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due to a series of uninformed decisions...

i never realized only primary tumblrs had certain priveledges  :P 

SO! i'm moving. new content will be posted at:

thisispublic.tumblr.com 

:)

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tumblr always makes me feel like i don't go to the gym enough.

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Pretty sure I'm the only one using the Keurig for hot chocolate.

Haha.

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if this post is still up, i'm still looking.

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Had my first work dream :P here we go!

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ask me anything, guys guy.

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i'm going to start filtering less, and just getting stuff out there. this is going to be a space where i experiment and things don't have to be perfect. 

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alright, new years resolution. post more.

[mrzykmoriceau-deactivated202012]

[blogufo-deactivated20141213]

I’m done

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i want to remember how i'm feeling right now when i wake up tomorrow. i want to be inspired, maintain this momentum. i want to accomplish things. a lot of things. i want to be proud. 

[new-punk]

[synmurayama]

[erwinmeyskensdehuy]

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do i have anything interesting to say?

probably not. [shrug]

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blindfolds

I've always been into heightening my senses during sex. For instance, my discovery of poppers was a glorious one. But more recently I've become more and more interested in blindfolds and restraints. Handing control over to someone. My heart beats faster not knowing what he's about to do, and every breath on my skin feels incredible. 

The problem is that after watching this TED talk about porn, and talking to my therapist about intimacy, I realized that I might be wiring my brain to disconnect the physical act of sex from intimacy. And some part of that is definitely hot... to use and be used. But I also don't want to become disinterested or lose my ability to connect with someone. I think being conscious of my actions help, but does this mean I should stop altogether? Maybe I can cultivate other types/aspects of sex that embrace intimacy, sometimes as even more important than the sexual act itself. I think pup play does this...  ...we shall see :)

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[isnathanreal]

with teeth and nail