Ranting like the problematic fangirl I am... @theoddbookworm - Tumblr Blog

hot dog break on a cold winter day in Metropolis

The colors were so beautiful I had to do a study

No, Alex. I can’t imagine anything worse than that. 🙄

#landofstories #alexandconner #onlineschool #zoom university #school #landofstoriesauthor'sodyssey #i thought i could find escape #in this nice adventure book series #instead i just got more sad #i came here to have a good time #and honestly im feeling so attacked right now

not @ how after I finally changed my clothes in attempt to come out of my two week long depressive episode and my dad looked at me and said "Hmm. That's a weird outfit. Its like you just wear whatever now a days. Okay I guess." Guess who spent another three days in bed~? Theres no hope for me.

Not @ my mom lecturing me after I said I got a 29/30 on my Spanish final because she was mad that I didn’t get a 35/30 even though its literally impossible

#my friends found my twitter #so imma stop posting on there #so now ur gonna hear all my bullshit #the only way I got her to stop #was to promise I'll do more extra credit #as if im not suffocating already with the rest of finals #thanks mom

I hate myself.

I’m that annoying ass bitch that eats less than the group most of the time. The only time I’m not the one who eats the least is when we hang out with Olivia and we eat about the same amount (long story). I mean I’m by no means skinny. My doctor says I’m at average, healthy weight for my age and height. But when I go out, I get really shaky and nauseous so it makes it really hard to eat. Even if it's my friends or even people I trust, it just feels really weird and physically uncomfortable to eat.

It makes me feel so bad when I whisper, “Sorry, I don’t think I can finish this.” Or when I have to say, “Sorry, I don’t feel like eating right now.” Especially when everyone is done eating a beautiful meal or when everyone piled on their plates or when I know that one of my friends poured their time, effort, and love into making a spectacular dish. I know it makes some, especially the other girls I hang out with, feel bad about eating and I hate that I do that. I want to tell them that I want to eat but I can’t.

Maybe I have anxiety but I’m not sure because I haven’t been diagnosed. Maybe I’m just paranoid. Maybe there is something wrong with me. Maybe I just need to get over myself and eat.

It haunts my dreams though, that look girls have when they look down at their empty plate in despair and guilt after I ask for a to-go box for a meal I could only manage to take a few bites out of. I wish I could tell them I want to clear my plate too. I wish I could tell them I hate the cold feeling of hunger and nausea that follows me like a shadow whenever we hang out. But I can’t because I’m just that annoying bitch who won’t eat.

#sorry to my followers #if u guys are still active users #sorry either way #this is just a rant #i just have a lot on my mind rn #i know there a bigger things to worry about #sorry #i just kinda feel like trash #sorry ignore me #pls have a nice day!

Ok but like actually tho who else is thinking this COVID-19 is a little bit toooo much like letumosis???

#lunar chronicles #the lunar chronicles #cinder #scarlet #cress #winter #covid19 #letumosis #is this fandom still alive???#lets hope the moon doesnt release their wolf soldiers

I feel like cutting my bangs but if I tell my mom she’s gonna write it off as emotional distress (i mean she’s not wrong) and make me clean my room or something. So Imma just have to sit through this quarantine mess without scissors to tempt me.

#quarantine #bangs #emotional distress #leave me be #so i can cut my bangs omg

I don’t mean to be rude or anything but

I don’t know what the frig an Italian is but I keep falling for them.

#confused #help? i think

My best friend and I got into this heated argument about who hated who more. I hated her and she hated me. (I hated her more.) We were arguing in front of our friend group and they were freaking out. So one of our friends tried to calm us down saying, "Whoa, there guys, um that's a little harsh.“ And our argument stopped dead and we just broke into laughter. And we were explaining to our friends that we love each other so much we hate our collective guts.

#are you even friends if your not a little bit gay #best friends #fucking love that bitch

Friendly Reminder

Frank also played Mythomagic!!! He and Nico were even geeking out about it in HoH!!!!

#frank zhang #HoO #heroes of olympus #house of hades #nico di angelo #reminder #percy jackson

I sneezed so hard my neck did the thing.

Winter and Scarlet are my last two brain cells at 3 am.

#the lunar chronicles #winter #scarlet #cinder #cress #me and the boys at 2am looking for beans

Haio! I’m new to insta...don’t have many friends...here’s a few doodles on my skin cus paper is scary 😉 #soquirky https://www.instagram.com/thespasmicbookworm/p/ByWtu2bhJpJ/?igshid=a70p1ovx5u7f

#soquirky

Queen Levana: Today we mourn the day of the death of Princess Selene. May her soul rest in peace.

Cinder: Quit telling people I'm dead.

Queen Levana: Sometimes I can still he- WAIT YOU'RE ALIVE? NO, YOU ARE AN IMPOSTER! GUARDS, GET HER!

Cinder: (while fighting guards) Why the fuck would anyone even PRETEND to be related to you?!?!?

#the lunar chronicles #cinder #headcanon

In light of pride month, I remember in middle school when we were learning about the westward expansion we had to write a musical on it and design the musical poster. The poster had to be the title in pretty colors and this picture:

colored in as we wish. So my friends and I decided to make the poster as anti-straight as possible. So Wesley colored the back as the American flag and the lady in a rainbow dress. Erica made the bible she was holding a BI-ble with the bi colors and changed all the guys to girls and all the girls to guys. I made the lady in the middle with a trans flag dress and the bible was covered in the demi colors. She was a demi-goddess. lolll Our English teacher thought it was great and my history teacher didn’t get it...Idk had to share thought it was fun

#happy pride 🌈#demi-goddess #westward expansion made gay #merica