THE EVOLVED.

Always in the spotlight, yet hiding in the dark.

[thefacecrowd]

CHAPTER XVIII: The Clan

Being back home has been interesting. Being with my clan has brought back emotions that I buried when I moved to the city. In the city I felt nothing but happiness. Music, friends, amazing hunt. At home my eldest brother is focused on training me to be a stronger, better evo. It's been difficult but I can feel my power enhancing. And people from my past can see it too. People I went to high school with that completely ignored me or even worse, made fun of me. Now I can see them fall at my feet. They see me transformed but they don't quite know how much. My past with Greg is now buried as well. In fact, he's quite obnoxious now. He's become someone I don't recognize. I guess when an evo is in a human relationship, he becomes human. I haven't seen or spoken to him in a while but I can tell. He's no evo anymore. There hardly any out here. It's awful, the hunt here too is limited. I'm not finding anyone with a tasty spirit I know that sounds odd but a lot of people here are diluted. Although I train with my clan and do feel slightly stronger, I also weaken because I'm not able to feed as well. I'm definitely a city kind of evo.

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An Evo Short

A couple years ago I met this evo. I don't talk about him very much because of how much I loved him. It was before Greg, before I knew anything about evos. When I thought I was nothing this man, Christian made me feel strong. Honestly, he might have even kick started my evo cycle. He was the epitome of perfection to me. Even more so than Greg. And he shattered my heart yesterday. Well, he had pretty much shattered it 2 years ago when he randomly stopped talking to me and ignored me but yesterday hurt so bad that it surpassed the initial blow. The women that he cut me off for is now his fiancé. He proposed to her in the spot where I fell in love with him. He took her the first place I ever took him. Even though it kills me that he will never be mine...the predator in me has the complete satisfaction of knowing that she got my sloppy seconds. I know that he loved that moment with me so much that he had to replicate it with her. I'll always love him, but I need to really let him go now. It's really time to move on.

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CHAPTER XVII: Still Evolving

I've thought about it, and in a way I'm still evolving. I keep learning new things everyday. The main thing I've learned in this passed year that no matter if your evo or human, we all want to be happy. The pursuit of happiness if the ultimate goal for any being and I'm definitely learning that. I have decided to return to my clans home area. A suburb of a town almost no ones even heard of. We lay quiet feasting here. Or at least they do. Now I guess it's my turn to join them. No matter what I am, music is everything to me and I must conquer it. I don't know what it is that captures me and fascinated me. But it runs my every being. Things will be different sure, but they're bound to get better. Plus, new city means to hunting grounds ;]

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Chapter XVI: Never Satisfied

I finally fed last night but I'm still hungry. When I feed off of someone's soul it's just so beautiful. They don't know it but I see them. I feel them. Every part of them. They think it's just good kissing but they have no idea I'm feasting off of the core of ho they are; their soul. Truth is, another Evo, outside my clan, taught me how to feed. I was in my cycle then and didn't put the pieces together til a few moments ago. When I was in my Evo cycle, before I really understood any of this, I fell in love with a man. A man who I'm now realizing had to have been evo. He knew I was in cycle but probably couldn't wait for my trigger. He was an impatient one. But he taught me many things, including how to harness someones soul. 

He's gone now and won't come back so none of that is really important. What is, is my need to obtain a steady meal. I need a victim who I can call upon whenever I'm hungry and can rely on. Someone who's not crazy like that last evo wannabe I've been trying to use. I think I found one. My latest victim is very mellow and sweet. I can very much take advantage of him which I did. I wanted more but I had to stop myself. If you plan on keeping a victim, you have to pace yourself when you first start to feed cuz if you take too much the first time, they won't come back. They don't know why but I guess they just somehow subconsciously know that we're actually feeding on them. 

Marshall, my latest catch, was actually quite satisfying. Not like the beautiful ma(e)n I had for my birthday, but he was his own kind of gorgeous. And with plump, strong lips. He was definitely a lot of fun...but why am I still not satisfied? 

