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So I'm keeping a close eye on everyone. But they can all front again.
Except, Darci is dormant. So she won't.
Updates: Host is manic depressive and suicidal. I have no clue where Aiya is, but I don't think she's dormant rn. The kids are shaken. And host also split. Hard. So we have a new one. And it's non-human this time. Which is a first for us. It doesn't share any traits with us whatsoever.
-Raena
Update: I suppressed her. So there! Ha!
-Raena
Okay so suppressing others is harder than I thought. I don't know if I can do this much longer
Update: I suppressed her. So there! Ha! -Raena
Host will delete our blogs once we have access to desktop. Host will be resupressing us. We aren't allowed to talk to her anymore. We certainly will not be allowed to front. I don't know how to help her. So I can not try to stop her. -Erin
We've been inactive. We've had dysfunction. One of our (typically) quietest alters had an absolute meltdown and lashed out at several people and actively tried to harm our host. The host who now is wracked with self doubt and will not drop the "what if I'm faking" thing. The host who is now afraid of all of us because of what the quiet one did. The host who wants us to go away. The host who wants to be faking because then we won't be real and the one wouldn't have hurt her and she'd be okay. I love her and care for her. And she seemed to be doing better. I thought we were helping. She was becoming more confident. We were taking charge and being firm when she couldn't. And she hates us for it. She wants to be a doormat again. She wants to relearn her "place." So that people will stop being mad at her. She says she accepted that she is the kind of person that people keep around to agree with them. She asks why we ruined that. Why we gave her confidence. Why we couldn't just leave her alone. This hurts. And I can't do anything for her. Cuz all she wants is for us to do nothing. I failed
Erin + Raena = passive aggressive behavior The mother has some sort of issue with being "told" what to do. Even if your asking a question or giving her suggestions to a problem she has stated she can't solve. So she will yell and swear and insult us. But only us. No one else. Literally anyone else could parrot us word for word and she'd be exceptionally kind or thankful for their input. Solution: all statements/questions will be worded akin to the following "can I ask you to move or are you going to take it as a command?" And "can I suggest something or are you gonna bitch about me (us) telling you what to do?" Etc
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Is it normal to doubt your disorder all the time? I feel like all I do is doubt whether I actually have DID or not. Even if all the signs are there, I still find reason to doubt.
Unfortunately, it’s really common. DID has a way of hiding itself and prioritizing functionality over coping and understanding and dissociation can make everything confusing. What you’re going through isn’t uncommon or bad. I hope you can find comfort in the fact that you’re not alone with this!!
I’ve been getting really sick of seeing the plural community being 90% endogenic/non-DID system discourse and would like to make a blog for all sorts of systems that has fun prompts for system discussions as well as cool things to do (like art/writing prompts, ask memes, stuff like that)
Just something…anything nice at all
Anyone wanna throw in their two cents?
CAN WE BE ADMINS PLS💗This is a great idea. The only content systems have on here is syscourse and we need more positivity for ALL types of systems. Forget your origins and join the fun. We’re already being discriminated against by singlets, why discriminate against each other? -Jenny
Definitely!!! My biggest concern with starting a blog like that is that because of our body’s various issues we can’t always be very active online and I wouldn’t want the blog to die off because of that
Help is very much appreciated and it’s great to see that other people are interested too
My systemmates and I are gonna be out for the rest of today but tomorrow we can probably arrange to get that blog started. We could even have other people submit their ideas too!
We are extremely busy ALWAYS and we go to school and have an abusive mum and plus we have to post on our own blog so this might actually not be a very good idea…ANY OTHER SYSTEMS WANNA MAKE A BLOG LIKE THIS? We can help btw we just can’t be the main admins. -Jenny
My studyblr type blog has system stuff. Cuz my bullet journal is specifically about our system. It's @pristine-and-precise -Erin
What people think switching is like:
What switching is usually like:
So some events happened. And as of now Raena's locked herself in her room in headspace. And the morning after the events we had this. New. Kid... I've spent the past couple days working with her to find something similar to how she looks. And this is what she's decided on. (With so much editing) So now we have Mapleine, or just Maple! And that's about the extent of our knowledge. She looks quite a bit like Darci. And Aiya has claimed Maple as her child much in the same way Raena claimed bunny or Erin claimed Aiden. We just find that it's helpful to pair a child alter up with an adult alter who they have the most in common with.
Well our therapist thinks maybe we don't need CBT anymore. (That's the type of therapist we are seeing) cuz we met our goals. For CBT. which means. Either. We stop. Or. Go see a regular counselor. Aiya and kaida need that validation from a professional though. So. Idk. Even I'm anxious about this. I mean I can reasearch for them all I want. I'm not a professional so I'm not concrete validation for them.
Ehhhhhh I'm fronting and it's therapy time. Fucccckkkjj I should not be here. My default towards therapists is aggression cuz we've had some bad ones. And while I'm consciously aware this one is good and nice, I can't help it.... I'm afraid they'll drug us. We can't take those kinds of meds... they make us sick or worsen dissacociation to the point where we can't function at all. Ehhhhhhhhhh!!! Lemme back in the headspace I'm upset just being here!!! In the waiting room!!
respect abuse victims who are angry. who want to break things and get violent urges and violently hate their abuser.
respect abuse victims who are scared. who can’t talk about it. who can’t tell anyone about it. whose abusers are a biggest fear.
respect abuse victims who love(d) their abusers. who are in a relationship, were, who were raised by their abusers. who can’t stop loving their abuser.
respect abuse victims who aren’t over it and never will be. respect abuse victims who don’t deal in healthy ways. respect abuse victims of all sorts, as long as they aren’t dealing with their abuse in a way that is harmful to others (ie racist, ableist, etc), there is no wrong way to cope or react to abuse
Ah ahaha!!! I’ve called bunny and Aiden “my kids” so many times that parenting adds are showing up on my dashboard! Okay kids I’m your mom now!!! Momma Raena!! @nostalgic-bunny @poke-ponies
But you been momma raena !!
Well… yes. But you also call all “big sisters” momma. Interchangeably. I mean I am your parent now. 😅I should have specified for you!
Parental unit Raena!
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Ah ahaha!!! I’ve called bunny and Aiden “my kids” so many times that parenting adds are showing up on my dashboard! Okay kids I’m your mom now!!! Momma Raena!! @nostalgic-bunny @poke-ponies
But you been momma raena !!
Well... yes. But you also call all "big sisters" momma. Interchangeably. I mean I am your parent now. 😅I should have specified for you!
Ah ahaha!!! I've called bunny and Aiden "my kids" so many times that parenting adds are showing up on my dashboard! Okay kids I'm your mom now!!! Momma Raena!! @nostalgic-bunny @poke-ponies
