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ADRIA ARJONA & DIEGO LUNA ANDOR | S02E07 “Messenger”
DIEGO LUNA as Cassian Andor ANDOR | S02E07 “Messenger”
darius listened without interruption, his gaze resting on cassius with that same quiet attentiveness — not sharp, not probing, but present in a way that suggested he was weighing more than the words themselves.
at the mention of the lord commander, there was the faintest shift in his expression. not suspicion. recognition. “of course,” he said simply, inclining his head a fraction. “he has always been… reliable in that regard.” he did not press further. whatever cassius chose to name it as, darius allowed it to stand. he believed him, but he also knew there was more to it than he let on, though he would not be pushing for an answer he was unwilling to give.
his attention shifted instead, following the thread cassius offered him.
the faintest hint of something wry touched his expression at the mention of procession. “yes,” he admitted, quieter now, “i imagine i make it difficult to go unnoticed.” there was no pride in it. if anything, something closer to awareness — of weight, of presence, of the way the world bent around him whether he willed it or not.born to be the center of attention wherever he went. to hold himself in a way that made it impossible for others to ignore him. his father's first lesson, maybe. he didn't remember.
his steps slowed slightly as cassius continued, as the tone shifted, as the words settled into something more honest. this time, when darius answered, he did not look away.
“i have,” he said, voice even, steady. no denial. no attempt to soften it. “it was never much of a choice.” he was born with only one purpose and that had never been up to debate. at least not after his dragon hatched.
a brief pause followed, the air between them still, carrying the quiet truth of it.
“and you are right,” he continued, softer now, though no less certain. “a child does not choose the edges. any more than he chooses the center.” his gaze held cassius’, unwavering. “we are placed. shaped. expected to become what is required of us.”
another step, unhurried.
“but embracing a role…” he exhaled lightly, the thought unfinished for just a beat before he continued, more deliberately, “is not the same as being limited to it.”
it wasn’t an argument.
not quite agreement either.
something in between — something offered, rather than imposed. a fantasy he held onto for his own survival. he wanted it to be true, not just for his brother, but himself, too.
the sharper lines of his expression eased then, just slightly, something more familiar surfacing beneath the crown and expectation.
“and if you were avoiding me,” he added, that faint trace of dryness returning, softer now, almost self-aware, “i cannot say i blame you.” a brief glance, then back to him. “i rarely arrive alone.”
this time, the quiet that followed was different. less heavy. still full — but shared.
and for once, unobserved.
He let Darius’ words settle, not passively, but with quiet intent -- turning them over with the same precision he applied to most things, testing their shape, their weight, and the intent beneath them. The ring at his finger moved once, then again, a steady, grounding rhythm against the far less orderly current of thought beneath it.
Reliable.
Of all the words Darius could have chosen, it was that one.
Cassius’ gaze flicked briefly toward him -- not lingering, but not dismissive either. There was no surprise in it, only a subtle recalibration, a quiet acknowledgment of something he had already known, but perhaps not named so plainly.
“A rare quality,” he said at last, tone even, though the word carried a fraction more consideration than he allowed it to show. “And one I find increasingly… useful.”
His attention shifted again as Darius spoke of choice, or the absence of it. That, too, was unsurprising. Cassius had watched that truth settle over his brother for years, had seen the shape of expectation carve itself into something permanent, something indistinguishable from identity. The center had never been a place of freedom -- it had simply been a place of visibility, of inevitability.
“The center,” Cassius said quietly, as though the word itself required examination, “is rarely afforded the luxury of choice.”
His gaze drifted outward, toward the mountains, though his focus had long since turned inward.
They had both been shaped.
Where Darius had been molded to fill space, to command it without effort, Cassius had been left to the margins -- not excluded, but overlooked enough that he had learned how to exist there with purpose. Observation had come easily. Listening, even more so. In time, he had come to understand that absence could be just as useful as presence, if one knew how to wield it.
Darius’ words lingered longer than he expected.
There was something almost disarming in the way he offered them -- not as correction, not as expectation, but as possibility. Cassius didn't dismiss it outright, though neither did he accept it without question. Possibility, in his experience, was often indistinguishable from distraction.
“You speak as though the distinction is accessible,” Cassius replied at last, his voice quieter now, more deliberate. “As though one can simply step beyond what has already been set.”
He let the thought unfold at its own pace, unhurried.
“For some, perhaps, that is true,” he continued, his tone thoughtful rather than dismissive. “But expectation has a way of narrowing what remains. The longer it is reinforced, the more difficult it becomes to distinguish what is chosen from what is simply… accepted.”
The ring turned again, slower now.
