The Water Below

[colombitch-deactivated20160222]

[theloneliestlovely-blog]

I was an idiot and I stayed with him, but the time that we spend together isn't fulfilling to me. Even though I try to kiss him and do cute things, there's no emotional connection.

[theloneliestlovely-blog]

These days of seems like life is more of an option than a priority. I just don't care anymore.

[theloneliestlovely-blog]

My entire family is driving me absolutely fucking nuts right now. There's always something wrong, and my nieces can be such shitheads. There's 5 of them so obviously it's a force to be reckoned with. I just want to be with Markus, our sleepover the other night was the most loved I have felt by anyone or anything in a very long time. He kissed me underneath the sheets, even gave me a fucking massage and that was some good shit. Then we cuddled and he stayed with me even as I drifted in and out of consciousness from falling asleep. I'm starting to really care about this kid, he sticks with me no matter what happens and I need that kind of solidity.

[theloneliestlovely-blog]

I always wonder if Marcus gets just as upset about my posts of other boys, as when I see his post about other girls.

[staypozitive]

[animalsnaps]

[my-teen-quote]

[theloneliestlovely-blog]

I'm a bad person.

[m00sebl00dd]

[wordsto-remember]

[my-teen-quote]

[oldfashionspace]

[my-teen-quote]

[theloneliestlovely-blog]

I started again.

[theloneliestlovely-blog]

I finally did something completely for me and completely therapeutic: Today I deleted all the asks in my inbox. All the cute things that we said to each other are gone and I couldn't be better.

[theloneliestlovely-blog]

You're fucking taking me out to dinner and then you're going to fuck me? This could honestly be what I always wanted.

[theloneliestlovely-blog]

I get so sad and so unmotivated without you around. Nothing becomes as important as it should be; eating, sleeping and... Well except for smoking, that is. You have managed to consume every thought that enters my mind before it has the chance to leave. So it stays there, it stays there and rots until you lift this unhappiness from within with hands so full of warmth and care. Thank you, for clearing away the doubt inside my mind, and opening my heart to what love can offer.