[the-last-gentlemen]

Why did you fucking leave me. Why? Do you still think of me? Suck a selfish fucking question. It’s just you mean and meant so much to me that it would destroy my heart to find out it’s opposite for you

[the-last-gentlemen]

I will hate you and I will love you forever. And I hate you’ll never know how much I fucking love you, even after you’ve forgotten me. I hate myself because I’ll never stop loving you. And I’ll end up killing myself because I’ll never stop loving the person that has hated me. If I could go to hell to ensure you and your daughter would be together in heaven after you live eternity out with her I would. You are the love of my life. I love you to the point of not wanting to see you face. A portrait of you lives In My head, and I have to distort it in order to stay alive.

[the-last-gentlemen]

Why do you play with me. Why do you fuck with my brain. You know I love you. You know how i feel. Why do you continue to fuck with my brain. And my happiness and my self worth. You killed Me and I hope you live happy with him forever. Why? Because I love you. I always loved you. And you never loved me. You hated my soul

[the-last-gentlemen]

I fucking hate you!!

oh My God I love you..

What the fuck have you done to me!!!!!

[the-last-gentlemen]

I want to feel you love me one more time before I die. Why do I hate you? And why do I love you…

[the-last-gentlemen]

My mind has killed me, and I fear I’m going to hell

[the-last-gentlemen]

Haven’t been here in probably years but I just need a place to vent. I don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t want to be here. I’ve literally never been enough. My whole life it didn’t matter how much time or growing I did. Never. Why. Why can’t I be happy. Why can’t I feel that feeling for longer than a month or two. Why do people use me when they are sad or need help. I have nothing left to give. I’ve given every happy piece of me to someone else. I have ruined myself trying to achieve an impossible goal.

[moan-s]

[the-last-gentlemen]

Sometimes you just need a friend

[the-last-gentlemen]

Mood: falling asleep with a cuties head on my chest and leg on top of me while I play with her hair and rub her booty👌🏻👌🏻

[favdiosa-deactivated20230824-de]

kiss ya girls thighs

[trap-aholic]

[dankreality]

“I can’t leave drank alone”

[year-of-confusion-deactivated20]

This reminds me of when we bought a 2 liter of sprite and jolly ranchers and failed at attempting to make dirty sprite. Then nick was in the corner acting like he was “feeling it” LMFAO

[year-of-confusion-deactivated20]

I miss the time when we drove to Atlanta and back just for the hell of it. I miss walking around a hotel just because we’ve never been in it and had nothing better to do. I miss our random calls until I’d pass out. I miss just sitting at your house and talking about anything and everything.You were my best friend and I’m reminded of you every day. I feel like all I did was cause you pain and drama; Never once did I want to cause you pain but that’s all it seems that I’ve done.

[the-last-gentlemen]

Saw this In my likes :) made me happy

[fxck-every-1]

It makes me so angry to know that you can look at me and not feel a single bit of pain, when I’m over here screaming at the thought of you.

(via fxck-every-1)

[the-last-gentlemen]

I remember the night we laid in your bed all night you told me to come cuddle with you but to be frank I was a little bitch back then lol all I did was get close to you scared to do anything else. You could tell I was being awkward and nervous but you didn't make me feel bad about it. we just laid there and couldn't stop laughing because you had the hiccups for over an hour till we fell asleep lol. And then I wake up to you jumping on top of me repeatedly trying to get me up. I think back and wish I wouldn't have been so scared to show you how I really felt about you. I had told you many times but I always let my anxiety get to me when I wanted to show you. it got a little better after you with other people but still pretty apparent with important ones. I just wish I would have, Maybe things would have turned out differently. Or the day when you told me you could see us dating and I said me too and you said yay and I left it at that, like wtf was I thinking uggg I'm so stupid. I remember the exact day I met you I still remember how your hair was and what clothes you were wearing. I never thought at that moment we would be how we were. But then you met josh and you tried to keep me around for a while but then y'all started dating and we talked less and less then things got better for a week or so before we went to Florida and I was under the impression that it was going to be just us because you and josh had broken up but then I find out he's going and I think that trip for nine days seeing y'all together really fucked me up and as soon as I got back to your house you went to the ER with your mom and I stayed and said I was gonna wait and left before you even got back and I haven't seen you since that day. Well I did once In The drive thru at chikfila but that doesn't really count. After that day we talked less and less at first a couple times a day then a day would go by then two days then a week and a month and so on. It's sad how things ended it was just very apparent to me who your priority was even tho we had been friends and really close for a long time before him it didn't really matter because the truth is I just wasn't as important as he was; I didnt mean as much and I never really did. It was like one day we were best friends and the next strangers. I look back and just kinda wish I would've done things a little differently I could've saved myself a lot of pain.

[lettersto-savemyself]

[hplyrikz]

I can relate to this

[the-last-gentlemen]

Why is it always me. Why am I always the one fucking up!!!! Why can't I be happy? Why don't I deserve it? Why should I have to feel like shit everyday? Why do I deserve to feel as if I don't matter to anyone. Why don't I deserve to have someone to talk to that actually wants to talk to me and will actually reply to me. Why? I just don't get it. I tried my very hardest to be what I needed to be but it wasn't good enough. Why am I never good enough.... For myself, my job, my friends... What in the FUCK!!! Did I do to deserve to be the is fucking unhappy!!!!!! Fuck it whatever it doesn't even matter because no matter what tomorrow when I wake up nothing will be different I still won't be good enough. And you know what I think that's what hurts the most not anything fucking else. It's the fact that no matter what I did no matter what I tried I could never be good enough and everything I ever did doesn't even matter. There's always someone better that can offer more. Pretty much anybody that doesn't look like a hungry hippo that just had fucking triplets has me beat. I fucking hate myself and Someone please give me one reason why I shouldn't......... I'll fucking wait