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Chapter XV: Perfection

"'Them'. You say it like your not human" my producer said. I wanted to reply, "I'm not perfect, but I'm not human either". I've actually started to remember more of my human life. It feels like forever ago. I was so unable to control my emotions and I let people walk all over me. Never again. I've started working on my album finally and with my human producer, it's going to be amazing. A lot has been going on. I attempted to take Iris hunting again but it failed. The hunting ground we picked was less than satisfying and we've both been drained from our human lives. I need to feed though and soon. I have the appetite of a lion. Hopefully I get a fill today. I'm currently in the process of setting up my next victim. ;] but, ugh. Til then I'm weak and useless. I keep trying to tell Iris is subtle ways that she's not like everyone else. I think she's starting to get that. I wonder if her family is her clan or if she's on her own for this. Or what I like to call an isolated evo. I was born into a clan of the evolved where we all will eventually fall into the evolved cycle and have a trigger that finally evolves us. My clan is also descended from royalty but we were singled out and in danger on our homeland so we had to come to America where this kinda stuff isn't as believable. No one would ever target us here. Of course this all happened before I knew anything about the evolved. Before I was even born. An Isolated Evo is someone who just has the spiritual and intellectual maturity to fall into the cycle and from there life provides a trigger and boom, an evo is born. But usually they have no idea why they're so different. They can be a danger to themselves. Most of the greatest, most talented, and intelligent people are isolated evos. Einstein, Mozart...the evo has been lurking for sometime. Now my clan starts to tell me the tale of the evo revolution. A time when all evos find each other and band together to drive out the humans and bring peace amongst the rest of us who evolved. I always thought that is would be natural selection but when I questioned it, my elder informed me that natural selection is allowing the less evolved to become popular seeing as how they keep making bad decisions and procreating. It's actually wiping some evos out. A world without idiots. Would that just be perfection?

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Chapter XIV: Sacrifice

This can be a scary subject for any human but the evolved know the mutual order of importance in life. Meaning, we we all have an instinct on what’s worth sacrificing and do it willingly.

My best friend in the human world, Iris, is an the evo cycle. She’s evolving and it’s beautiful to see. What’s even more delicate is how I’m helping her. This includes making sure she gets her feedings. I took her on our first hunt and I sacrificed my one of my meals so she could get a feed. I couldn’t complain though, it was my third meal of the night so I was already more than satisfied. ;] either way! feeding on his energy was disgusting. I almost couldn’t absorb it. And I feel as if it dirtied my spirit for a while. Similar to eating healthy for months and having that one bad mcdonalds meal. Now I know what bad victims taste like. Hers wasn’t much better. I’m hoping for a more successful hunt next time :/

Now that I’m over Greg, I’ve been feeding like crazy. New victims, old victims. That’s why you never wanna drain them right away. As I continue my journey in LA, I make progress everyday with my Music, I’m starting to be able to use my evo power better in attracting people to my music and now I’m working on my first album. I’m finding Gods purpose for putting me here. Everything has a higher purpose. It is a shame the evo wannabes are so attractive most of the time. They’re half way there except for the arrogance and complete misinterpretation of spirituality. Once again, it’s just a shame. I’ve been feeling the need to find more of the evolved. It’s so rare these days. It’s only a matter of time before natural selection takes place but til then, I still have so many questions and I fear people in my clan can’t answer. My con is a little screwy right now. When evos crash, we hit the fucking floor with force. My bother, Nicolas, has fallen and it weakens our clan. My eldest sibling, my brother Firmanto, tries to help keep the clan close but it’s difficult. Sometimes I feel as if I don’t even belong in a clan but cane is be without them? Or have they been an essential part of my journey without my realizing?

[thefacecrowd]

Chapter XIII: Soulmates?

I may be evo but that doesn’t mean I don’t mess up. The only one who doesn’t is God honestly. Greg isn’t who I thought he is. I’m not exactly sure if he’s evo or not. He’s done some messed up shit but he can still be evo. A jerk evo, but nonetheless he understands life and spirituality unlike humans. He just doesn’t know how to make the right decisions. But then again, who am I to judge whether his decisions are right or not. I fell for my first evo, but by evo nature, he won’t be the last person I follow for.

