The Diary Of A Gay/Bi Loser

lets see things have been up and down in my life, right now its kind of middle ground. i have grown to love tumblr and my tumblre friends> so i will just say this, you only have one fucking life to live make the best of it enjoy it have fun with it. oh, by the way, what's your story?

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Wake Me Up - Portland Style (by Linsbrothers)

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this awesome keep it up bro you just made me happy

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FUCK OFF!!

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Nick: hey i fucked your mom last nite James: Why dont you fuck off

So how the fuck a we going to start this, what the fuck do i have to say? What? Let me tell you straight off if you’re expecting some kind of literary genius, fuck off. Close the book don’t read any further. This is just going to be me rambling of shit that crosses my mind.

Thing is this is a swan song. After i am done with this i would have said all i want to say, no lies, no fiction nothing but the truth, my truth. I am going to expose myself, get naked. What else can i possibly do, what else is fucking worth doing? In my mind nothing else matters.

I have this idea that if i put it all out there then i will finally be free. Free from all the mutherfucking shit we call life. I have always thought that death is so much more comforting, but the truth is it has nothing to do with death. It simply has to do with living and feeling free enough to say fuck you. Yea that’s it. My truth is i have no problem with this life, if i was living it the way i want to live it, but i don’t have the tools to say or do the things i want, no freedom, because we are all born slaves even if we realise it or not.

We are slaves to our ideas or dreams and most of all we are slave to those of others, the world, our parents, our loved ones. Sooner or later you feel the walls of those expectations closing in on us, trapped by its chains. Without being able to set ourselves free.

Freedom comes from many things. to me it is in the fact that i can say fuck off. God it must feel good to be able to say it, say it and mean it. Not having to say sorry for meaning it. Say it to the 9 to 5 jobs in which you a trapped because if you don’t fucking do it you won’t have any money to continue leaving in a fucked up system created so a few can grind you hopes and dreams into the ground. Oh how i long for the sweet words to roll off my tongue.

When did my life become this? Doing other peoples biddings because you have no fucking choice. Where did it all fucking go wrong. One place is my mother who never fucking loved me. Could you believe it took me 25 fucking years to realise and accept that she just doesn’t fucking love me? Listen all you silly fuckers out there, yea it’s all glorious when you a loved and yes it’s nice to have unconditional love from mom and dad. But when they don’t love you. You better realise and face that fucking shit fast because the time you spend trying to earn their fucking love is time spent slowly killing yourself.

Tonight i start liberating myself, i am going to a bar getting fucking drunk, if i am lucky i get to eat some pussy or suck some fucking dick. Then say fuck you to the person and just get on with it.

That’s all i fucking have left...

Well no not quite. I met someone, someone i am willing to give my life for, never thought an ugly fuck like me would have that but yea i found her. Thing is though i have no idea if she feels the same way. It’s to the point where i don’t even give a shit how i end up with her, don’t really care as long as i get to be with her.

So let’s see what else is left.

Say nothing right now really i guess if you have the balls or the cunt to see a guy put himself out there then keep fucking reading. If not you know what you can do.

This is to be my swan song, and i will keep singing it until i feel that i have put it all out there. Then i can walk away just as i was born naked and free. As for what is being left behind, the pain, the suffering, the self harm, the slow suicide, the ones who step on you grind you down to a pulp. You know what i have to say to that. You can just FUCK OFF!

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“Hit The Floor” explores the sexy world of professional basketball and the dancers who make the fans (and players) go wild. The Los Angeles Devils are the number one team in the league. When the arena lights go on, all of Hollywood comes out to support the million dollar players. But in this city these men share the fame, adrenalin, money, sex and power with their dancers, the Devil Girls. At the heart of “Hit The Floor” is Ahsha (Taylour Paige), a sheltered young woman who joins the team against the wishes of her mother Sloane (Kimberly Elise), who knows this treacherous, tempting world all too well having been a Devil Girl herself. Olivia (Charlotte Ross) is the shrewd squad manager, Jelena (Logan Browning) is the ruthless, star captain who won’t let anyone else share the spotlight and Pete Davenport (Dean Cain) is the former All-Star who’s come back to coach his old team only to have to contend with the girls both stealing the spotlight and distracting his players. All the while, the mystery surrounding the disappearance of missing Devil Girls dancer Mia threatens to blow the roof off the entire L.A. Devils organization.

