i am starting to feel abnormal. i fear i don’t know how to be normal about anything. i know part of this is because i battle severe mental illnesses, but it doesn’t take away from the fact—i am not having a normal human experience. everything i feel feels contrary to what i should. everything that wells up inside me feels like a machine on autopilot. i am feeling so…many…things. none of which i have the ability to control.
