What’s a soulmate anyway? The one person were destined to fall in love with. Or is it just someone were meant to meet and interact with but that doesn’t mean we have to stay in love with the same person for the rest of your life. Or does it? Maybe some people are meant for it while the rest of us are condemned to loneliness. Just take the souls of others, draining their life force. I don’t know.

[thefacecrowd]

Chapter XII: Honesty.

He said he loves how honest I am. How honest should I be with him? Do I tell him he's not like other people? I think he kind of knows it but just hasn't fathomed the concept like I have. I have a whole clan behind me who continue to help me live as an evo amongst the human population and he has no one. He said he hasn't felt so relaxed in such a long time and that he likes me too. I get so shy and scared around him. It's so weird because I'm not like that with any one. Any human at least but Greg is not human. So we kissed and he sent shivers down my spine as he ran his fingers across my thigh and down my leg. I looked in his, at the time, grey eyes and he looks in mine. He told me my eyes were beautiful and I told him his were better. We shared such a magical night but soon became tired from our long worked days. So how did this happen?

I haven't seen Greg in about a month, if not more. But I kept being persistant. People told me to stop and it was all a game but I couldn't. There aren't many Evos and I needed this one. I couldn't tell others that though. They didn't understand. But no one gets me like he does. So after not hearing from Dimitri I called Greg last night, he came over to hang out and he realized out connection. But he's changed. I think his beginning phase is over and he's harnessing his Evo power. He's coming into himself and it's magnificent. Before when he first evolved he was angrier, more intense. Which wasn't an awful thing since he wore it so well. But he wasn't happy. Now he's accepted what's happened and is learning.  He a lot more at peace now. He said we'll take things slow and honestly, I like slow. 

[thefacecrowd]

Chapter XI: Knowing the Difference.

There is a new victim I've been favoring. He's someone I've hooked very easily but his essence is one of the better once. Tastier. I very much enjoy feeding off of him as I have several times and may be growing an attachment to him. Demitri is not from America. He's from Russia. That's what I like about him. American essence just isn't as good as foreign ones. Still, it's nothing compared to Greg. The evo connection there is incomparable to any of these humans. But humans like to label relationships. Something I'm not completely opposed to. If stay committed to this human any interest of my evo romance must should vanish. But I don't know if I'm ready for that.

The complete truth is I still see him as a meal. Even thought he's treated me sweeter than any other male, I just see a fix. I want to give it more time. I need to. I have so many accomplishments, I've excelled above the humans and get what I want within reason. Now, I'm just alone. I'm a lonely shark living alone in a sea, looking for others like myself, trying to blend in so the others don't know I'm different. 

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Chapter X: Forever, not Maybe.

It's been a while and it's mainly because I've been feeling more human than ever recently. Caught up in 2 jobs and trying to create art is pretty difficult. The hardest part? Doing it alone. I had accepted my Evo need to consume souls and be lustful but recently at a party one of my human victims wanted more than just one night of fun passion. I didn't mean for any of it to go beyond my feeding but then he started to make cute romantic gestured that definitely caught my interest. He's definitely human as I can tell he's not connected to his spiritual side whatsoever. He's very human is his belief of here and now. However since I've witnessed Evo/human relationships work I thought to give him a chance. He took me out on a romantic date. It was quite unexpected. He questioned my innocence right away. Also unexpected. But in the end of out kissing and cuddling he seems to be very confusing. It's weird because he's one of those types who might think they're evo but I don't mind him as much he can come off arrogant to most humans but his confidence is something I admire. It's clearly not going to work with him though. This isn't the companion I'm looking for. However, I've made great progress with Mathew who also doesn't seem to have clue but is fun to be around. I've found myself enjoying his company and views on the world. It hasn't been anything romantic and his essence smells so sweet sometimes that I wish I could feed on it but like a freshly made meal sitting in front of you, sometimes it's nice to just sit back and smell the goodness. I haven't discovered yet why I need to feed on human essence and souls to sustain. I just know without it I feel like I lose myself to animal instincts and I grow weak. Actually, I probably need to feed soon seeing as how I'm not doing so well with feeding from this recent victim multiple times. Maybe his essence just wasn't my taste. It there even a taste on essence? I guess I need to keep victimizing to find out.

