Spoonie Fit

24. Handling life with chronic Lyme and Fibromyalgia like a boss

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Meal prep Sunday! This took me less than an hour! That's all my lunches for this week (not pictured: more rice for a dinner and another eggplant parmigiana plus another container for that second one) #mealprep #practice #thefitspoonie #nutrition #fitspoonie

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If anyone I loved felt like I do today, I would bring them flowers or do something nice to cheer them up- so why not do that for myself? #selflove #sunflowers #favorite #officeaesthetic #cheerupbuttercup #itsgonnabeokay #yougotthis

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If you are willing to spend $5 on a cup of coffee, you can spend $5 on organic eggs #thefitspoonie #cleanisheating #organic #breakfast

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My migraine cure- lots of water, a hot coffee, very little natural light and the painkillers I already swallowed #migraine #mandatoryrestday #sickday #thefitspoonie #thatswhatigetforignoringmybody

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A beginner's attempt at meal prepping. These will grow up to be smoothies 😁 #mealprep #thatsalotofkaleforoneperson #morningsmoothies #greens #berries #thefitspoonie #cleaneating #andnowimexhausted

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This is where she lurks when I tell her to stay off the mat #lilyluna #erl12 #justwaitinguntilimdone #furbaby #catsofinstagram #blackcat #hiitworkout

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Finding waterfalls is what keeps me in the mood for cardio in the morning #waterfalls #smallbutbeautiful #morningjog #erl12 (at Peebles Island State Park)

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Enjoying some coconut chicken curry while watching the rain come and go #rainysunday #delicious #actuallycooked #erl12recipe #definitelycookingagain #reallifeaesthetic #amidoingthisright

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[misswallflower]

Find meaning. Distinguish melancholy from sadness. Go out for a walk. It doesn’t have to be a romantic walk in the park, spring at its most spectacular moment, flowers and smells and outstanding poetical imagery smoothly transferring you into another world. It doesn’t have to be a walk during which you’ll have multiple life epiphanies and discover meanings no other brain ever managed to encounter. Do not be afraid of spending quality time by yourself. Find meaning or don’t find meaning but ‘steal’ some time and give it freely and exclusively to your own self. Opt for privacy and solitude. That doesn’t make you antisocial or cause you to reject the rest of the world. But you need to breathe. And you need to be.

Albert Camus, “Notebooks 1951-1959″ (via misswallflower)

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Week 3, Day 5: Flare

I definitely got off track this week with the holiday on Monday (July 4th). I’ll be honest and say I let myself get distracted. I figured I would be making up for lost time this week and I have at least gotten one workout in, but now I am sitting writing this post propped up in bed with my computer brightness all the way down and it’s till too bright.

I didn’t sleep well considering my cat kept waking me up throughout the night. I woke up nauseous with heart palpitations and my skin on fire. I remember going to bed trying to decide between making up for cardio day in the morning or doing this week’s HIIT cycle. At this point I feel lucky enough if I can make it to my desk job.

Mentally I am sitting here thinking of all the reasons why I could be flaring. 

I haven’t taken my medication in a couple days

Increased stress at work

The stress I experienced in my personal life yesterday

But usually there is no particular reason other than I’m sick.

I am also trying to push the thoughts away that I will never get in shape and I will feel uncomfortable about my body forever. These thoughts generally flare up with my symptoms too. Maybe a feeling of loss of control over my body.

I've been doing better at getting these thoughts to change and am already thinking of wearing my comfiest yoga pants to work today and taking a walk on lunch if I am up for standing for more than 3 minutes at a time.

These are the hardest days to convince myself that I can do this and I’m not killing myself faster for a lost cause.

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