kinda have an ed

not pro ana, this is just to hold myself accountable. pro recovery!! (just not ready for myself)5’2 sw:145 cw: something below 130gw1:130 ✔️gw2:125 gw3:120 gw4:115 gw5:110 gw6: 100 UGW: 80//binge free for: 2 weeks!!//pansexual 🏳️‍🌈

[insecurexaf]

I want to say this again. Do not report a blog unless they are actually doing something super bad. You have no idea how much that blog could be helping someone. It may be their only place to vent. If you are upset by their content or worried for them message them. Actually talk to them instead of reporting them first because if their blog gets terminated it could make them worse

[themodernireneadler]

i’m going to try and recover, i can’t live like this anymore. goodbye, i love you all🤍

[themodernireneadler]

how much weight is it possible to lose in a month eating under 1000 calories (average day being around 500) and walking for an hour or two 4-5 times a week?

[themodernireneadler]

walking is SO underrated for exercise

how much do y’all typically walk per day/week 😊

[themodernireneadler]

food log 3/1

- kind bar (180)

- fruit bowl with ricecake cereal thingy i made (290)

- a bite of a banana (25)

total: 495

binge free days: 3

[themodernireneadler]

food log 2/28

- blueberry kind bar (150)

- chocolate kind bar (170)

- 2 pickles (15)

- seaweed (30)

- watermelon (100)

- 100g sweet potato (85)

- 2 oz baked chicken (50)

- salad (75)

- ketchup (30)

- oils (100?)

total: 800 cals ish?

kinda annoyed i ate this much but it was sunday and i felt really bad because i haven’t been eating with my family at all, i also went for a 2+ hr walk so i probably burned some of that off. this is also way better than a binge

binge free days: 2

[themodernireneadler]

food log 2/27

- blueberry kind bar (140)

- tuna wrap (110)

- 3 rice cakes (105)

- 2 tbsp chocolate syrup (100)

total for today: 455

sadly i binged yesterday so days binge free: 1

[themodernireneadler]

food log 2/25

breakfast

- half a blueberry kind bar (70)

- half a chocolate kind bar (110)

total: 180

dinner

- fiber wrap (50)

- 40g grape tomatoes (10)

- 20g cabbage (5)

- 3 tbsp white vinegar (5)

- 40g tuna (45)

total: 115

dessert

- mini homemade zucchini banana muffin (80)

total for today: ✨375 ✨

binge free days: 1

[themodernireneadler]

im going to start using this blog as accountability for myself in regards to my binges. every time i binge i have to post it to here, no exceptions. i’ll also start posting daily food logs as well. i’m going to also set goals for myself in regards to binges, so far my record is 10 days binge free. today i binged for the 3rd day in a row and i’m planning to just hop right back on the wagon starting right now! let’s make it to the end of february with no more binges!

[themodernireneadler]

things i need to remember whenever i want to eat/binge

- you’ll never reach your ugw if you eat more than you need to

- the food will still be here at your ugw!!

- think of how all the kids at school will notice how amazing you look

- you finally won’t be treated like the fat weird kid with no friends

- you’ll have your control back!!

- binges can’t control you if you won’t let them

- binge urges get weaker and eventually go away once you keep ignoring them

- you can finally fit into that clothing style that you’ve ALWAYS wanted to look good in

- people will finally take you seriously

- your mom won’t think of you as her fat failure of a daughter anymore

- i can FINALLY dress more andro because my chest will be a bit flatter and my thighs smaller

- NO MORE THUNDER THIGHS

- finally confident

- i can actually be comfortable walking out of my house

- i can actually look good in photos

- i’ll be known as skinny and not “thicc” (please god i hate it here)

- i’ll be happy ughhh

- i’ll finally know what i’ll look like at my highest potential/ ugw

- everyone will be proud (mostly family)

- so i never have a binge again!!!

[themodernireneadler]

anyone have any tips for fasting?

[themodernireneadler]

anyone else weirdly happier, more positive, and more productive when they’re restricting? like obviously im not ecstatic to be hungry but i feel like it’s worth it to be productive if i’m starving?

[themodernireneadler]

200 calorie vegan noodles!!

[themodernireneadler]

how can i improve my sleep, i haven’t been able to sleep much with low restriction(tips besides increasing my food intake)

[starry-sage]

Manifesting: I will be 110 lbs by March

[withereal]

idk if anyone else can relate: i hate seeing pics of food because it makes me want to eat and i’m scared of losing control and eating, but at the same time i can’t look away when i see food. i want it so bad but at the same time it grosses me out so much. it’s simultaneous fixation and disgust. i have to pause and take a few minutes to just...take it in whenever i see a picture of pizza or whatever because it just looks so. good.

[themodernireneadler]

let me put y’all on something real quick

i wanted a protein heavy dinner because i wanted to feel less hungry while i’m trying to sleep

high protein low cal tuna wraps!! (can be modified to even lower cals)

ingredients:

- 1 fiber wrap (80)

- 1 can of tuna (180) and you can even use half and still get a ton of protein

- 10 larger grape tomatoes (20)

- 1 pickle (<5)

- various 0 cal seasonings (i use lemon juice, salt, pepper, and garlic powder or whatever i can find)

total for one wrap: 285 or less(depending on how much tuna you use)//142.5 for half

if you end up using only half the tuna can, adding more veggies will help with volume and making you feel more full

also this wrap is like the size of an average burrito so it’s perfect for being lower calorie