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20.05.2026 I need to vibe confidence and positive energies about myself and my interview. What do I need to remember or think about? — The Devil

The Devil Themes - the illusions or self-doubt that hold us back - magnetism - earthly desires

1. The chains around my neck that bind me to the deveil are an illusion (Banish imposter syndrome!)

If you look at the images on The Devil card, the chains are actually a bit loose! So that means... the people with the chains on could take them off at any time.

what to remember: the doubt, the low self-esteem thinking, anxiety, "imposter syndrome" is an illusion. I don't to be chained to the past. I can forge a brand-new future. I can lift those chains over my head and walk into that room completely free. I am qualified to be there! I got an interview! I am legitimate! I am worth something! Fumbling my words a little doesn't mean I'm any less than. I've been practising now a bit with the STAR method and other interview questions so I can feel a little at ease now!

2. Own my magnetism and personal power

The Devil represents intense charisma, magnetism, and raw unapologetic power. People are drawn to this energy.

what to remember: Be bold. Don't shrink myself for others comfort (this is the actual me!!!!). Own my achievements, skills, and unique personality! Channel a healthy 'devil' energy by knowing my worth, holding eye contact, and speaking with quiet authority (truly me!). Use my captivating presence, plz.

3. Embrace your ambition

Because The Devil is tied to the physical and material world (money, career, success) it is a reminder that it is entirely okay to want this job and the success that comes with it.

what to remember: Show them you are driven, that you want to succeed in the material world, and that you are ready to conquer the tasks they give you. Employers love candidates who are hungry and motivated!

4. Last but not least: Don't try to be perfect

The Devel is connected to our shadow side - the parts we try to hide (but luckily I'm okay about showing these sides - but better to wait until I have the job).

what to remember: The Devil reminds you that authenticity is much more magnetic than perfection. If they ask about a weakness or a past failure, own it confidently. All of these stepping stones are about building resilience.

My pre-interview mantra: "I am unchaining myself from self-doubt. I am a magnetic, capable, and driven professional. I embrace my ambition, I know my worth, and I fully own my power I bring into the room"

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09.05.2026 What does the horizon of my career look like rn? — The Moon

Themes:

The Moon is a card of atmosphere, intuition, and hidden factors.

Liminal space - or the "in-between" is what the Moon is signalling. I am in the in-between, leaving one phase and transitioning but have not arrived fully to the next

Hidden factors - there are things I don't know yet about my situation e.g. information I haven't received yet, or other variables that are operating that are not visible to me.

Stop and feel. What is your gut saying? What are your dreams or instincts telling you that your brain is trying to ignore?

Questions for reflection:

What is my intuition trying to tell me about my career that I've been ignoring because it doesn't 'make sense' on paper?

I truly feel, despite it taking so long, that this waiting period has been about me getting my confidence back and all the writing and preparing and now the interview practise prep is helping me to get my language and memories and confidence that I can do it back. I was not ready. I'm kind of still not ready in a way. But if I had to be ready next week I know I could be. It doesn't make sense on paper because it never has. But it makes sense in my head (that I'm competent and good at things I choose to do) and my gut is telling me that something is arriving for me. It is on the horizon! xoxo quick tarot: the card pulled: the moon the feeling: foggy, uncertain, intuitive the takeaway: i need to trust my gut and what needs to arise will arise, it's okay to not have the map right now

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16.04.2026 The Hermit — What energies am I bringing to my current work situation?

On traditional decks, the hermit card depicts an older looking person standing alone on top of a mountain, holding a lantern with a 6-pointed star inside of it, wearing a grey cloak, and with a staff in hand. "It's quiet. Still. No chaos. No Crowd. No performance". The Hermit is about solitude / introspection / self-examination / inner guidance / personal truth / slow clarity / inner authority. The Hermit is stepping away from the noise to think - intentional solitude for insight. The card asks, "What do I know when nobody else is talking?"

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What did I learn from that time in my life? (working)

What strengths did that version of me have?

