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The land of Goddesses & Monsters in Neptune in the 1st house -

written by cherry

Neptune in the 1st people have an unseen battle being carried out just below the surface. Where her spirit meets body, endless conflict between light and darkness and darkness and light takes place all day and night. She hears the call to surrender to the sleepy serene of midnight for eternity while being drawn to a glowing echo. Sometimes her spirit is unsure where to go and it creates a lability of her existence that makes it all seem too real or surreal. She often gives up trying to tell whatever could come next. Everything seems a certainty in this mythic choreography. She often gives up trying to tell whatever could come next. Everything seems a certainty in this mythic choreography.

While Neptune in the 1st people are notorious for evoking dreamy, faraway, and surreal impressions, her life within is anything but a dream. The Neptune in the 1st visions are direct divinations from the divine flame. Her imagination and spellbound reverie becomes a nation in itself where she expends an astral adrenaline in exchange for metaphysical energy. When she closes her eyes, sets her sights on the conquest and chases the fantasy, she can sense the fire burning the dream into her real life as she catches it in her hands.

This excessive expenditure of physical energy in immaterial realms can result in a tiredness that she can’t seem to sleep off. Neptune in this position can design vivid, peculiar and poignant, and trilogy-like dream episodes that may result in her questioning if certain events occurred while she was awake or slept. There may be frequent unsettling themes involving combat, violence, cruelty, bloodshed, and fire, and sometimes with a seeming impaired ability to run, freely move, or escape. In some extreme cases, the dreaming is excessive and even involves repetitive or demanding physical labour. Even when the individual has forgotten her dream or believes she slept the whole night through, the side-effects of her secret life become evident throughout the day. She may experience a vague or heavy daytime fatigue, a listlessness that cannot be explained, a weariness when she gets home that can make socialising at times seem a marathon effort.

The condition of Neptune in the 1st house may produce adrenal-like episodes in the individual involving or similar to feverish spikes of temperature, emotional reactivity, excitement, inspiration, impulsive desire, and anxious anticipation that end with the sense of the blood is being drained out of her. Frequent and chronic headaches or migraines with intense auric experiences at the onset, often with sleep-deprivation being major causation may be another Neptune in the 1st side-effect. She may also possess veins notorious for swimming away whenever she needs blood drawn, turning even the most simple venipuncture or blood test attempt into a routine ordeal - for both the clinician and the individual.

The First House is the astrological house of self-expression, presentation, and exhibition. Neptune casts a great vision onto the character she appears to be and the impression she wants to create in others. As Neptune is a planetary muse, the individual may enjoy the masquerade of make-up and experimenting with various palettes, styles, cosmetics, costumes and watching the character in the doll that comes to life.

The First House also belongs to Aries, and Neptune’s fog of redemption can be next impossible to resist and will be closer defined depending on the sign and aspects made to Neptune. It may produce an inclination for harsh Aries and Mars tainted regimes, possibly involving strict physical exertion and activity, punishment and restriction, even the bloody carnage, agony, excruciating recovery, and faded scarring of cosmetic surgery to attain and maintain the vision. This brutality in her nature may be quite surprising and seemingly at odds with her appearance - especially one of Neptunian aesthetic, glamour, and grace. It can be all-out blood, sweat, and wet mascara tears behind these picturesque scenes.

This is why the mirror is a symbol that follows Neptune in the 1st around life if she can see it or she doesn’t. It’s the altar where she catches a glimpse of the inner Priestess as particles move from the light to her eyes for the enchanting illusive moment. The mirror can cast a reflection that blurs and changes before her eyes. Her transfixed gaze are all that remain unchanged as her face swirls like mixed watercolour into mirages, memories, mermaid ancestors, and sometimes a small child.

The mirror can also be a site of self-confrontation, declaring torment, heartache, and attempts to remember who she is. It can be where she cries out and for the girl staring back in a private ritual of saving herself.

In some scenarios, extreme rage and self-contempt can distort the image into a girl that she wants to hurt or even destroy, that she could shatter this mirror and see the broken pieces of herself everywhere.