“I have found it more effective to understand the boundaries placed before me,” he said. “To move within them, rather than waste effort resisting them. There is more freedom in that than most would assume.”
His gaze shifted then, meeting Darius’ fully this time. There was no resentment in it, no accusation -- only a quiet honesty that he didn't often extend.
“I was not placed at the edges,” Cassius added, more quietly. “But I learned how to remain there.”
It was not quite a defense, nor was it an admission of regret. It simply was.
At Darius’ final remark, something lighter touched the edge of Cassius’ expression, a faint wryness that softened the weight of what had come before.
“Avoiding you would require a degree of subtlety I have never needed to employ,” he said, dryly. “You tend to arrive with consequence.”
He allowed the words to settle, then added, more quietly, “Though I suppose that is not entirely your doing.”
It was not criticism, nor even complaint -- only recognition of the way the world responded to Darius, of the space he occupied whether he wished to or not.
The silence that followed settled more easily than most, not empty, but shared in a way Cassius rarely allowed. He matched his brother’s pace without thought, without the instinctive retreat he might have chosen before. The distance between them narrowed slightly -- not enough to draw attention, but enough to matter.
For once, he did not drift back toward the edges.
the teeth in the dark. the rumble before the fall of thunder.
Could it be that simple? He heeded the passerby's directions and...low and behold the pots of cadmium blue he was looking for was there all along in the wrong cubby. "Huh..." he picked on up to examine it, taking the leathered lid off to give it a sniff and check the inside for any consistency issues. It seemed he got lucky today.
The corners of his mouth rose in a small, almost unnoticeable way, he was pleased with this find. "Afraid not...there's no substitute for cadmium blue, not even cobalt comes close..." he shook his head gently, his tone quiet and lulling as he thought over his list in his head. "I should take a gander at the red selection, though I barely find use of them..." he held and tapped the cool glass of the paint pot against his lips as he decided.
"Ah, before you take your leave, could you do me a favor? If it's no trouble, could you point me to the reds?"
Cassius observed the process without interruption.
The lift of the lid, the measured pause, the quiet assessment of scent and texture -- none of it was careless. There was intent in it. Familiarity. A practiced sort of discernment that made the earlier request less about need and more about confirmation.
Noted.
At the explanation, his gaze dipped briefly to the pigment before returning, expression unchanged, though something faintly approving settled beneath it.
“Cadmium endures,” he said, almost idly. “Cobalt imitates, but rarely withstands scrutiny.”
Not quite agreement, but close enough.
At the mention of reds, his attention shifted -- not to the speaker, but to the layout of the shop itself. Shelves arranged with more enthusiasm than logic, tones bleeding into one another without clear distinction.
Predictable, once understood.
He turned then, moving without ceremony, his pace unhurried as he guided them toward a farther row -- less prominent, but more deliberately arranged.
“Here,” Cassius said, stopping just short of the display. “Grouped by undertone rather than hue. Inefficient for browsing, effective for selection.”
the shift was, once again, unmistakable.
not in movement alone, but in intent — the careful allowance of refusal, the deliberate closing of distance, the quiet certainty behind it. cassius did not rush. he did not force.
he chose.
and in doing so, he made the moment impossible to ignore.
aren did not move when the hand at his back slipped lower. he felt the pull, the narrowing of space, the press of proximity that turned awareness into something sharper and more immediate. the stone at his back registered dimly beneath it all, cool against the heat that now existed between them, grounding in contrast.
he could have stepped away.
the space had been given.
he didn’t take it.
his gaze held cassius’ without wavering, steady even as the lightning fractured the corridor behind him, casting brief, stark light across sharp lines and shadowed edges. there was no startle in him, no visible shift beyond the subtle tightening of focus — as though everything else had simply… fallen away.
the question settled between them.
not unexpected.
not entirely.
aren’s breath left him slowly, controlled, his head tilting just slightly as if considering the angle from which cassius now regarded him. there was no retreat in the motion. if anything, it closed what little distance remained, deliberate in its restraint.
“i suspect,” he said at last, voice low, even, carrying none of the urgency the moment might have invited, “that our definitions differ in method more than intent.”
a pause.
his gaze did not drop.
“efficiency,” he continued, quieter still, “rarely requires excess.” the words lingered between them, measured, composed — and yet, they did not undo what had already been set in motion. because, after a beat too long to be accidental, aren moved.
not away.
his hand lifted, slow enough to allow interruption, deliberate enough to deny hesitation — and came to rest lightly at cassius’ side, just above the hip, where the line of his body curved beneath fabric and tension alike. the contact was brief in pressure, but certain in placement, fingers settling as though testing something unfamiliar rather than claiming it.
not instinct.
choice.
his thumb shifted once, barely perceptible, as if grounding himself in the reality of it before stilling again.
