Flying, Soaring

and Taylor Swift keeping it light //this tumblr was created during bright days, but turned out as a closet for my dark days.

[themillionthstar]

I was Threatened

My brother threatened to kill me. Stab me then cut my head off and display it on the living room. He told me to hide from now on because he might do the act when everyone's sleeping.

If ever I died, you know the suspect.

[themillionthstar]

I'm back again.

I was nearing the end of the tunnel I tried to escape.

Capturing me almost entirely.

Grasping for breath, hidden hands pulling.

Stuck in a never ending struggle.

I want to run.

I want to rest.

I'm tired now and again.

The cycle keeps repeating.

Please shut the gun now.

[themillionthstar]

Me trying to break down Seven by Taylor Swift

[Verse 1]

Please picture me in the trees

I hit my peak at seven

Feet in the swing over the creek

I was too scared to jump in

But I, I was high in the sky

With Pennsylvania under me

Are there still beautiful things?

I think she's describing how she felt when she released Lover, her 7th album. She said Lover was her best album (I hit my peak at 7 feet) and she signed on another music label (in the swing over the creak). Lover was highly praised album by critics. Pennsylvania under me could be a reference to Christmas Tree Farm. And beautiful things to Beautiful Ghosts.

[Chorus]

Sweet tea in the summer

Cross your heart, won't tell no other

And though I can’t recall your face

I still got love for you

Your braids like a pattern

Love you to the Moon and to Saturn

Passed down like folk songs

The love lasts so long

It was summer when it was announced that Scooter bought Big Machine. Then Taylor spilled the tea. Saturn by the way is the 6th planet from the sun. Taylor has 6 albums under Big Machine. (Passed down like folk songs) because the tale of Taylor Swift would always include BMR and Scott B. and she's still forever grateful for that.

[Verse 2]

And I've been meaning to tell you

I think your house is haunted

Your dad is always mad and that must be why

And I think you should come live with me

And we can be pirates

Then you won't have to cry

Or hide in the closet

And just like a folk song

Our love will be passed on

This might be her when she made a decision to sign under Republic (and I think you should come live with me). Remember her telling that sometimes her and Scott would not agree on an idea. Plus he did not let her purchase her catalog. And she was told not to voice her opinions on politics (or hide in the closet).

[Bridge]

Please picture me in the weeds

Before I learned civility

I used to scream ferociously

Any time I wanted

I, I

When news came out that BMR is being purchased, she's very vocal of her disgust about the fact and those concerning her past 6 albums. Now she's more civil about it. Kill them with success.. hahahahaha

[Chorus]

Sweet tea in the summer

Cross my heart, won’t tell no other

And though I can't recall your face

I still got love for you

Pack your dolls and a sweater

We'll move to India forever

Passed down like folk songs

Our love lasts so long

I just read somewhere that India was also known as Sapta Sindhu which means SEVEN rivers. (We'll move to India forever) could mean that she would leave her six albums behind, bringing along with her treasured memories, and move forward, Lover, her 7th album.

@taylorswift I hope I get some right. 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

Stream folklore!!!!!

[themillionthstar]

Absolutely tired of life. Tired of living. If God is real, please take me away.

[themillionthstar]

Sometimes in life, there are people you can't get away from.

Even though that person is toxic, you just can't shake them away.

Then you struggle with mental health issues.

It's become suffocating.

You're dying.

[themillionthstar]

I tried and tried

I tried and tried.

I kept on hanging, looking for those slivers of light that shine.

The sky was clear and blue.

The wind was gentle.

When storm came, I tried to fight.

But fighting a never ending war is straining.

I tried and tried, but I'm tired.

[umlindsay]

Thinking about her. She was ahead of her time.

[themillionthstar]

Just wanted to spread: DON'T VIEW TAYLOR'S MUSIC VIDEOS (youtube) FROM PAST ERAS BECAUSE THE RATS 🐀🐀🐁🐁 ARE CHANGING THE LICENSES....

STREAM LOVER

[theprocast]

“Alcoholic remedies, comatose melodies, medicine in the form of liquor. Catastrophic memories, antidote recipes, medicine in the form of mixers. This is not how the teens should be.”

— This is not how the teens should be / Written by J.A.Fiddy ( @fidds6 ) 

[depression-and-literature-deact]

One minute I feel like I’m on top of the world and the next I feel like dying.

[depression-and-literature-deact]

I want to die but for some reason I’m still here...

[themillionthstar]

Still drownjng in misery.

Noone to turn to.

Discarded, intentionally not understood.

Never ending cycle of remorse, bitterness and sadness.

Deep pity to self, happiness a strange word.

I pray that the candle of life lit now be blown off.

[themillionthstar]

I need a hug right now.

When can I be free.

Free from the weight of everything.

Free from feeling.

If I endure a little longer still, will the Lord bless me?

The push and pull of wanting to live and wanting to die.

How much strength is needed?

How much stremgth remains?

[themillionthstar]

Life greets you

I remember last year.

On my birthday, as I was reading a manga, unexpectedly, the chapter I was reading has a character celebrating birthday thus having another character greeting happy birthday.

Today, on my birthday, as I was reading a manga, a charater was celebrating birthday thus another character greets happy birthday.

What a coincidence is that?!!!! 😂😂😂😂😂

Now, I wish for @taylorswift to greet me... in my dreams 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 (half crying)

[themillionthstar]

Birthday!!

I'm 26 this year!!! And still have no work (ecq)... still depressed... still broke 😭😭😭😭😭

I want to be happy too...

P.s. my period's been 3 months already!!!

[themillionthstar]

It's just me and my sleepless battle with depression.

[themillionthstar]

Early Morning thoughts

Still depressed.

Still crying because of hopelessness for oneself.

Still crying because no one can help.

Still depressed, forlorn, melancholic.

P.s. catch @taylorswift at Together at Home this April 18

Stay safe.

[themillionthstar]

I'm Falling