its just like. i have a bad day and i come home except i look in the mirror and i have to fucking exist in this body and this brain and there is no fucking escaping it i am trapped here i am trapped in my body and i fucking hate it i want to rip it into shreds and i want to stick my brain with a fucking ice pick i hate myself to an end that does not actually end it just keeps going and going and going and there is no relief from it bc i can distract myself all i want all day but i am still Here and i am still Stuck