“but,” he added, voice quieter now, the word carrying more weight than it should have, “i find there are… exceptions.”
he did not pull him closer.
did not increase the pressure.
but his hand slid up the prince's side to settle flat against his chest.
Cassius was no stranger to admiring beautiful things from afar.
But, with Aren, he felt he had to do so from a nearer distance.
He'd been correct.
Here and now, in the damp, abandoned corridor, with wind howling past them and thunder rolling overhead -- it was the lightning that illuminated Aren’s face, that caught in his eyes in fleeting flashes.
He had wanted him before…
But now?
Now the want coiled deep within Cassius’ gut, tightening, urging him forward as though it were something alive -- something insistent, daring him to touch, to consume, to ruin.
A low, pleased hum settled in his chest as Aren’s hand came to rest at his hip -- gentle, almost uncertain -- the weight of it sending a sharp pulse of heat right to his cock.
It made him --
Cassius drew a slow breath through his nose, steadying himself, though the impulse did not fade. If anything, it sharpened.
He wanted to stake claim... to descend on and devour his mouth until the Lord Commander forgot how to breath. He wished to bite possession into that pale skin, to suck at it until it was left wet and worried raw under his attentions.
Most of all, he needed his fingers tangled in those dark curls as he took and took and took.
Aren’s hand shifted, and Cassius tracked the movement, his focus narrowing, the sound in his ears no longer the storm but the thundering rush of his own blood.
At Aren’s words, Cassius paused, the faint curve of his mouth deepening as something darker settled behind his gaze -- no less controlled, but far more intense.
His hand left the stone.
It moved to Aren’s face instead, knuckles brushing lightly along the line of his jaw, the touch deliberate -- gentle, almost reverent.
“Am I an exception,” he exhaled, “Lord Commander?”
Only then did Cassius allow himself an indulgence -- his hand shifted to cup Aren’s face, fingers curling possessively at the nape of his neck. The gesture was devastatingly intimate, intentional in its softness, and laced with a quiet, unmistakable dominance.
He lowered his mouth then, closing the distance without ceremony as he captured Aren’s soft, plush mouth in his own. He bore down on him with careful insistence, the wet slid of his tongue finding easy access as he deepened the kiss into something sweltering, demanding.
I believe you. We'd like to volunteer. Some of us - well, most of us - we've all done terrible things on behalf of the Rebellion. Spies, saboteurs, assassins. Everything I did, I did for the Rebellion. And every time I walked away from something I wanted to forget, I told myself it was for a cause that I believed in. A cause that was worth it. Without that, we're lost. Everything we've done would have been for nothing. I can't face myself if I gave up now. None of us could.
DIEGO LUNA as Cassian Andor ⏤ ROGUE ONE: A STAR WARS STORY (2016) | dir. Gareth Edwards
the shift in contact was… noted, though not in a way that demanded comment. it was not the movement itself, which could have been dismissed as incidental, but the intent behind it — deliberate, chosen, and unmistakable. cassius rarely moved carelessly and aren recognized this immediately. the warmth at his back was grounding, pressing lightly against him without intrusion, a presence that both anchored and unsettled in equal measure.
he did not pull away, nor did he look down to examine it. the acknowledgment existed purely in awareness, folded seamlessly into the rest of his focus. each step alongside cassius felt measured, natural, as if the subtle narrowing of space had always been intended, as if the quiet intimacy of the moment was something they had rehearsed over countless similar mornings in thought, if not in deed.
aren’s voice came low, even, threading faint dryness through the words but softening the edge with the acknowledgment of what was happening between them. “i’ll keep that in mind,” he said, “it would be unfortunate to misjudge them so early in the day.” his gaze flicked toward cassius at that, catching the near-look that had been offered and withdrawn with careful precision. deliberate. measured. familiar, yes, but not entirely — there was something new beneath it, subtle enough to be easy to miss if he had not been paying attention.
the corridor narrowed around them, the stone walls pressing closer, the wind threading through in restless currents, and aren matched cassius’ pace without thought. he did not resist the deceleration, did not push ahead; he allowed the rhythm, acknowledging it, letting it exist as a shared, silent conversation in the way they moved through space together.
when cassius spoke again, it was in that quieter tone, precise and intentional, offering an opening rather than a question. aren considered how to answer, weighing the parts of himself he could afford to show. “no,” he said simply, measured and deliberate, then added, a fraction more direct, “though assessing shortcomings is rarely a wasted effort.” little chuckle accompanied his words.
his gaze settled fully on cassius now, steady and unflinching, no longer fleeting, no longer skimming over the surface. he did not look away as he added, quieter still, “i had other reasons,” words contained in the space between them, not offered lightly nor withdrawn. the storm pressed closer, low thunder rolling through the corridor as the air tightened, yet aren held his focus, letting the moment linger with a faint, almost imperceptible warmth threaded beneath the composure.
