were you suppose to make a decision when they both had a piece of your heart?
Your stomach hurt from laughing so much. Both you and Jared were on the floor of your living room, side by side with an empty bottle of wine in front of you.
“I’m serious! I think there are mermaids!” You exclaimed.
Jared shrugged his shoulders, smiling from ear to ear. “I guess it could be true. But I doubt it. It’s scientifically impossible.”
You scrunched your nose at him, and swatted his arm. “You dont know that College boy.” You muttered. “Only 5% of the worlds ocean has been discovered! Anything could be down there!”
He pondered on your statement for a moment. He had nothing to comeback with since he knew you were right. Anything could be down there. “Why are you so worked up with mermaids?” He chuckled.
You exhaled, and stared at the wall as tears begin to well. “My grandpa would tell me stories about mermaids.” Your voice shook.
Today was by far the hardest day of your life. Having to say good bye to your grandfather.
People would say death was the hardest thing to go through. To lose someone who was once the world. You never understood what they meant, until today. Until you were standing by the casket, watching it slowly lower into the ground.
“I still cant believe he’s gone.” You wept.
Jared pulled you into him, letting you rest your head on to his shoulder. You felt the tears stream down your cheeks, and stain his shirt. But he didn’t move. He kept still, gently circling your arm.
“Thank you.” You whispered. “For being here with me.”
“I will always be here for you.”
The sun gleamed over you, the rays tingling over your skin. It was warm, and peaceful. And the view was breathtaking.
You and Jensen were up on a hill, overlooking the city. It was an escape from the madness you call life. To get away and enjoy some peace and quiet.
“It’s so weird.” Jensen muttered, resting his hands on his hips.
You furrowed your brows and turned your gaze to him. “What is?” You asked.
He shrugged his shoulders and motioned to the view. “That. To know that no matter what, life goes on. There are billions of people that don’t even know we are up here. It’s weird.”
You nodded as you let his words sink in. “I guess I never thought about it.” You whispered. “At least people know who you are. No one will remember me when I leave.”
Jensen was taken aback, staring at you as you returned your gaze to the city. “Y/N, you will be remembered. Maybe not by everyone in the world. But you will always be remembered by the people who matter.” He exclaimed. “You have no idea how important you are to me, to Jared and to your family and friends. Every life you touch, you change their lives forever just by being you.”
You felt your heart flutter, and a tear fall from your eye.
“Don’t be afraid of oblivion, Y/N. Because that isn’t living.” He made his way over to you, and wrapped an arm over your shoulder. “This, this right here is living.”
You glanced up at him, meeting his green emerald eyes. “You are such a sap Ackles.” You teased.
He let out a huff and rolled his eyes, a smile forming on his lips. “Shut up.”
“Everything will work out the way it’s suppose too.” Misha said.
You flashed a soft smile, and tangled your hand with his. “Vicky is lucky to have you.”
He flashed a smirk and nodded. “I know. I tell her that all the time.”
You let out a chuckle, and rolled your eyes.
“Look, I know this is scary for you. But you do need to choose.” He whispered. “Jared and Jensen will always be brothers, because a bond like theirs is something that cant be broken.”
Your eyes grew wide, and your lips quivered. “H-How did you know it was-”
“Y/N, I’m not stupid. I knew before those idiots knew themselves.” He cackled. “Just remembered what I told you, okay?”
You took in a breath, and flashed a faint smile.
“I have to go, Vicky is waiting for me.” He cupped your face, staring into your eyes. “Choose Y/N. Tonight, when you’re in bed, look over to the untouched side and just say out loud, who you want there with you. It’s time to be honest with yourself.”
He pressed his lips to your head, and made his way out of your apartment. Leaving you alone with nothing but your thoughts.
What the hell did he mean it was time to be honest with yourself?
It confused you, and honestly, it felt like you were back to where you were before he got there.
“Thanks for the help.” You mumbled.
You locked your front door, and walked over to your room. You took off your dress, and threw on an old shirt.
You put some music on your phone, and slipped into bed, the sheet hugging every curve of your body. Misha’s words playever over in your thoughts, and before you knew it, you turned over and glanced at the emptiness beside you.
The faint music, and the sound of the rain hitting against your window echoed around the room.
And in that moment, when you thought you were never going to figure this out. That you wouldn’t choose,
In that moment, you knew exactly who you wanted laying next to you.
You shot up in your bed, a smile forming on your lips. Everything made sense. Everything that was once a mess, was now clearer than before.
Reaching for your phone, you dialed the number and pressed it against your ear. The ring made your stomach flutter, and your heart felt as if it were about to jump out of your chest.
The phone rang 6 times before taking you to voicemail. And though you wished they would have picked up, you were still gleaming with joy.
As you heard the sound of the beep, you took in a deep breath.
“Hey, its me. I know you’re probably driving back home. Or you’re mad at me, which I dont blame you. The way I dealt with everything tonight, I would expect you to be mad.” You felt your smile grow as you look out the window. “But I want you to know, that I love you.” Your voice shook. “I love you so much.”
Everything was somehow falling in to place. Your heart felt whole as you placed your phone down on to your nightstand.
But not everything is as it seems.