[thefacecrowd]

Chapter IX: Victimizing

The thing about my victims is, they're not really victims at all. They want it just as bad as I do. They want the soul sucked out of them. Evos have this thing that naturally attracts human to us. Plus it helps that were all attractive. But I've decided to stop. I can't keep leaving trails behind of nameless victims. I can't keep taking their light. So I'm trying this online dating thing due to my lack of time because of work. I went on a date last night and he wanted me so bad. He even tried insulting me. Ha, now that I think about it, he's one of those types that I despise. The ones that think they're evo but not. I feel sorry for him. He lives all alone in his penthouse darkened by his own shadow. I wonder where life will take him. This dating thing, I just don't really know if it's really me. 

And I still can't get over my connection with Greg. I was sure he felt it but I was wrong. He's running right back into the arms of his human. Or maybe she's not human? Could she have been in her cycle but now evolved? I don't know but either way I'm not worried about it anymore. I need to just keep going and start doing the things I say I'm gonna do. 

As for victimizing? A couple souls might be taken in the process. 

[thefacecrowd]

Chapter VIII: Moving On Now

With the busy I'm living, I don't have time for bullshit. I can't keep waiting for greg and this thing that might not ever happen. So how does someone like me meet people when I work everyday? Online dating! Yes, Online dating. Okay, so it's not the ideal way to meet a guy but its how I'm trying. If something happens naturally than great but meanwhile I figure this is a good way to have fun and meet some potential victims. But I guess deep down, evo or not everyone wants a companion. You can only have so much fun on your own before you start to get really lonely. Everyone needs someone. I'm just looking for mine.

So maybe age is the thing. I have an old soul and these guys my age, clearly aren't doing it for me. I've been aching for older men recently and I think I finally reeled one in, the perfect one. Though he's a whole decade older than I am we share a lot of common interests and I believe we are very attracted to each other. The connection seems to be flowing so I'm going to pursue this and hope it turns into something good. Of course, the connection isn't as strong as it is with Greg but I feel as if I have to let him go and if he comes back later, then it'll be for the best. Meanwhile I think I could definitely make something with this new guy, Matthew, work. 

[thefacecrowd]

Chapter VII: Withdraws

The only times I've seen Greg have been brief moments I stop by his work. He works at a ganja shop near my place so I actually have a reason to go. Yes, I may be evolved but being an evo high is like being high on top of being high: amazing. Greg knows. My heart and soul has ached for his company. And my lips long to meet his. But, he shows no sign of interest anymore. We talked about how right now he shouldn't be thinking about a relationship. I just hope he feels the static between us as I do. I hope I'm not imagining it. I don't know. His communication skills have always been awful. I think about being more assertive but I don't want to smother him. I'm not sure of things anymore. Trying to obtain an evo mate is so much harder than charming the humans. 

Which is why I'm sad to say that tonight I have taken another victim. This human captures my heart a little by being so sweet and seemingly genuine. He's from my improv friends who I also consider family. Right now, I'm looking for companionship as I'm facing many obstacles alone and if someone really wants to be there for me if is taking a chance to at least try, why deny it? I was proud to say Greg was the last man I kissed but now he's not. Now the last guy I've kissed was Nathan. Honestly though, I want Greg to be my next. I miss him so much it hurts. It sucks feeling this way but I guess it's fuel to my fire. 

Greg said something that touched me though. I was the last girl he's kissed in months. It touched my heart especially since I've kissed a couple other since him. I kind of realized my inner evo is hungry with all these victims. But now every part of me just wants Greg. Nathan is amazing but he's not an evo. I can't connect with him as well and as bitchy as it is, his looks are average which makes me not want to waste my time but we shall see how this turns out. 