“you seemed the more productive use of my time,” he concluded, voice even, practical in surface, and yet carrying everything else unspoken.
He noted the simplicity of the answer -- the absence of embellishment, the deliberate choice of restraint. It was… consistent. Expected, perhaps. And yet, there was something in the way Aren held his gaze now that made the lack of elaboration feel less like evasion and more like intention.
Despite that -- or maybe because of it -- his anxiety spiked, dancing in rhythm with the steady thrum of his heart, and his fingers answered the call, seeking grounding as they spun the rings on his dominant hand, his mind working quickly.
It was a simple dilemma.
Risk versus reward.
“Rarely,” Cassius echoed, almost absently, in regard to shortcomings. “Though I find most people are far more generous in their assessments than accuracy warrants.”
All the while, he silently weighed his options, calculated the risk, and knew, by the slow thrum of desire roiling beneath composure and duty, the avenue he would inevitably choose.
He was, after all, but a man at his core.
“You are efficient with your time,” Cassius said at last, voice even, though quieter now -- less distant, less performative in a way that might have gone unnoticed by most. “I would not have taken you for someone inclined toward… misallocation.”
The storm rolled closer, thunder threading through stone and air alike, the corridor narrowing not just in space, but in sound -- in focus.
He made his decision then.
Cassius advanced without urgency, allowing space -- time -- for Aren to refuse him, to step away should he choose. He closed the distance, the hand at Aren's back slipping lower to ensnare the Lord Commander's waist and pull him dangerously close. At the same time, his body turned, free hand lifting to brace against the cool stone beside Aren’s head, effectively caging him in against him.
Lightning flashed behind him, illuminating the corridor.
"I wonder," he murmured, gazing down wantonly at Aren, "if we share the same definition of productive."
Status: Open to anyone! Location: Artisan's Reach in Virelai
There was always a purpose when Ritrinc's third prince ventured from his home, let alone his kingdom. He could be considered a homebody, the mer-prince you rarely saw and even more rarely heard, but he had specific hobbies that required a specific eye for materials.
Which was why he was in Artisan's Reach, dressed in common clothes, and only taking with him a guard or two--even then he told them to leave him be while he perused. He knew what he was looking for and what he was running low on, it was just a matter of not getting distracted.
Problem is: This prince loved window shopping...
Perhaps this kind of work was better left to a servant, or even delivery, but he had to see with his own eyes and feel the quality himself. How could one trust paints and charcoals and the like through someone else's tastes?
So there he was. Satchel over one arm and a thoughtful hand under his chin as he examined the section for blue paints. "Hmm...I'm not seeing it anywhere...Am I overlooking it?" he murmured to himself, those seafoam eyes scanning and searching each colored cubby for a specific kind of blue he was running low on.
Cassius hadn't come to Artisan’s Reach with any intention of lingering.
Virelai was… excessive, in its own way: color where there need not be, noise where silence would suffice, a kind of deliberate indulgence that bordered on distraction. Useful, perhaps, for those inclined toward such things.
Cassius wasn't.
And yet... he'd paused.
Not for the paints themselves, though they were arranged with a precision he could appreciate, but for the figure standing before them. Unassuming, at a glance. Common dress. Minimal guard presence. A man who had taken care to be overlooked.
Which, of course, made him immediately noticeable to Cassius.
He didn't approach right away. Instead, he observed, his attention moving in quiet passes -- the way the other’s gaze lingered, not broadly, but with intent; the absence of impatience; the familiarity with what he was searching for.
He wasn't browsing.
He was selecting.
An important distinction.
Absently, Cassius turned the second ring of his left index finger.
Once, twice, thrice, then --
“You’re not overlooking it,” Cassius said in Common, his voice carrying just enough to reach without effort, even and unhurried. “They’ve simply grouped it incorrectly.”
He paused before stepping closer -- not intrusive, but present -- his gaze sweeping the shelves with practiced efficiency before settling, briefly, on a lower cubby, half-shadowed by poor arrangement.
“There,” he added, inclining his head slightly. “Third row down. There's some too far back to be seen at a glance.”
Only then did his attention shift fully to the other man, taking him in properly now.
“And I imagine,” Cassius continued, tone dry, almost thoughtful, “you are not the sort to settle for a substitute.”
Not quite a question.
Not entirely an assumption.