What strengths do I have now that I didn’t then? Strengths I have now are that I feel a little more self-reliant - like I know I can cope with all kinds of things being thrown at me - like before I felt really attached to all my things and comforts and (which of course I still am to a degree, but I know that these can all be acquired and it's not the end of the world if what you have now is taken away from you). I've had to learn how to be more self-sustainable. I think before I suffered a lot when it came to feeling like I didn't belong, or not cared about or loved by whānau, when now that I have experienced them all firsthand I know they don't want and are unable to give me the relationships or care that I seek so it's no longer something I need to suffer about in the same way (don't get me wrong it's still sad and hurts sometimes, but it does not pain me like it used to, although that pain is a forgotten feeling in itself, I just know it contributed to significant hardship). I've also had to deal with a couple of unsettling and unsafe work and home/whānau situations in Te Puke so I feel I have learnt from those experiences, which sadly makes me far less trusting of people, but also perhaps I need to be a little more fake around people to keep the peace. Putting the mask on is not a bad thing if it makes me safer in the longer term. A strength I have now is that I'm more willing to say yes to things and putting myself out of my comfort zone - small and large things - i.e. meeting people at random places at the last minute, agreeing to move somewhere for work and not having any backups and just throwing myself in the deep end. I am sure these things would translate over to workplace strengths? Let's see what the AI says. 🔹I understand that masking does not mean dishonesty, it can mean professional composure (emotional regulation, protecting my inner world) 🔹I can survive uncertainty! I don't need everything mapped out! (adaptability, willingness to step into discomfort) 🔹I can survive disruption and loss does not end me (emotional resilience, stability under change, ability to function without constant validation) 🔹I am less likely to over-invest emotionally in workplace dynamics!! (less personalisation of other's behaviour, more emotional containment) 🔹I've learned not everyone is safe or sincere and not to assume good intent blindly (controlled presentation, strategic social engagement)

A possible message from the Hermit: You are not behind. You are in a period of re-grounding, quiet rebuilding, self-reclaiming. The Hermit phase is meant to prepare me. But at some point, The Hermit walks down the mountain and shares what he knows. Okay that's enough for now! I'm bring lots of energies, but most importantly, I need to take this time to Hermit and prepare (but actually prepare, though). Because I have to walk down the mountain and share what I know at some point.

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13.04.2026 The Emperor (reversed): What is one thing I can do to improve my life at the moment?

The Emperor card shows a man sitting on a throne, wearing a crown, and ruling with an ankh in one hand and an orb in the other. He wears robes with armor underneath them. You can see mountains in the background. The Emperor is associated with stability, leadership, authority, and masculine energy. Key themes of the Emperor include self-discipline and willpower, setting boundaries, leadership and taking charge, and creating order from chaos.

The card in reverse could mean: 🔹Am I gripping too tightly control? Maybe it's time to loosen my grip and trust the process rather than micromanaging every outcome 🔹Have I given away my power (and it's time to reclaim authority)?

************************************************************************** What's coming up for me:

I'm reflecting on this weird new one-week old relationship with George. I am doing stuff that is out of the ordinary, and my usual indicators re: vibe and personality check I am not adhering to. Why? Because it's easy (he has spare time, he will pay for stuff, he's keen to do unusual stuff which intrigues me and tells me he is open minded) and because of the connectedness I'm doing to give it a red-hot go. I also have a feeling that maybe he's a slow burn and takes time to come out of that mask-shell of his. I dunno! So pulling this card is a signal to me to stay open-minded in this process where I would usually be a lot more judgemental and closed from the outset if someone isn't able to immediately connect or communicate in a way that keeps me interested and curious. So I suppose doing this - being open minded to the process and how my body feels - is something that could improve my life right now either because (a) it will help me to make a new friendship / relationship and (b) it could teach me that perhaps I need to do things differently or could adapt my approach when forming new connections as maybe I'm discounting people before I've even given them a chance.

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Movie idea: it's the end of the world and you're stuck on the bus with the random bus users of Palmerston North

I was riding the bus the other day. And I was looking around the bus at all the different types of people coming on to the bus. So many of them felt stereotypical - your older-aged woman with permed thinning short hair, pulling along a cart, younger people in their late teens or 20s, crocs, unkempt hair and a bit messy looking, etc. Any who, I was reflecting on how it felt like a weird and unique space - being stuck in this large rectangular shaped metal box room with all these personalities, being carted around the city, intersecting each others lives for an instant. My imagination had a flash of what it would like if the world was ending, and I had to all of sudden work together, with these people, to try to survive. Anyway. I should have written down my thoughts at the time. I don't actually remember much. It was a fun thought.