What reason did it really have to hate Damien? Did it even hate him, or was it only embracing the echoes of Guzmaās feelings because it had no opinion of its own? Honestly, the more it watched, the more it only felt some disgusted form of pity towards the fighter. The energy both sides poured into this brawl...the rage and determination was the same, but the sources were so, so different.
Guzma fought for the family surrounding him.
Damien fought for no one but himself.
He really had no hope, in the end. Even if he somehow managed to win, he and his exhausted team would only be torn to pieces by the crowd--how could he claim to care for them so much when he threw them into this doom? It was all in his insane pursuit of respect, something he seemed to know nothing about.Ā
Even the alien beast overhead seemed to understand what he did not:Ā
nobody would look up to him if all he did was look down on them.
Though honestly, what choice did he have? There could be no mercy for him, not after everything he had done, so what could he really do but fight for his life? For his teamās lives. Guzma was hardly forgiving, and only tried to be when he had to, as far as it could tell, so what chance did anyone who had hurt him so deeply have?
Maybe that was why the beast felt so uncomfortable watching the two teams of PokĆ©mon tear into each other. Sure, it was here, it was allowed to be here, but...it didnāt fit. It was a menace that had been corralled, placated with the lure of battle, but it could not be like the six PokĆ©mon throwing themselves against the enemy with all their hearts. As strong as the tie to Guzmaās mind within its own became, it wasnāt the same.
They fought because they trusted and loved him.
It fought because it had nothing else.Ā
In the back of its mind, it could feel the prickling of hate, of long-smothered fear whenever Guzma looked at it. Maybe he left it be because he liked the idea of the extra power on his team at his call, or maybe because Branden had asked him to--though honestly, it was surprised the doctor hadnāt tried drugging and dissecting it yet for everything it had put his beloved through. He had more reason than anyone aside from Guzma himself to want to cause it harm, but so far he had been nothing but civil. It had seen enough of Guzmaās memories to know what could hide behind that civility, though, which only served to be more confusing. Was it because it wore Guzmaās face? Would Branden have acted by now if it remained in its beast form? It knew Guzma didnāt trust it, and that his PokĆ©mon would probably never trust it, but the Angel was still a mystery.Ā
And that was...frightening.
They couldnāt treat it as a PokĆ©mon, and it couldnāt really try to be one, because it just wasnāt. It wasnāt a PokĆ©mon, wasnāt a child, wasnāt a person. It was something in between, caught in a strange grey area that nature had never taken into account.
At least Damien knew what he was. He had no one and nothing because he chose to. Because he had the choice to take things for granted and push people away. He did this to himself, wasted his life on this madness. Son of a bitch.Ā
Maybe it had reason to hate him after all.