But close enough.
the impact of varyx’s interference did not go unnoticed.
aren did not react to it immediately, but there was a subtle shift in his attention — not toward the dragon, but toward cassius. the disruption, the correction that followed, the way composure was reclaimed with practiced ease. it was… telling, in its own way. he said nothing of it. it wasn’t his place.
though curiosity was no stranger to him.
nor, he realized, was a certain quiet appreciation for the control it took to recover so cleanly, as though nothing had happened at all.
when cassius stepped closer, aren felt it before he fully registered it — the change in distance, the brief narrowing of space that neither of them had intended. his gaze dipped, just slightly, to the hand at his shoulder. not enough to draw attention, not enough to make it something.
just enough to note it.
guiding, not pressing.
careful.
his attention lingered there a fraction longer than necessary, not on the contact itself, but on the intent behind it — the absence of force, the quiet assumption that aren would follow.
he did.
without hesitation, falling into step beside him as naturally as if it had been his own decision to move. there was no resistance in it, no second thought. only an ease that settled more readily than it should have, and one he did not examine too closely.
“i’m not so easily bored,” aren replied, voice even, the faintest trace of dryness threading beneath the words. “your council would have to try considerably harder.” his gaze shifted then, briefly, past cassius — not to the horizon this time, but to varyx. the dragon’s satisfaction was unmistakable. aren held that look for a fraction of a moment longer than necessary, as if acknowledging the creature’s awareness — and choosing, just as deliberately, not to challenge it.
“though,” he added, almost as an afterthought, “i suspect i’ve already been afforded a more… engaging start to the morning.” the remark was mild. neutral, on the surface.
it wasn’t.
by the time his attention returned to cassius, there was no sign of it — only that same steady composure, as if nothing at all had been implied. and yet, his gaze did not move on as quickly this time. it settled, briefly, in quiet study — the wind-touched disarray of dark hair, the lingering tension at the edges of composure, the way cassius carried himself even in the aftermath of interruption.
it was… difficult not to notice.
aren drew his attention back with practiced ease, letting it fall instead to the path ahead, where the storm pressed closer with each passing moment, the air heavy with anticipation.
“lead on, then, prince,” he said, quiet, certain.
and followed.
Cassius didn't immediately respond.
He noted the dryness in Aren’s tone, the deliberate neutrality of the words -- and, more importantly, what sat beneath them. It was not subtle.
Aren rarely was, when he chose not to be.
The ring between his fingers turned once, then stilled.
“Engaging,” Cassius repeated, as though considering the word for the first time. His tone remained even, though something faint -- almost imperceptible -- threaded beneath it. “I will endeavor to ensure the rest of your morning meets that standard.”
Cassius shifted his hand from Aren’s shoulder with quiet intention, fingers trailing along the crest of it, before they descended, settling in the dip of his of back -- touch warm and grounding. Casual enough to be dismissed. Deliberate enough not to be accidental. His pace didn't falter as he guided them further along the path, stone giving way to a narrower corridor where the wind pressed closer against the walls.
“You give our council too much credit,” he added after a moment, tone dry. “They are persistent, not inventive.”
A beat.
His gaze flicked briefly toward Aren -- not lingering, but not quite avoiding.
“You will find the distinction matters.”
The storm rolled closer, low thunder threading through the distance, the air tightening with it. Cassius exhaled softly, more a measured release than anything resembling tension.
“I assume your intent to seek me out was not solely to assess their shortcomings,” he continued, voice quieter now, though no less precise.
His words weren't a question.
They were an opening.
His steps slowed just slightly -- not enough to stop, nor enough to force the moment -- but enough to acknowledge it.
"You have my full attention, Lord Commander."
In more ways than one.
@thelonleyspare (in a corridor overlooking the courtyard, early evening)
the morning had long since softened into quiet.
the clang of steel from the training yards had faded, leaving only the warmth of sunlit stone and the distant hush of the mountain winds. a rare lull — the kind that slipped through regia ignis unnoticed unless one knew to look for it.
darius had not meant to find him.
and yet, he had.
he stood at the open archway overlooking the courtyard, one hand resting lightly against the stone as his gaze drifted over the now-empty space below. earlier, it had held movement — cassius among it, speaking with aren, composed as ever. nothing remarkable to an outside eye.vbut darius had lingered. he always noticed more than he let on.