Status: Airing Season 1 Series Premiere: May 27, 2013 Classification: Scripted Genre: Drama | Lifestyle | Sports | Talent Network: VH1 (USA) Airs: Mondays at 09:00 pm Runtime: 60 Minutes

Taylour Paige………………….as Ahsha Hayes Kimberly Elise…………………as Sloane Hayes Dean Cain………………………as Pete Davenport Charlotte Ross…………………as Olivia Vincent Logan Browning……………….as Jelena Howard Katherine Bailess……………..as Kyle Hart Valery Ortiz…………………….as Raquel Saldana McKinley Freeman…………….as Derek Roman Jonathan McDaniel…………….as German Vega Robert Christopher Riley…….as Terrence Wall Don Stark……………………….as Oscar Kincade

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this fucking movie

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Education should be more like this. Instead of teaching us formulas and processes that we’ll never even think about when we leave school, how about give us lessons about how to have a healthy self image, how to find value and worth in everyone and everything, how to prepare and understand how to deal with mortgages and bills. Teach us that it’s okay to be different, that it’s okay to prefer your own sex than the opposite, or that it’s okay that to be friends with the boy in the playground with the dark skin. Teach us how to follow our dreams instead of drilling the idea into our minds that our grades determine our future. Teach the next generation to love and look after the planet that they live in and the creatures within it so they can fix up the mistakes that we’ve inherited from you. Because while it’s important for us to learn the facts and the figures, I’m pretty certain that if you’d taught us all of the above, the world would be a much lovelier place. 

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Freaks and Geeks Episode 3 “Tricks and Treats”

Lindsay agrees to stay home and hand out candy with her mom on Halloween night. However, when she gets an invite to go cruise around town with Nick, Daniel, and Kim, she ditches her mom to hang out with them. Sam, Bill, Neal, and Harris go trick or treating. Lindsay and the gang go on a vandalism spree that starts with smashing pumpkins and ends abruptly after Lindsay accidentally pelts Sam with an egg

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Hemlock Grove

In the shadows of a rusted Pennsylvania steel town, the mangled body of a teenage girl is discovered. As they hunt for a monster among them, rumors mount and many of the eccentric residents become suspects, from the newly arrived gypsy family to the wealthy Godfrey clan. In the twisted world of Hemlock Grove, everyone hides a dark secret. Based on the book by Brian McGreevy Executive produced by acclaimed horror master Eli Roth (“Hostel”) One reviewer likens it to, “The X-Files meets American Horror Story meets Twin Peaks”.

Famke Janssen………….as Olivia Godfrey Bill Skarsgerd……………as Roman Godfrey Landon Liboiron………….as Peter Rumancek Penelope Mitchell………..as Letha Godfrey Lili Taylor………………….as Lynda Rumancek Dougray Scott……………as Dr. Norman Godfrey Aaron Douglas……………as Sheriff Sworn Tiio Horn…………………..as Destina Rumancek Kandyse McClure………..as Dr. Chausser Amazon Eve………………as Shelley Godfrey Freya Tingley…………….as Christina Wendall Ron Mustafaa…………….as Tom Mayer Don Francks………………as Nicolae Rumancek Eliana Jones………………as Alexa Sworn

Watch all 13 episodes of Netflix Original Series “Hemlock Grove” beginning April 19, only on Netflix. The Monster Is Within

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enjoy episode 2 of FREAKS AND GEEKS.

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Charmed season 1 episode 1 Something Wicca This Way Comes

The three Halliwell sisters discover that they are descendents of a line of female witches. Each has a special ability (stopping time, moving objects, seeing the future), and they can also combine their abilities into the “Power of Three” to fight demons, warlocks, and other evils.

The Halliwell sisters are reunited in the grand Victorian home of their childhood. Phoebe discovers The Book of Shadows in the attic and, when she reads the spell on the first page, their powers are activated. The sisters must try to keep their powers secret, while Prue’s ex-boyfriend, Inspector Andy Trudeau, is investigating a serial killer whose victims are all witches. Piper narrowly escapes death when she discovers that her boyfriend Jeremy, an evil warlock, is the killer. When the sisters try their first spell, Jeremy is vanquished, and they discover the Power of Three.

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re blog and pass the love to all the fans and to those who have never seen it..

I will never get tiered of this, what about you?

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perfect lighting

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Frida Kahlo

i thought the actress who played her was beautiful but this woman is divine.

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Nobody can stop the enlightenment!

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Freaks and Geeks Episode 1 “Pilot”

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i have no rights to this show, in fact found it on you tube.

Anyway awesome show, enjoy

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my friend andy james alton from st louis as an extra on smash. love it

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combo. scot pilgrim and avatar

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give me a good party some hot chicks to tell them no and a wee bit of alcohol. trust me they will become bi.