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An Evo Short

My emotions have completely consumed me now. I feel more human than I have in a while and I don't know if that's a good thing. I feel as if Greg might be ignoring me but then again he's always been so bad at replying. I will surpass these human tendencies and call him later. I've decided that I can't not know what he's thinking any longer than today's. I feel I could go crazy. My heart beats at hundred miles an hour every time I get a text then it stops dead in its tracks when I see its not from him. I haven't missed someone like this in such a long time but I know I'm just aching to get my heart broken. Or feel loved...feel something. I used to think that it was other girls who didn't understand me and how I am but I'm not realizing its everyone. People just don't understand me. It's like I'm on another frequency from humans. Which makes sense I guess but its that loneliest feeling in the world. Why can't anyone love me?

[thefacecrowd]

Chapter VI: Evo Emotions

One night of drunken braveness could ruin it all? Or maybe I'm being paranoid. I started to see Greg more. I started missing him every time I left. I really felt connected and as if everything were mutual. So would I really pass up an opportunity to go after this guy who's not only an evo, but is a real man? Especially after I found out he released his human girlfriend. Actually, I found out a lot about him. Even how he evolved. I wanted to know more. He described his experience at a vision when he was meditating. He said it was so eye opening which of course, evolving is. Evo connections are so strong. I could hardly contain myself. Then came the unexpected party last night at his place. We both got drunk and high and I made my move. I couldn't handle being so close without touching him. Then we took it to the bedroom. Of course being me, I couldn't see the deal but it was awesome. It didn't feel like my normal human victims. The was a strong want and desire...need. It was hot and there was urgency as our tongues danced. I felt victimized. He totally has me and I'm completely infatuated. However, if my evo senses are right, which they usually are, he's regretting that night. He was so torn about his human. She must have been something special to have him caught up the way he was. In a way, maybe I did take advantage of him. Even if he is an evo now. All I know is now I feel imbalanced with my emotions and unable to concentrate on anything. When I sought for advise from my clan and even my best friend in her evo cycle and they all tell me things I don't want to hear. "Don't take it seriously, don't over think it" but that's not possible for an over emotional evo like me. The anticipation kills me as I sit, wait, and wonder what's in that evo's beautiful mind?

[thefacecrowd]

Chapter V: Bewitched

His eyes sparkled in the moonlight. They were my favorite shade of green and grey swimming in pools of wisdom and wonder. Greg was so handsome and strong. At that moment with his hand on my lower back and his other softly caressing my face I felt as if the world had faded away. And after his lips met mine, the world did fade away, wait what? Then all I saw was black all around us and him smiling. He slowly starts to fade away and I helplessly tried to grab on to whatever I could hold but it was too late. He was gone and I left in the black. Then I woke up in a sweat laying only my stomach with my left are sprawled out and my head laying on it. Ow my arm was aching. I opened my eyes to a foggy light fairly coming in through my large window of my fifth story apartment. My annoyance of a human roommate doing dishes. Damn it was a dream. Of course. Speaking of my roommate, she came home last night on the phone and I patiently waited for her to get off so I could greet her but she silently went to sleep with me eve knowing. Who comes home to a studio apartment and doesn't greet their roommate? Humans lol. My thoughts have been on Greg non stop. I get so envious of the human girl he's with and think about ways I could have kept him last year when I had him. He's completely bewitched in the sense that he's all I think about. It hard to carry on with my day. For instance, yesterday he texted me in the morning and all day I was obsessed with looking down at my phone throughout my seven hour work shift. He finally got to talking about business and when I thought we were through, me messages me an emoticon of a dolphin? I tried to playfully go along be his messages ceased. Maybe I was too forward when I send him a fish caught on a fishing rod. I didn't mean I had reeled him....or did I? Anyways, working in Hollywood is always interesting. As an evo, I make eye contact with most of my customers. It's how I use my manipulation ability. Once I gain eye contact with a human, the magic happens. I wanted to victimize one of my coworkers but I'm trying ton hard to keep away. He's a hot youngling for one at only the ripe age of 17. Mmm. As delicious as it sounds I couldn't take advantage of a kid, even if he is technically only three years younger. Since I'm evolved, I'm wise beyond my years so to me, he a youngling. Plus the fact that he's a coworker could complicate things. I've been with coworkers and it gets messy.

