true alpha

*screeches*

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Like what am i supposed to do call my mom and be like hey my wife abuses me i was wondering if i could come stay with u and my stepdad who also abused me

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Im so tired if calling the suicide hotline i wish i had someone who gave a fuck about me. Im so tired of sitting in my exwifes basement by myself just waiting to get cussed out. When will my life be over so itll all stop hurting so bad.

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This is my blog for when i want to die. I took a whole bottle of pills last week and just gor diarrhea. I wish someone in this world cared about me. Everyone always leaves because im too much or toxic when all i ever wanted was just someone to be there for me. Its never going to happen. I wish i was dead. Please kill me and put me out of my misery.

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I only woke up today because apparently my anxiety wants me to vomit on myself why am i still alive

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At work so cant kill myself there. The urge is getting stronger.

[theoraekenmccall]

I care about you

Who are you?

[theoraekenmccall]

I wish someone cared about me,l.

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Logged onto this blog so you know what that means im contemplating suicide again. Dont worry tho i will never actually do it im a fraud. I just want to die so badly. The feeling is all encompassing. I hope to not wake up. No one will ever love me and i will never be good enough. Yall think i am playing but my mix of mental disorders makes me unbearable to be around. I just want to be gone so badly i feel the ache in my bones. Coward coward coward will stay alive forever at this rate i just want to make this feeling go away i wish there was something that could help be besides death

[theoraekenmccall]

I'm really sorry you're so down and you feel like you do. It sounds fake but I sincerely hope that you can hold on and that things get better for you.

Nah fam honestly you are the only one talking to me so i want to thank you for that. No one else seems to give a fuck.

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Im 1% okay this is my only blog that i thought no one cared about and i have no where else to turn to i want to die so badly its all encompassing

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Hopefully today is the day i die

[theoraekenmccall]

I wish i was dead

[theoraekenmccall]

No one will ever love me. Im toxic. I have no one to go to in my life anymore. I am alone.

[theoraekenmccall]

Only porn blogs follow me here so its the place for my fake suicide notes i post like how to hire a hitman to kill you

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tfw your bpd is making you wanna just jump out the window and you gotta deal because no one gives a shit but you keep living even though you’re so alone rip

[theoraekenmccall]

what if i was dead 

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sometimes when i’m really depressed i log into here and remember all the times when i had people that i could turn to when i felt like this, before everyone decided i wasn’t worth the trouble anymore.