Nomii Ann

I was born. I am alive. I haven't died yet.

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Chris D'elia 2017 🌹

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Smith & Deli / Melbourne Australia ✔️

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Bby Loz 🌹

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Taller than your dad 🌹

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Honey 🌹

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🔥 Tonight

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Tonight was A+

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did they play grizzly bear??

No they focused on their snow album 💧 but jet plane made the cut, always. It was quite intimate & they played more on instrumental skills... a trumpet or two! x

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Saturday night ✨

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Kelsie 🌹

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Loz 🌹

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Do you think you could elaborate on your past actions of openly discussing your dangerous disordered eating habits online when you were losing weight? Purging pizza, over exercising to compensate etc. I think it's interesting how you were very clearly disordered yet everyone was praising and encouraging you. And after all these years I still remember your discriptive posts of what you were doing to yourself..

Thank you for taking the time to write to me..I am sure you would have a very warped perspective on who I am.. and I don’t blame you one bit. So I appreciate the delicate yet direct way this question was put together.

I think a tragic part of growing up in the boom of the internet (so I felt) is coming to realise there is no erase button. I’m not sure if it was growing up in such a small town or the sense of feeling lost in my identity.. but I had no walls up in regards to discussing everything in a raw & blunt way. Perhaps I felt like no one was reading it because I couldn’t see their face in person…It’s ironically something that plays on my mind & till recently I didn’t know how to handle.. not just my past but how perhaps, some people perceive me. I am raw, I am real & I won’t apologise for saying hello to the world. It helped me grow up in a very abnormal way but I do wish I knew that memories/impressions are created wether you forget them or not.. it sounds so simple, yet it’s a concept that was not at all in my mind for too long.

I have felt guilty; guilty in the sense of over exposing my fragile and unhealthy habits. Painting a raw picture to people who didn’t have all the other pieces to put with what they were reading.. knowing what I know now I would have draft, edit & narrow down on a positive message to the audience I had captured. But, I do believe the support was coming from people who had perhaps spoken with me & known what else was happening in my mind. Their support while encouraging my ED did pull me through the online backlash that came with it. This was a small yet powerful time of my life that no one ever understood & even now, I struggle to understand the self destruction..

This isn’t a time I can openly discuss in a positive light but I will say, the person I am today has soften her voice not because I am ashamed of my ED and it’s public presence. But I am choosing to direct my focus on my future. I have a very busy mind as you will know by now and I do reflect on my own..it may even be one of my strongest points.. at this time however I wish to keep this private..I think my ED has haunted me long enough.

Thank you for listening after all these years & I hope one day you feel happy to show your identity. Till then I’m happy to answer or chat about anything else & I hope you can respect that ✌🏼