it’s positivity selfie night once again, and i’ll admit, with school coming up, i’m fucking tired. my school is… lets just say that some of the teachers should not be teachers. ever since i was a kid, i’ve been on an iep plan for god knows what. i don’t even remember why i was put on there in the first place. all i know is with this plan, it’s supposed to help me academically and socially, and it ain’t doing jack shit. all it’s done is give teachers and staff the ability to control and abuse me emotionally, and it’s been tough. when i was in seventh grade, my abusive teacher tried to yank me out of the lunch line, like put his hand on my arm and yanked it. suddenly i’m the bad guy and unstable when i yell at him to get the fuck away from me, and that he has no rights to put his hands on me. it’s now on my file that i enjoy yelling and screaming at teachers and students. it’s now affecting my schedule and the ability to take control of my own education. it took me years to realize that this is wrong, and that it’s also not my fault. i sent an email to my case manager telling her that i want out of this jail cell, and i was told that it was things like that that would get me fired from a job. all i told her was that i was tired of being controlled like a fucking race car. anyways, what i’ve had to learn is to be positive, that i will escape it somehow, and remind myself that even through all this, no matter what these people have to say, i’ve managed to still be a decent person all this time. there’s been three new Taylor Swift albums since it began, and that’s helped me through it a LOT, i don’t know what i would do without her. anyways, if you are going through some shit, please remember that there’s light at the end of the tunnel, and there are always people to talk to, whether it’s a family member, friends, a therapist, talking through it all can really really help. anyways, i’m done. have an awesome day. :)
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