Lately I’ve been wondering a lot about what’s the point of it all. Like why are we all just walking around following these silly rules and caring so much about what other people think. Doing things that make us unhappy, and being around people that make us unhappy. And for what? What’s the point, you know?
But that got me thinking maybe I need to start doing the things I want, and being around the people that make me feel good about myself. I feel like I’ve wasted so much of my life away trying to be the person that I thought I needed to be, doing things that I thought I needed to be doing. I thought that it was going to make me feel better, make everything better. But here I am now, not feeling any greater, and I’m starting to realize that that persona I’ve built in my head, is never going to be me. And the more I try, the worse I feel. And I’ve decided that maybe there isn’t really a point to all of this at all. That really it doesn’t matter what you do. So I might as well not waste my time doing anything but exactly what I want to be doing.