A Mouth Faster Than My Brain But Not My Heart

God only gives their toughest battles to their cuntiest warriors

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Some days I wake up with this song buzzing in my ears.

“Feeling like I need to fall down some stairs

Maybe lay face down in the river and float

Perfect weather for a head wound

Or studying sophisticated nuances of putting holes in your lungs

150 million years, war and the bomb

All reasons to be fearful but every noon, wake up”

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I wanted to evoke a sense of yearning, “girlhood”, and the transition from childhood to adulthood. This shoot become infused with the song “Used to be young” by Miley Cyrus. I dunno if it ultimately translates. I’m proud of these though.

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Was going for a retro noir damsel in distress vibe.

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Sharing some photos I’m in proud of taking over the years.

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I’ve tried religion, art, astrology, therapy, history, genealogy, in no particular order to attempt to begin and steady this restless mind that keeps me awake.

Searching for answers to questions I haven’t even knowingly asked yet. Patience eludes me and then I wonder if another 10 years will go by in a blink of an eye. Gathering up years worth addition trinkets and baubles to end up on the shelves of thrift stores of days yet to come.

#introspection #spiritualjourney #destination

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It was such a treat when ARR released their newest album Sandbox. Great pondering music. Great for self-reflection.

“I guess I can’t remember

April through September, still, well

Christmas in November

July, you lied, you lied to me still

And then you tell me all about the things I don’t want to hear

I close my eyes and look around and you disappear

Better watch your temper, temper, temper, temper

You better cool off, boy”

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“Now the time has come I just wish I could erase

All the damage done to your name and your keepsakes

It's only just begun, it's been fun, we were blind, deaf and dumb

There's a party in my closet calling all skeletons

All Ske-e-e-e all skeletons

Calling all-oh-oh-oh”

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Is the Album “What it is to Burn” by Finch actually a dark horse for my favorite album of all time? Maybe…

“What am I supposed to do?

Should I sit, wait for you?

Listen to me screaming more

Tell me now just what am I supposed to do?

Should I sit, wait for you?

Listen to me screaming more”

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“You open up again, I'm closing every door

'Cause once you called it off I never said I wanted more

It's hard to be this way, when you know everything

And you're still hurting me for reasons that I can't explain

I need to figure out a way to let it go

It's not okay to be afraid of someone I don't know

And I could give it up but that would make me think

'Bout how I'm freaking out every time a phone rings”

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“So follow the leader down

And swallow your pride and drown

When there's no place left to go

Maybe that's when you will know

Follow the leader down

And swallow your pride and drown

When there's no place left to go

Maybe that's when you will know”

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An absolute banger that only get better with time.

“I’m writing again

These letters to you

Aren’t much I know

But I’m not sleeping

And you’re not here

The thought stops my heart”

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I’d rather freeze than sweat. Summer is fun though, just not my de facto season.