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it/she How'd you even get here

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Changed my url bc the nature of this blog has changed

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i genuinely cant do it anymore

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am i evil

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imagine walking into a polycule and every member immediately develops a thing for you. that's crazy. ive only done that once

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how to stop being suicidal

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i miss her and i should kill myself about it

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i should kill myself so im less of an annoyance

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if i can get closer to the full amount then it is probably worth more than the full value I will pr9duce for the rest of my life

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i genuinely think if it is after i get the money and can give leave it to my loved ones they will be happier without me

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i frankly deserve for things to he worse than they are. i should be happy having a permanent stomachache. i shouldn't care that it ruins everything in my life

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if i hurt myself enough one day everyone will leave me

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one day ill stop being such a coward for two seconds too long

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kind of cant breathe

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im so tired and so hopeless. when does it end

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probably im nearing the end

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The iron is just barely still warm. I am running out of time to make myself into a shape that is acceptable. BEAT and BEAT and BEAT and BEAT and BEAT and BEAT

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i need to beat myself into a better shape