[thefacecrowd]

Chapter IV: The Aftermath.

Oh, the aftermath of falling in like. Not as bad as falling in love but still heart wrenching. Especially when your an empath evo like I am. At yesterday's meeting I was thoroughly distracted just as I'd predicted. His strong arm were crossed sitting across from me and all I could think about were those times we dated. Greg is as classy as they get these days while still having his contemporary style. He was the first guy I dated who opened the car door for me and offered to pay for everything. Our first kiss was on my rooftop. I remember him slowly stepping closer to me and my world crumbling at my feet and leaned into me and kissed me as if he's wanted me for so long. His lips were soft against mine yet he had a sense of urgency and want. This wasn't exactly appropriate to think about during a business meeting right? 

I had decided to have a softer natural look for this meeting. I wore a lacy white dress with an wide elastic black belt that crossed the upper part of my stomach. I added a grey blazer with some hints of color from my pink wedged heels and chunky bracelet, even I had to admit I looked stunning on such a beautiful sunny afternoon. People noticed as I made my way over to the meeting place. Just a local Starbucks. 

One thing I love about being an empath is that I can tell how people are feeling, towards me especially. This come in handy when I flirt. I usually get the victims I want. I'll explain more on that later. But when I walked into that Starbucks, Greg was stunned by my looks. That's part of what made the meeting hard. I would catch Greg stealing glances at me or my gloriously shaped calves that looked immaculate in my tall heels. He wants me and I know it, but he still has his girlfriend. Has he fallen for a victim? Or is he afraid to admit his true feelings since it seemingly didn't work out the first time?

So more on the victim thing. Evos tend to have very strong sexual desires. I'm actually sort of an oddball evo since I'm a virgin. Most people don't believe me but it's probably in my best interest that they don't. Evos are often desired by many humans and if people actually believe my virgin state, that may deepen their longing. So the answer to taming sexual desires by most evos is to pick humans to satisfy sexual desires. The only thing is, we sort of drain them spiritually. Because we are so powerful energy wise, we can suck the energy we want from humans. Plus, if all evos think the same way I do, they would never really want to commit to human. But yet find myself in clan where my eldest brother, the leader is committed to a painfully unaware hum and my mother still gets her heart shatter by my father who is human. Hell no I don't want that. But Greg does?

Maybe she's not a human. I've only met her once and I was in my cycle so I wouldn't have been able to tell if she's an evo or not. She's definitely gorgeous with her model looks but that doesn't mean she's evolved like I am. One thing she doesn't have on me is my charm and my ability to manipulate people. Even my clan has to admit that I'm so powerful for such a young evo. My power has only been demonstrated on humans to give me little things I want. For instance, I can ace job interviews like no ones business. If I want it, it's usually mine. My last victim forked out a exclusive set out of an expensive make up line. The thing is, I've never tried my charm on another evo. 

So until, I have more answers, as far as my understanding I will be working closely with greg and our partnering companies so I'm just going charm my ass off. I don't think I'll be needing to do too much since the powerful surge of connecting energy is already between us. I know he has to see it. I remember of our last meeting. We talked in depth about he signals our minds set out and I was briefly explaining what I thought of it when I found him cheerfully laughing at my comments. Embarrassed (yes, I can still get flushed), I remarked, "Don't laugh at me! Why are you laughing at me?". He replied in such a tender and caring way, "I'm not laughing at you. I'm just happy to be here." I melted at the time and still melt now.

I realize it seems quite selfish of my to after someone else's man but she human and thus, I don't care. She's end up breaking his heart anyway. Evos rarely care about human feelings unless they grow attached to their victims. I'm a little different since I'm an empath but since evolving I learned one definite thing. In a world full of humans, the world will always be selfish. Evos can connect peacefully and without confrontation but humans just always want more. I would usually back off but I realized that if you want anything in this life, you have to fight for it or a human will snatch it from you before your eyes. Plus to be fair, he was mine in the first place.