If Your Here, Sorry

This is literally just a page for me to be depressed and shit. Probs triggering. Tbh I’d just leave if I were you. Also, if you reblog stuff imma probs check on you. That’s just a thing.

[cutiealls]

[daddystinygirll]

i grieve for younger me.

you deserved better & you really didn’t know better..

[this-is-my-depressing-page]

I have everything I wanted when I was at my worst… why do I feel no different? What will fill this void within me screaming for more?

[xvelvetcoffinx]

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

the “i wanna go home” never leaves my head even when i’m physically sitting in my bed

[becherdireinen]

nobody talks about how exhausting it is to live in that space between "things will get better" and "i can't handle this anymore." it's like your emotions are constantly swinging. leaving you both hopeful and defeated in the same day.

[speakingspirals]

[anxietyproblem]

[x4ver1a-deactivated20251026]

[this-is-my-depressing-page]

Maybe if I’m hot they’ll stop thinking about what a mess I am

[disappearintheether]

[ghostgiving]

like imagine neglecting and abusing a child to the point where they don't know when it's appropriate to get medical care. imagine hurting them so bad and doubting everything they say and think and feel so much that they can never trust themselves ever again. imagine making it so your kid can be in so much pain they're almost throwing up and still being totally convinced that they're making it all up for attention and don't deserve help and should stop being so dramatic and get off their ass and do something already.

imagine a child putting off calling for help despite passing out several times a day and getting a concussion because they don't believe they're not just making it up.

this is what adults do to children. they make it so we can never trust ourselves, and then we grow up to be adults who refuse to be around kids because we don't want to hurt them like we were hurt.

this is what adults do to us.

[traaumaa]

[this-is-my-depressing-page]

It’s like I need the love of 10 people, just to be satiated. Is this because I never got any before or because I’m just a selfish piece of shit? Find out the answer…. never

[traaumaa]

[traumaontumblerdotcom]

Being neglected by rich parents is the weirdest fucking experience. How do I explain that I went hungry at school and went on a carribean vacation in the same year? My dad drove a BMW at the same time I was being essentially raised by neighbors. It barely makes sense and no one relates

[this-is-my-depressing-page]

How do I explain I got a sports car for my 16th birthday, but also was locked in my room for hours as a toddler as a response to me having and autistic meltdown? Like there’s not a hint of normal here

[ourson-guimauve]

Is it autism, trauma, or am I just a faker ?

- a question without answer

[my-throat-grew-teeth]

And we are back to spiralling downwards. Welcome.

[ourson-guimauve]

Forever trapped between loving my parents and hating them for all the ways they have failed me