The compass beneath all of this is the spiritual task of Neptune in the 1st in action, felt most evidently through the ill-defined identity that can trouble her throughout life. That evasive ‘tangible’ identity she saw others grow into and thought she would eventually too. That is not the Way for Neptune in the 1st. The archetypal Neptune is The Mystic, The Muse, The Magician, The Mermaid and The Matriarchal Holy Trinity, who all and more go through the process of ‘waking up’ in her first house as they move away from the comforts and familiarity of dewy darkness and into the light. Her story is the rebirth of a new Priestess in the spring- the Goddess who breaks each dawn, a new initiate, a new leader to guide us toward the next vibration, astral territory, and undiscovered dimension. A new teacher of scholars, a new visionary to lead the dreaming. From victim to victory, the only possible ending of this story.

Much awaited, ordained, celebrated,but most of all, content, at ease, with who she is.

Light at last,

without a shadow of a self-doubt

🍒Cherry art by Kurtis Rykovich

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Birthday Mars-Pluto aspects ~ Pandora’s Blood-Pact

~ written by #astrolocherry Mars conjunct Pluto, Mars sextile Pluto, Mars square Pluto, Mars trine Pluto, Mars opposite Pluto

The individual born with a Mars-Pluto aspect is lead by a call that nobody else can hear. From the underworld, the Gods play their ammon’s horn trumpet for her ears, and at times it would surely sound like the hauntings from the hell they come from. Mars and Pluto will often condition a survival instinct and sense of streetwise that seems older than its time, often accompanying fierce loyalty, a death before dishonour, a ride or die type.

There is a God’s will in this unconscious that can take on a ‘will’ or ‘quasi-will’ of its own, leading the individual into typically unfathomable scenarios and behaviours that may feel somewhat commanded or controlled by an outside force or fate. The unconscious realm with Mars and Pluto is a flaming cauldron that frequently overflows into consciousness, demanding to be seen and vindicated. The waters that stir deep within cannot be settled, silenced, or forgotten. And what can erupt is often relentless, obsessed, possessed, and kept secret if possible, sometimes such preoccupation, vitriol, and vengeance can be unsettling for the individual to experience in itself. Thoughts and behaviours triggered by other people may be especially flammable and difficult to contain. This is largely because these will be landmines hidden in the unconscious, and the individual has no sight for where they are, where they came from, or what exactly detonated it. Issues with control and power struggles are typical of Mars-Pluto aspects, however the interpersonal troubles can be quite complex and divergent from reality, for example she may become or unknowingly act intimidating when she feels intimidated.

When Mars and Pluto are together, physical desires are bound to the unconscious chamber. When sexual intimacy is approached with honour of a spiritual sermon, she can summon powerful regenerative forces that are magic and healing in ability.

In the case that every external aggressor is confronted, and yet she refuses to confront the ones inside, there is a private and secret hell to pay. She knows it because she has been there before. It may be a desolate sense of isolation, that nobody could comprehend the depths of these experiences, thoughts, and feelings. Managing the side-effects of a Mars-Pluto configuration can take much self-work and inner growth, but once she becomes an ally with this pair, the transformations are accelerated in a bloodwine Mars victory ceremony. She can reflect on her earlier years as if she knew that girl centuries ago, from this elevated phoenix-eye view there is nothing she hasn’t seen, and nothing she cannot do. Cherry

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Venus in Virgo - Mysterious Maiden

I will not let anyone walk through my mind with their dirty feet.

Mahatma Gandhi

The heart beats for love and love is a sublime labour for Venus in Virgo. There is no dramatic display of affection or obsession, but rather deep sensitivity to her partner’s essential needs. The individual is rarely seduced by appearances or games, she is rather swayed by brilliant minds, interesting conversationalists, and supportive people. Her self perceived inadequacies and faults can make her overly self conscious in relationships and social situations, she may hold back her emotion at vital moments and seem disconnected from partners despite feeling the opposite. The individual can be remarkably hard to read as a lover, often going to extremes to conceal vulnerabilities and weakness for fear of seeming imperfect and being left. This can be entirely self generated. Lovers adore her for being the person she is, nothing more and nothing less. They love her despite her flaws, which she feels are so disgraceful.

