Lazy days

paleness, flowers, the city, text posts, kind words, palm trees, white beds, romance, the human body. i love you more

[dobladim]

[peachypalm]

[imblushy]

ig @isisilvach

[senseitive]

too busy watering my own grass to check if yours is greener

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[fenday]

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[this-momenttt-blog]

My cousin killed himself. My mother called me up crying to tell me. There was so much pain for the man who she used to babysit, for the father of two who was so worried about losing custody now, for the person that was always so funny and who had a, granted it was sometimes offensive, remarkable wit. I'm having a hard time processing it all, but as I heard my mom crying trying to talk about it and heard all the love for someone that was not even her own, I could not help but feel how wrong this is all is. It is wrong that he is gone, that he felt this was his only option, it's wrong that everyone who loved him so so much is in so much pain. Suicide is not the answer, no matter how much it hurts. I'm reminded of the time where all I wanted to do was die, where I thought of suicide often, and I feel so lucky that I did not give in and I feel so bad for him that he felt like he had no other option. If only he would have seen how much everyone is crying for him. I feel bad because his pain overshadowed all the love for him, and I feel bad that all that pain he had did not disappear, but has spread onto everyone else. I feel an enormous emptiness, like there is forever a hole in my family, even though I was not nearly as close to him as others were. People care, even when you don't think they do, even when life seems awful. For anyone else thinking about it, please don't, trust me, you don't know how much everyone will miss you. RIP

[rumineely]

[35-24-35]

toned, slim, motivational girls

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ig:  maggielanteigne

[this-momenttt-blog]

Reasons why I love my boy

At the supermarket the other day we were looking for the hand soap because it was not in its usual display. I went to the right and found it three aisles over, while Ant went further straight to see if they had put it on other displays. Since it’s winter I wanted something moisturizing for my hands, but I remember Ant has a preference for the clear kind with fishes on the background because that’s what he always had a kid, so I reluctantly pick that one to surprise him even though it's known I don't like that soap. I walk over to where I knew he was holding it out to show him, but he doesn’t see me. When I get there he turns and sees me with the soap, and develops the ever-so innocent face of a kid that’s just been caught doing something, so I look down to see he had just grabbed the clear soap with the fish background.

[this-momenttt-blog]

I have such a hard time making/maintaining friendships and it makes me feel really bad about myself. I really can't fit into groups at all and I don't know why I'm so different from everyone and why no one likes me.

[aureliism]

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