My Spice of Life

This is. My Spice of Life This is a journey to learn what makes My Spice of Life so important.

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January 13, 2018

Life got real and smacked me in the face. 

I’m here expressing that life got REALLY real in a matter of days. It felt like ‘a tornado met a volcano’ and it was just a ball going downhill without slowing down. But here I am, finally standing up (sorta) and fed up with this situation. It’s time for a change. But how? Living with Anxiety AND Depression. Simple tasks of just cleaning up or cooking become horribly difficult. It’s tough to get out of bed. It’s tough to be awake. It’s tough to be. But I am blessed enough to have an amazing man in my life who brings a glimmer of light into my darkest days. I know I’m being unreasonably crabby. But you see, everything around me is falling apart. I may look fine behind this Snapchat filter but I’m crashing. 

Then Life Got EVEN MORE REAL

Something needs to happen soon. Like NOW. Depression is low when Anxiety runs HIGH. Moves need to be made. I’m in a bad spot and if I don’t become pro-active now things are going to just get rough. So here I am. I’m trying to turn it around. I am in the 27-year-old questionable life-altering year.  I lost my job back in June. It was abrupt. I took it bad. I was already suffering from anxiety/depression and this just amplified it by about a million. Then one of my favorite musical artist Chester Bennington went down his dark path and ended his life. I couldn’t bear the pain. Like everything else that I can’t bare, I block it out. Well. I have dealt with the grief and its time to move on. It’s time to better myself. It’s time to better my mental health and maybe inspire someone else while in the process. 

I am on a fitness/health improvement journey. I will follow fitblrs/tumblrs but I very rarely see just a support group based on helping people with mental health struggles. Let us be more open. Let us talk about it. Let us have more shoulders to lean on. Let us talk. Let us heal. 

My anxiety tells me, don’t put yourself out there, no one cares. But I can’t dare to think that if for a slight chance I can reach out to someone and brighten their day knowing someone else is with you, someone else understands. You are not alone. You will push through. We will all push through. 

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January 1, 2018. 

A few weeks ago I decided, I want to start something for this new year. I want to invoke the ‘Spice of Life’ on a platform.

What is the Spice of Life you ask? Well, that has to do with who I am. But, that is what makes MY Spice of Life special to me. This is my journey. And I hope to include others and make the Spice Of Life a part of everyone's healthy wellbeing.

Personally, I’ve dealt with depression and anxiety for quite some time and have befriended many in similar situations as I. However, no one is really talking about this with an open dialogue. I never mean to poke when I ask questions, I know this is a personal issue. But let us normalize a shitty situation and help support others into rising above a struggle or issue.  So for 2018, Compliment a stranger! I know that having social anxiety can make you feel susceptible to insecure thoughts. But what if one nice thing you say to someone you don’t know actually brightens someone else's day!? What if we start a compliment train from online and IRL (in real life).  Back in the day, (Mean girls movie era) the thought of someone giving a compliment to a stranger meant that they were secretly being deceiving and not actually being genuine.

LET’S BE GENUINE.  LET’S BE REAL. LET US COMPLIMENT THE EVERY DAY INDIVIDUAL.  Because you never really know. One compliment can change how a persons day is going.

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