Venus in Virgo people are sensually responsive and require intimacy and sex on a constant and routine basis. The individual can be ultra tactile and tenderly considerate of her lover during intimacy, she may find it difficult to dominate or express her own needs. It may be through simple acts like pulling the blanket over her cold lover or having their morning tea waiting that her feelings come on display. Harmony is important in relationships and the individual is likely repelled by disrespect, petty drama, and loud and disruptive displays. A consistent level of simplicity and mutual teamwork maintains the balance in relationships. She may be shy when first meeting people but she transforms into a talkative, engaging, and loud butterfly once trust is generated. Internal, inherent, and destructive feelings of inner shame can build layers around her heart. She may feel that if she reveals her true self that she will be rejected or left. Her lack of confidence around partners can be debilitating.

The individual awakens a sweet delight and feeling of contentment when serving and assisting other people. She is always looking for a way she could help, advise, or support loved ones. There may be a lot of sacrifices made on behalf of other people, but she feels most at ease with herself when she is offering something to causes larger than her. She is very in tune with the anxieties and personal rituals of partners, and she will go to great lengths to ensure they have nothing to worry about. It’s common for Venus in Virgo people to just sit and listen as a form of help, to offer gentle contributions and practical advice, to remain nonjudgemental and open hearted. And there is nobody the Venus in Virgo lover would rather serve and support than her partner, it gives her a sense of purpose and belonging. The mind is a conduit for love here, and it’s through intellectual rapport that true intimacy begins to blossom, a Venus in Virgo garden painted in the perfect image, a place for someone special to rest their weary wings.

-Cherry

art: Kurtis Rykovich

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~ the fire signs aries, leo, and sagittarius have their heads in the game, their intuitive visual eye on the prize, and their feet firmly planted in ready-to launch position. they are the firelight of the party, but there is also a serious, astute, and streetwise side to the persona that takes complete responsibility for their successes and failures. and in the end, it’s the only one they are really willing to answer to - themselves

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🎺🪗🎺🎷 and now for the star performers of the night sky #5thhouse written by astrolocherry

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Mars in Taurus - Blood Diamond Eyes

Mornings and Mars in Taurus don’t tend to get on well. This physical body and supply of energy operate on a schedule that is rarely compatible for early rising and nocturnal wind-down. She starts when she is ready and not when she is told, when the plan is in order and the resources are accumulated. Because once these cogs start turning they won’t stop until the end, and she knows commitment is a contract she cannot break.

Desire is heartfelt with Mars in Taurus and attachment generates an adrenaline that refuses to let go in the moment of being taken away. The individual with Mars in Taurus is capable of setting her sights on a prize that is far-off in the distance and remaining tunnel vision focused until the finish line. It’s her own image of carat gold swinging like a magnetic pendulum, and it’s waiting for her so it can owned, worn, celebrated, or returned to the rightful owner it was made for.

Mars is debilitated in Taurus and the side-effects can be issues with frustration, agitation, passion, and temper. Venus is the ruler of Taurus and her preference for peace and harmony will strongly resist indulging and displaying any of these volatilities. It may compromise her self-assertiveness and confidence to respond to other people’s unsettling behaviours in the way she really wants to. It’s all about saving face until the inevitable fall from grace.

The other side-effect may relate these aspects along with self-worth and the inner Patroness of self-destruction. The debilitated Mars can repress and recycle today’s encounter with memories that are decades old. History leaves old wounds freshly bleeding, invisible scars from the past can cover this body and inflame at any moment. And when it all comes out - the wrath, resentment, and offence flows with such volatility and unpredictability that you wonder if it will ever stop - or where it came from.

It may express as a conviction of pure self-contempt for herself, her choices, her life, the body she’s in, or everything at once, a poisonous harbouring of self-hatred, a lack of conviction that she deserves anything worthwhile. And she may express the self-maligning behaviour that reflects these feelings, such as through vicious self-punishment or denial. Maybe she self-destructs by gratifying impulsive desire and over-consumes a pleasure into poison, spending her rent, eating or drinking or smoking until she is physically ill, or giving into the urges that promise short-term relief at the cost of long term comfort. Or maybe she is severely self-restricting or compulsive with measuring every dose, or she forces herself through harsh exercise or lifestyle regimes to change something inside and punishes herself further after failure. In all this, sometimes she is receiving a malformed gratification from taking out the harsh discipline of the militant in the war against herself. It’s the back and forth struggle that consumes her, but she does grow tired and weary and longs to surrender. And when she finally has the desire to change and break the cycle it’s that same desirous fire that overpowers everything else.