“you missed him.” his voice carried easily, calm, familiar. he didn’t turn at once, already aware of the quiet presence behind him. “aren was called away. father asked him to accompany rodrik.” a brief pause, then, softer and almost a bit thoughtful, “i saw you with him.” not a question. just… acknowledgment. only then did he turn.
cassius stood a few paces back, as he so often did — close enough to be present, never quite close enough to presume. the faint glint of gold caught the light at his hands, rings turning restlessly against ink-stained fingers. darius’ gaze lingered there a moment before lifting. “you keep interesting company,” he added, something faintly wry in his tone. “i heard he doesn’t often give his mornings to conversation.” meaning aren was usually described as standoffish, never seemingly connect with others. darius got it, duty before life.
he studied him then — properly, without the interference of court or expectation dulling the moment. “walk with me, brother.” it wasn’t a command. just an opening. he turned, setting an unhurried pace along the quieter path that traced the inner wall, where the mountain air cut through the stillness and the world dropped away beyond the stone.
“you’ve been difficult to find lately,” darius said after a few steps, glancing at him briefly. “council… or gone before i arrive.” a faint shift of expression, almost teasing, “i was beginning to think you were avoiding me.” the tone was light. what sat beneath it wasn’t, entirely. he exhaled, gaze drifting outward again.
“or perhaps i’ve been looking in the wrong places.” hinting he didn't know his brother as well as he thought. silence settled between them, easy in a way it rarely was with others. after a moment, his voice lowered, quieter now.
“you always preferred the edges of things,” he said. “even as a child.”
a small pause.
“i used to wonder if that was by choice… or because no one thought to call you closer.” this time, when he looked at cassius, there was no distance in it. only something steady. searching. gentler than most would ever see.
“which is it, cassius?”
Cassius had long since grown used to being overlooked and dismissed. Despite that, he had managed to turn such oversight into a power of his own. He haunted these halls, ever their quiet observer. The walls whispered, and he took the time to listen. Nevertheless, no matter how well he cordoned people into categories of understanding -- his family, the council, the nobles, the commonfolk -- there was always room to be taken by surprise.
Enter Darius.
His eldest brother may have only stood marginally taller than him, but his presence carried where Cassius' never had. He filled every room he entered with an effortless regality, every bit the golden son of Vissai.
Oftentimes, when Cassius looked at him, he saw past all of that -- to Darius’ gentleness. The kind that reminded him his brother was not only Aurelius Skywarden’s son, but Ignatia’s as well.
Regardless, he was easy to spot in a crowd, and easier still to avoid.
It was his words that gave Cassius pause, however, unease settling alongside surprise in his gut.
He had never intended to hide his familiarity with Aren. The Lord Commander was a friend to the Vissai court; it would not be unusual to see a royal prince exchanging words with him. Cassius was -- and always had been -- very intentional about who he was seen with, and what he was seen doing.
He had known, of course, that Darius was clever in his own way.
He wondered, briefly, what their father could possibly want with Aren. Later, after he had humored Darius enough, he would take it upon himself to find out.
"The Lord Commander has always been a friend to Vissai," he said simply, avoidantly. "I was simply welcoming him." He didn't add, of course, such pleasantries weren't expected of him, the third prince. Nor that he considered Aren a personal friend. His interest in the other went above royal propriety and duty.
That aside...
Cassius' eyes narrowed a fraction as Darius invited him to walk alongside him.
It was rare for his brother to show such interest in him. Perhaps it was the curious part of him -- or the lonely, insecure boy who had once longed for his brother’s attention -- but he indulged him, his steps quiet as he fell into place beside Darius.
A wry smile plucked at the corners of his mouth. "You forget, brother," he began, matching Darius' light tone, "procession and expectation follow you everywhere. If I was avoiding anything, it was that."
It was true enough.
If he stood at Darius' side, he would be the one being observed instead of the observer.
As Darius continued, his words grew... gentler, almost curious. It gave Cassius pause, though his footsteps remained steady. His brother’s observation was correct in an unsettling way. He was so accustomed to his family never truly seeing him that to have Darius -- of all people -- so accurately describe his childhood stirred a distant, familiar ache in his chest.
He stilled at the question, caught somewhere between perplexity and something dangerously close to hope.
His mask of indifference, cracked as it was, remained firmly in place. He did not allow the flicker of emotion to surface.
Not yet.
He studied Darius -- scanned his face, saw the gentleness there and…
He would allow him the truth.
"A child never chooses the edges of things," he replied, tone level, measured as it always was. "But, we all have our roles. I have merely embraced mine."
He met his brother's gaze and held it.
"As you have embraced yours?"
It had been a hot night and in more ways then one. Ursa looked up at the ceiling with a dazed look in his eyes, usually a sign he had had a vision while awake, but not in this instance. Although, the seer had been left seeing stars. He chuckles as he rolls over to face the person he's shared a bed with. "You're pretty skilled.." Ursa began to say, low and hesitant. His hand smoothed itself across the other's arm, fingers tracing across random mindless patterns across the skin.
