Fresh Like A Salad

Cheyenne. 32. Literal mom friend.

[theoutsideisbeautiful]

Bringing it back to my roots and needing to word vomit on the internet. Let’s bring y’all up to speed shall we?

A year ago (April 24’) I found out my husband of 13 years was having an affair. By August he told me he had an entirely new girlfriend, by October he moved in with her. His shit is still at the house and I wish oh how I wish I was a mean person and could throw it all away. My daughter unfortunately has realized how emotionally fucking constipated he is and doesn’t know how to connect with him since I basically raised her on my own. I found out a week ago my mom is starting hospice and maybe has a week left to live as I type this. Oh my dad also has fucking lung AND prostate cancer. I don’t even know what to feel anymore. I don’t have my person, he couldn’t care less and I was so foolish to think he would. I’m going to have to move back to PA because I know emotionally my dad can not handle it once my mom is gone. I would stay in Virginia but I can not afford a place on my own once my ex makes us move out of housing. I’m lost. I’m numb. I don’t know what to think or feel anymore and this entire year felt like a fucking fever dream nightmare

[gunsatthaphan]

“then please wait for me.”

[the-chikyuu-times]

[kurozero]

“The hunters that devils fear… are the ones with a couple of screws loose.”

[maggiecheungs]

tor thanapob @ gmmtv 2023 new and next

[minzbins-moved]

HUI IS BACK ♡ 221118

[theoutsideisbeautiful]

My kid wanted me to show everyone her drawing so here’s the obligatory mom post ☺️

[theoutsideisbeautiful]

So I see everyone’s migrating back here 👀

[jimmysea]

You’re wearing heavy make-up. Because I’m so handsome. You’re misunderstanding something here. If you’re handsome you won’t need heavy make-up. What a cake face! It doesn’t make sense. It does. It means your skin is horrible. But I was asked to be a model. Please you’re full of yourself. I am hot. Can I pay you to be less confident? What an ass! BAD BUDDY THE SERIES (2021)

[floweredmp3]

(211128) ♡ i.m performing ‘rush hour’ @ inkigayo.

[usertoxicyaoi]

“Aoki, lend me your hand.” KIETA HATSUKOI (2021) - EPISODE 8.

[theoutsideisbeautiful]

Why go to sleep when I can stay up and stress about stuff

[sunsetandthemoon]

“What you said… for you, no one could ever replace me… I just want to tell you that, for me, no one can ever replace you too. I still want to see you every day. I want to see your smiley eyes. I want to see your dimples when you smile. I want to know how you’re doing. Are you doing alright? I miss you.”

[theoutsideisbeautiful]

I feel like I have no right to complain or feel the way I do. My life is so mediocre and not anywhere near horrible but yet I feel absolutely useless lmao I’m a shit wife, feel like an even shittier mom. I’m tired of being tired.

[theoutsideisbeautiful]

It’s been a while since I posted some personal shit on here and right now I just need to dump all my feelings out.

Ive joined an asexuals/ace forum and god it’s been so nice to be heard for once. To be understood. It’s giving me a lot to think about and how I need to make a decision about my marriage. Dustins been gone on deployment since January and we haven’t really talked about us before he left. He continues to try and guilt trip me about sending sexy photos. Using “you know it’ll make me happy” and “why can’t you just try?” I finally told him I’m not doing anything that makes me uncomfortable and he outright changed the subject.

Im downright terrified to leave. My closest family is 8 hours away and my parents live in a small 2 bedroom trailer (they each have a room) so going there is next to impossible. Im financially dependent on him so there’s no way I can get my own place. I feel stuck

[tantawans]

Wee… you did your best for me, for your mom, and for this experiment. You don’t have to feel guilty anymore. 

[dramaism]

doom puppy in love