I’ve been doing this for a while so I’ve decided to share a few things I’m going through. There are both positive and negative points and I don’t want anyone to feel motivated to start because of me This is simply to record this experience.
I used to feel bad about thinspo, manly because I didn’t look like those people and desperately wanted to. Now when I look at it I feel somewhat inspired to go on.
I’m worried about going too far and becoming one those people who sees a picture of a girl who is nothing but bones and actually believes that is healthy and/or acceptable
I can do more with my body without the extra weight holding me down. I run faster, jump higher and feel like I’m stronger than before.
I feel cold. Always. Whenever the temperature drops, I can feel it. My blood pressure is also lower, so sometimes I feel lightheaded and/or nauseous
I can fit into places. I don’t have to dodge people in doorways or on the street, I slip right through without effort.
Mah hands. So pretty, so delicate. Before, people used to comment on my nails, how they’re always nice etc. But I always had chubby fingers. Now people constantly tell me how my hands are beautiful and “elegant”
I can buy anything I want. There’s no more of “will it fit me tho?”. Basically all the clothes look good, which also motivated me to try different styles.
I spent more money on clothes lately because my old ones didn’t fit anymore.
I’m dating more. I used to stay at home and never do anything. Now I go to parties and have been with a few people , so I’m enjoying this a lot.
Overall, how people are nicer to me. Don’t know how, but I’ve noticed how I’m treated differently now that I look good and in shape. People smile more and give me freebies at diners and shops.
Something important keep in mind is:
It’s working because I don’t obsess over it.
I don’t avoid eating junk food and
I drink A LOT of water. Always have a bottle on me. Always sippin
I eat twice a day. EVERYDAY. The secret? Eat a regular portion of food but with a shitload of salad on it. Avoid anything fried/industrial, and DONT DRINK DURING MEALS. Btw, I’m vegetarian, so no meat.
Exercise like a hoe. But I don’t go to the gym cause I’m poor. So, I walk a lot everyday (about 12km) and also run when I can and do yoga. I mostly use the Nike Training Club app and it’s awesome. My stomach is flat so now the six pack is coming through
Eat once or twice between meals. But again nothing industrial so fruit, grains and if I really crave something I make it myself so I can make sure it’s healthy.
Now, the absolute nail in the coffin: vitamins. Be smart about it, do some research to find the healthiest choice. Also, use your brain and don’t fall into those scams on Instagram. It doesn’t work.
Why the vitamins? Well, my hair looks great, and also my skin. My nails are strong af and I don’t “look sick” or “feel weak” throughout the day.
NO appetite suppressants. They don’t really work and will wreck your body
So, why do you do things differently?
Cause I’m a smart bitch and y’all should be too.
I know I can only push my body so far before it breaks down and takes me with it. I wanna enjoy being skinny, ya know? I wanna live and be pretty and feel good about myself. I wanna look like a model and smile and take pics and go places and meet people. I wanna live.
Also, I’m a biology student so I KNOW the science behind all of it. I know how much it destroys your body.
I’ve studied real corpses and body parts and cells and the whole process of metabolism. I know shit, not because I saw it on a blog and believed it. But because I did actual research and read books on this whole thing.
What I do still isn’t healthy. Really. I still get lightheaded and starve myself. I know it’s doing awful things to my body.
And why do I keep doing it?
Cause I’d rather do minimal damage to myself than be completely destructive. That’s all.
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