"You know.. I don't often ask of another to remain past their time.." The seer says, finding courage in his words for what he wanted to say. "As a squire.. I'm quite experienced in stamina.." He hints softly against the other's ear, his fingers making their way down across the other person's chest, inching closer to their abdominals. Ursa's eyes watched from his fingers to the other, "Shall we.. go again?"
Cassius had his own set of rules when it came to indulging in acts of the flesh. While he prided himself on his restraint -- his ability to abstain when necessary -- sex was, unfortunately, the most effective way to clear his head, to regain the control he so often lacked in his life as a royal of Vissai.
He preferred to keep things casual, low-key, without strings. If possible, he favored men of lower status -- it made things easier. Less complicated.
The pretty, sun-kissed squire that lay beside him was a good example.
Cassius hummed low, a soft flicker of pleasure moving through him as Ursa traced idle patterns along the muscle of his arm. At his words, he let out a quiet chuckle, rough with intimacy. "Aren't I?"
While his life of duty was littered with insecurities -- of place, of purpose -- in matters of pleasure, Cassius held none. His ability to read others, to find patterns, to work out what came next made him an extraordinary lover. His arrogance there, at least, was well earned.
He leaned subtly into Ursa’s touch as the other exhaled, breath warm against the shell of his ear -- the question beneath it eager, shyly anticipatory.
Cassius caught the squire’s wrist in a single, controlled motion, his grip firm -- just shy of painful. He shifted, closing the distance until their lips hovered a breath apart.
“I’ll consider it,” he murmured, their breath mingling, “if you beg prettily enough.”
closed to: @quillsandcrowns setting: ritrinc, along the shore
The sea was… intrusive.
Cassius had decided that within the first hour of arriving in Ritrinc.
It was in everything -- the air, the stone, the very texture of the breeze against his skin. Salt clung where it had no business lingering, the humidity pressing faintly at his composure in a way he found… inefficient.
And yet... he had come anyway.
Duty, as ever, was rarely negotiable.
The spring feast had drawn nobles and dignitaries from across Liathra. And Vissai, in all its wisdom, had seen fit to send him as its liaison. A quiet presence. An observer.
Cassius did not mind that role.
He rarely did.
He stood at the edge of the shoreline now, boots planted firmly where sand gave way to stone, hands loosely clasped behind his back as his gaze swept outward across the water. The horizon blurred where sky met sea, the light too bright, too reflective -- ever-shifting, never still.
Unpredictable.
His ring turned once against his finger.
Twice.
He had already reviewed the political landscape. The alliances. The undercurrents. Ritrinc thrived on openness -- trade, celebration, excess -- and yet even here, patterns existed.
They always did.
A disturbance broke the surface.
Cassius’ attention shifted immediately -- not outward, but downward, toward the shallows where movement had caught his eye. Water displaced. Light fractured. Something deliberate beneath it.
He stilled.
Watched.
And then, a figure emerged.
Cassius didn't react outwardly, though something in his focus sharpened, subtle but immediate. He took in the details without pause --- the water still clinging to skin, the ease of movement, the complete lack of ceremony in how the other occupied the space.
Unbothered.
Uncontained.
Noted.
His gaze lingered a fraction longer than necessary before he spoke, his tone even, measured, carrying without effort.
“You’re either remarkably unconcerned with being observed,” Cassius said, in Common, “or very aware of it.”
A pause.
The ring stilled.
“…I've yet to decide which.”
Diego Luna in Kiss of the Spider Woman
the days in vissai had been full, as expected. meetings that stretched longer than intended, voices layered in careful diplomacy — the crown, its advisors, its ever-watchful court — dissecting strategy, weighing alliances, testing intentions behind polite smiles and measured words. aren had endured worse. this, at least, followed a kind of order, a structure he understood.
still, it was not the councils that lingered with him once they ended, nor the negotiations, but the spaces between them. the quieter moments, where observation mattered more than speech, where people revealed themselves not through what they said, but what they allowed to slip. this morning was one of those. no summons, no obligations, just the courtyard caught in the fragile balance between night and day, the air sharp with the promise of an approaching storm that pressed faintly against the skin, a subtle tension building.
aren had taken the reprieve without hesitation. he stood alone when the sound reached him, distant at first and then unmistakable — wings, weight, intention. his gaze lifted just in time to see varyx cutting through the sky with practiced ease, dark against the paling light, the kind of presence that demanded attention whether one wished to give it or not. aren watched the descent without moving, tracking the angle, the control, and the deliberate delay before landing. showmanship, predictable and infuriating. though his lips curved regardless.
his attention shifted before the dragon had fully settled, to the rider, and there, briefly, something in aren stilled. it was not surprise or uncertainty, but a quiet acknowledgment layered over years of familiarity. recognition had settled into something else, something calmer: a pattern he had come to understand and rely upon. cassius was precise in thought, in movement, even in silence, and aren respected that more than he often allowed himself to acknowledge.
