No One Reads This Page Anyways

[wordx]

I'll block the entire world if I have to. Nobody getting on my nerves this year.

[themetalviking]

A.

I think I saw your sister today, actually think I have several times. If it isn’t your sis, she reminds me a lot of you either way.. it just make me break inside how bad I am of a person. Specially to you.

I regret so much. I still love you. I reap what I sow. I should have done so much different when it came to you. I had a chance to really get it and I threw it away because I’m bad.

[themetalviking]

I hate life without you.

[themetalviking]

idk why I even bothered. I just blocked. Shoulda done that from the get go. Who am I to think things might be any different. Dumb hopes and wants.

[themetalviking]

every day o pray that I don’t wake up. I fucking hate existing.

[themetalviking]

You were my peace and I had you again. Things went south. I would have changed for you. I wanted everything you wanted because it’d have been with you. You were my peace and I still crave the peace you gave me that no one else ever came close to. I think of you often and I miss holding you with you holding me back. I want peace again but it’s unattainable. Not without you.

[themetalviking]

I think of you daily. I miss your touch. I miss your smile. Your voice making love to you. The feelings I felt with you. How much love I had for you and what’d I’d be willing to do and change for you. Alas it’s all a far off dream. I think of you daily…

[themetalviking]

I hate how I’d still do whatever it took to be with you.

[themetalviking]

I’ve forgotten what true happiness feels like.

[themetalviking]

I don’t want to fucking be here anymore. Fuck I want out so bad. No one gives a fuck if I am gone. No one checks on me ever. No fucking point to this whole “life”

[themetalviking]

I don’t care who reads it anymore. I’ll blast my dumb shit here.

[themetalviking]

I just want to end it. Fuck I hate this life.

[themetalviking]

It was stupid to think even wanting to change because of love was the right call. Wanting to be that person for them. What a joke. Don’t change shit is what I’ve learned. I was starting to be excited at the idea of a kid with you.. and was just as hurt hearing you lost it. Getting to help pick a name was exciting and nice.. I can’t believe I fell for any hope. I’ll continue my path to the end. That’s all I need to do now.

[themetalviking]

I don’t deserve any form of happiness. What a joke.

[themetalviking]

More and more I realize how I hate myself.. I ruin anything and everything I touch. I would be better off leaving everyone behind. 6 more years then I can and not have to feel tethered to this world. I can push through 6. Then I’ll be free and set myself free.

[themetalviking]

Tbh

I wish I could kill myself so much more than anyone realizes. 🙃 fuck this life.

[themetalviking]

GIWYSLM. I still think of you daily and still my heart gets heavy at the though of you. i miss your voice dearly, and i hate this still so much. Nothing has changed for how i feel about you, and it just hurts more each day sadly. i live with it and have reach solis with it. tho some times in bed I reach out hoping your there when im half asleep then realize i was dreaming.

“the heart beats,

waiting to feel their presence,

flooding the body with waves of emotion,

all for a 4 letter word,

it has brought the ruin of countries and kings,

but given rise to so much more.

This word can bring happiness or delight,

but this emotion will also bring sadness and pain.

For a heavy heart wants what it wants,

even as it watches what it wants drift even further and further away ”