Mars in Taurus relationships are highly based on good intimate, tactile, and sexual compatibility. She tends to be seeking an ‘energy’ or ‘sensation’ that erupts like a magnet with another body, and the sexual appetite can be ravenous if she indulges intimacy as a comfort measure. This somatic and sensory system demands to be activated at most satiating, and it can make her amongst the most satisfying and generous of lovers of a lifetime. But in many cases this took many inner battles and heroic victories inner battles to finally liberate her Goddess inferno. Some of her opponents were oppressors like vicious self-consciousness and inadequacies, and others that became stories she has never spoken about.

The apple in these eyes glisten like rubies and her cheeks blush same tone during a rage. She is energised and inspired by her heart’s desire and won’t let anybody stand in the way of securing what she wants. Her style of intimacy is nourishing, aesthetic, quintessentially and instinctually feminine,  a physical body running hot, blood turning to lava. Let her set you on fondue fire.

Cherry

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Sun in the 12th house - Now You See Me…

People with Sun in the 12th house exist in this world yet operate mostly in the invisible one. It’s why she can feel so drained following a simple mundane task, or heavy or listless for seemingly no reason. There’s a cloud that descends over this body that creates a foggy fantasy, a sense that the sun is too distant to feel the warmth from. Though within this cloud is the most sacredly spiritual silver lining, the easiest route home into the arms of God. The individual with Sun in the 12th can turn this way in the search for the acceptance, love, and belonging that may have been denied by an absent parent or childhood abandonment. The world can become harsh, cruel, and rejecting, so there comes a time when she just stops trying and withdraws completely. It may seem melancholic, but it’s exactly what she needs. She is one of the special ones with an open invitation to visit home and renew and recover, but the condition is that she must arrive alone. The individual is rarely entirely conscious of this dynamic, but she can feel it manifest in that exhaustion and calling for solitude, the social disillusion, and sense that she is never where she is supposed to be. The deeper longing for the unconditional and uncontainable love of divine reunion may cause her to seek out affection and romance in all of the wrong places with all of the wrong people.

Sun in the 12th side-effects can result in the individual requiring more sleep than average or operating on a backward nocturnal clock. Though it doesn’t always suggest that sleep comes easily. While she may need more shut-eye at night, she may be troubled by routine nighttime waking, strange and vivid dreams, sleep walking, sleep paralysis, or waking in the earliest hours of the morning unable to fall back asleep. It’s typical for people with Sun in the 12th to simply learn how to function half asleep as if she is completely alert and few people could tell. Practices that reconnect her mind and body with her soul in the sun like sun salutation can be extremely beneficial. The heart can also be vulnerable in this position with related conditions like murmurs, an irregular beat, stenosis, or low resting blood pressure.

Planets in the 12th house activate strongly in unseen and immaterial worlds, so it means they can express very weakly on earth. The individual is forced to become aware of what is possible in her by the contrast of what she already knows is impossible. She has to find the pieces of herself that she isn’t aware were ever missing. So it’s like nurturing an empty or invisible part of herself until she blooms into light. She can begin this process by directing care and compassion toward herself, instead of dispensing every last drop to every other person. It’s also vital that she recognises the mask and the illusion of identity, because she may feel lacking in one in comparison to others. She is not given to the ego parade which at first can appear very fake and undefinable, but she is given to the emptiness that recovers its identity through the universal immersion. She is one with the universe and this is the closest definition of who she is, within the grand celestial sea where there is no possibility of vacancy or inauthenticity. It feels like home to be of all things instead of one single description, character, or idol.

The conditions of Sun in the 12 make for a quiet inner life haunted by a loud, chaotic, and intrusive world. Because she spends to much time in solitude, she becomes attuned to the myriad of inner voices, and she can learn how to hear the one directly channeled from her higher self, past ancestors, or spirit. She may also experience prophetic events in dreams, visions, or the hypnognonic moment between awake and asleep. It also means that regardless of the abandonment and feeling that she has nobody to turn to, she can always go inward, and she can always ask for the help she needs using her direct to heaven psychic hotline.

written by Cherry art by Leila Ataya