“your highness,” he said, inclining his head, measured but not distant. his gaze flicked to varyx, lingering just long enough to register the dragon properly, respect without deference, and then returned to cassius. this time, it did not shift away as quickly. “you've been up in the air already, have you not?” he remarked with a warmth to his voice that only few people knew. looking at him up close, aren noticed the small details without seeming to — the set of cassius’ shoulders, the way his weight settled after the dismount, the faint movements of his hands at his rings. familiar, unchanged, grounding in a way he did not examine too closely.
“and you call this early,” he added, threading dryness through the words, the faintest edge of familiarity sneaking in. he allowed his gaze to drift past cassius toward the horizon. the storm was gathering, no longer distant but charging with intent, the air carrying that electric stillness just before the first strike. aren exhaled quietly, noting the appeal of it not for the flight itself, which had never drawn him, but for the control required to move through something volatile and emerge unshaken. when his attention returned to cassius, it remained. there was no hesitation when he stepped closer, no calculation in the distance he closed. whatever had once required thought between them had long since worn into something more instinctive. it was not careless, but certain.
“convenient,” he murmured, glancing briefly at varyx before settling his gaze fully on cassius. the pause that followed was brief, but intentional, a quiet weight pressing between the two of them. “i was planning to find you before i meet with your small council once more.” he did not elaborate, nor did he need to. the words were simple, yet deliberate. aren could have spent this morning elsewhere, reviewing reports, preparing for the next round of negotiations, ensuring nothing had been overlooked and yet he had chosen this. his gaze held, steady and just a fraction more attentive than necessary.
There was an ease to being in Aren’s presence, though Cassius didn't allow himself to dwell on it too long. It pressed at the edges of his composure all the same -- an unfamiliar steadiness that threatened, briefly, to loosen the careful distance he maintained. But habit, as ever, prevailed. The mask held -- steady and unwavering, as it always had.
His eyes crinkled faintly at the edges as a small smile touched his lips, his dominant hand lifting to card through wind-swept mahogany locks, the gold of his rings catching the light in quiet flashes. He glanced away from Aren momentarily, his attention shifting instead to the storm gathering along the horizon.
"Yes," he affirmed, his tone carrying a quiet, wistful edge.
Cassius may have haunted the halls of Regia Ignis from infancy until now, but it had never quite felt like home -- not in the way the open air did.
"The strong winds make for good training weather," he commented offhandedly, lost in his thoughts for a moment.
When Cassius' gaze returned, it did not linger where it might have once. It moved with quiet precision, taking in details without pause: the set of Aren’s shoulders, the steadiness in his stance, the controlled way he occupied space.
Less obviously, he noted the rest: Aren's eyes framed softly by dark lashes, the bow of his mouth appealing in both curve and color, enhanced further by the masculine cut of his jaw.
Observations.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Varyx's tail slashed violently behind them, thumping on the grown in obvious impatience.
"Is this all you're going to do, Still One?" he complained loudly, disgruntled rumble vibrating the stone upon which they stood. "Make moon eyes at the Lord Commander?"
Cassius’ expression didn't shift, though his eyes narrowed slightly.
“Shut it, lizard,” he replied in Draconic, the words clipped as he tore his gaze away -- not abruptly, but with intention -- to fix Varyx with a brief, warning look.
Varyx, of course, didn't heed it.
Petulant brat.
And so, as expected, he retaliated.
The dragon’s snout dipped forward without warning, nudging -- no, bumping -- firmly into the back of Cassius’ head with all the grace of something that knew exactly how much force it was applying.
Then, just to be insufferable, Varyx exhaled.
A hot, forceful rush of air tore through carefully arranged strands, thoroughly disheveling dark hair in an instant, undoing what little order remained from the wind.
A low, pleased rumble followed.
Cassius' expression tightened.
“Ignore Varyx,” he said, scowling, stepping slightly toward Aren --unintentionally closing the distance between them to something far narrower than intended.
He stilled.
A blink -- subtle, but there.
Then it was gone, his composure snapping back into place, though his heartbeat lingered just a fraction too fast.
Briskly -- without acknowledgment -- Cassius laid a hand at Aren’s shoulder, guiding rather than pressing, gesturing toward the shelter of the reach and away from the approaching storm.
“I shall have to take advantage, then,” he said, clearing his throat lightly. “Before the council manages to bore you to death with its tedium.”