STAB's random bullshit page

17, genderfluid, canadian, no mans sky extraordinaire. i post stuff semi-frequently if i have stuff to share/talk abt.

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my intro!!

name: STAB

pronouns: ask!! dont be shy!

interests: IDM (both making and listening), no mans sky, space, minecraft, making youtube videos, drawing, geography, flags, undertale/deltarune, 90s-00s era internet, cult of the lamb

fav artists: aphex twin, squarepusher, u-ziq, boards of canada, the beatles, tyler the creator, buckethead, angine de poitrine, nine inch nails

fav movie: emperors new groove

fav shows: smiling friends, ok ko, steven universe, murder drones, xavier renegade angel

fav youtubers: jacksfilms, tomska, ray william johnson, peter knetter, danny gonzales, scott the woz, albertsstuff/flamingo, matt rose, huggbees, bigtugg

DNI: basic DNI (racists, transphobes, ped0s, etc), overly religious ppl, ppl who bring up politics alot

extra:

has ADHD

is a musician

has a dead bird foot in a ziploc bag

is a nerd

is genderfluid

is gay as hell

WILL talk about aphex twin for hours to anyone who breathes

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here's what's happened since i last posted on this page:

i

- got accepted into a private music college where they GUARANTEE (NOT OFFER) JOBS IN THE INDUSTRY

- got a boyfriend

- broke up with said boyfriend

- started work on 2 albums

- discovered i was genderdluid

- bought FL studio only to realize that i just wasted $200 because it's a money hungry software

- got a fifth guitar (an epiphone les paul special II)

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meow

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im baaaaaaackkkk

contrary to popular wants and desires

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guh

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lets start treating neurotypicals like they treat neurodivergent people

"everyones a little neurotypical, get over yourself."

"those kids are from the unspecial ed class, dont go near them."

"hey loser, whats your special interest? oh wait!"

"oh boy, here comes the neurotypical..."

"i bet you pick the big fork when dishing up, dont you?

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i have a friend

like in real life

this is big for me

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it was my birthday on the 8th and i saw weezer live

yes they played the funny buddy holly riff

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I remember that place.

Everything that came with it.

I remember that night.

My entire life changed then.

I remember the concrete floors.

I remember the cinderblock walls.

I remember the frosted plexiglass doors to the bathrooms.

I remember the smell of the building.

I remember the small courtyard with no grass,

and a basketball in the middle.

I remember writing my name in chalk on the walls of the courtyard.

i remember Dr. Martin telling me not to do that.

I remember celebrating my birthday in there.

I couldnt enjoy my gifts.

I couldnt even have cake.

I remember.

I remember how cold the nights were.

I remember hugging the blanket, calling it my friend.

I remember the announcements over the speakers at midnight.

“Code white. Code yellow.”

I remember the light blue pants.

The red socks with the white rubber on the bottom.

I remember those push-to-use showers

And how happy i was to finally be clean.

I remember the paper they gave us.

The emotions wheel, coping mechanisms.

I remember those long lessons by Dr. Martin.

I only stared at the clock the whole time.

I drew a helmet, on chalk and paper.

It never came true.

I remember singing songs quietly to myself.

Sitting on the side of the hospital bed, looking down and singing Radiohead.

I remember when i got out.

I had changed schools.

I was a new person.

I was a blank canvas, yet such a full one.

It has almost been a full year since all of that happened.

I still havent moved on.

Will I ever?

I dont think so.

How could I?

My life changed in so short of a time.

Am I just crazy?

Maybe i am.

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i should start doing things, that would be interesting i think

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i was filming a skit for a youtube video and i realized while editing that:

1: the camera was tilted on an angle

2: the green screen was not set up in the proper place

3: for one of the shots, i was wearing a green hoodie. in front of a green screen.

4: my old shitty squaky chair could be heard, sometimes being louder than me

5: i said some of my lines so quietly that they're unintelligible

my relationship with making videos is so 50/50

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i saw this dumbass tower

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WHAT

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i have to stay at my grandmas house for the week

end me

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richard what are you doing there 😭😭😭😭

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first rule of looking at trans content on tumblr:

Don't open the comments.

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sorry i couldnt post yesterday my internet went out

heres this south african pop i tried it was rlly good