Alright, folks, I’m sorry, but:
I think it’s time we settled some things, and I think it’s time I get out of here.
By the time you’re reading this, this blog will be under someone else’s control so that it can be locked down and I can be prevented from logging into it. I will not be returning to it; I’m making damn sure I can’t return to it, even if my anxiety demands it.
The fact is, I’m not a good person.
I’ve been responsible for all sorts of havoc behind the scenes here in the Dark Souls community; between the desperate need for validation and the complete inability to let things go, I’ve managed to ruin friendship after friendship and at best get on the nerves of people who care about me. My inability to understand other people on the most basic level has routinely caused me to hurt others in ways I can’t even comprehend.
Rather than continuing to do this every time my brain decides it doesn’t like me at the moment, I’m going to simply remove myself from the equation. I should’ve done this before, so that people who were made uncomfortable by my being around could come back and do their thing, but I didn’t, because I was selfish. This is not a plea for help. I am not a victim. This is a confession of guilt and me finally doing something about it.
If we’ve met on tumblr, then I think it’s best we part ways. The friends I’ve made here are infinitely important to me, but I am not the person you think I am, and it’s best you not find out who that is.
This blog has been a huge help to me, for the most part, in keeping myself happy, and I hope some of the writing has helped you, too. Thank you for all your time and friendship. You’ve been wonderful.
--Chez












