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this will be my last post on sidona!
sid was a big part of me growing into adulthood. i started them when i was maybe 15? and i’m going to be 22 this year
sid was fun. i made a lot of very close friends through their blog and drew a whole ton of art. i learned a lot about writing and interacting with others
sid was also a goddamn disaster! i did a lot of fucked up shit. i believed loretto existed and allowed sylv (i think that was his name? he made loretto up, played a slick and a gpi) to shit on my character and their relationships. i wrote threads and drew art of noncon. i grew up in an environment where my peers were all older and all looked away while i did smut threads as a minor
i wrote sidona poorly. they were absolutely, more than anything, a proxy for myself and the bad decisions i made. i chased away a lot of really cool people and set a shitty example, especially for RPers younger than me. i wasn’t responsible early enough
sid is kind of a microcosm of growing up and finding yourself in the internet age, especially through roleplay. i would warn anyone reading to not get too personally involved in it. when you too strongly identify with characters other people have made, you separate and lose facets of yourself. you reduce yourself to other people’s perception of you. all your confusion and personal growth is splayed out in semipermanent posts and drawings for anyone to see. it’s humiliating and though i’m leaving sid’s blog up, i wouldnt recommend broadcasting your angst to thousands of strangers
if anyone checks in and still wants to talk to me, bell, my email and discord are [email protected]. i want to think i’m a more considerate person now. i have memory issues and might not recognize you or the characters you played at first so be patient with me ! but i would love to talk to yall as myself and not sid
my personal blog is @bellnall and my art blog is @bellnallart ! i’m using sid and their home planet in a little mushroom comic, and i’m currently doing drawloween. id like to see yall there!










